What's Bothering You?

I know it's not fun for them but yeah, someone hacking public service radio's twitter accounts and posting like "hey baby wassup *****" lmao...
 
Seeing how people still hate the Astros and constantly talking about the sign-stealing scandal (combined with the cancel culture that happened over the summer) tells me another trait where society is going downhill - forgiveness. I already know that people are no longer being honest, and people wouldn’t condone neutrality as those who are being neutral or indifferent to issues are being scorned. Now they won’t forgive anymore.
 
Im trying to disable all my social medias but Instagram won't let me disable my account until late Sunday night because I accidentally logged back on into my account uuuuugh.

I've officially decided I'm deleting everything because I realized I've fallen into the toxic trap of comparing my life to other people's lives. I might as well just disable everything at this point because it's so painful to look at compared to my uneventful and boring life. It's my first year of college and people are already making friends easily and going out while I'm stuck at home because I don't live on campus. I'm done with that toxic habit and I might as well get rid of it all if it's going to cause me to feel this way. It's like the universe just spat on my face and said "ha screw you, this is what you're missing out and it's your fault for not doing anything".
 
Im trying to disable all my social medias but Instagram won't let me disable my account until late Sunday night because I accidentally logged back on into my account uuuuugh.

I've officially decided I'm deleting everything because I realized I've fallen into the toxic trap of comparing my life to other people's lives. I might as well just disable everything at this point because it's so painful to look at compared to my uneventful and boring life. It's my first year of college and people are already making friends easily and going out while I'm stuck at home because I don't live on campus. I'm done with that toxic habit and I might as well get rid of it all if it's going to cause me to feel this way. It's like the universe just spat on my face and said "ha screw you, this is what you're missing out and it's your fault for not doing anything".
I should do that but it's easy keeping up with some stores/artists etc. I like but I should definitely clear my list of what I'm following...
 
Isn’t it great to have a friend that says they care about you more than anything but turn around and straight up say they’d rather talk to their messy, bad influence friends and then would rather straight up leave than talk to you? What an amazing feeling, totally not degrading at all. Apparently people who support toxic behavior and childish qualms are so amazing and much better than literally everything i’ve done for them. No wonder i feel like i’m just getting used by them, the only times they get really invested in our conversations is when i have to play makeshift therapist and whenever it’s over they throw me under the bus all over again. How is it fair that i have to constantly remind you i’d rather be with you than my other friends when you do the exact opposite for me, just constantly bashing in the idea that i’m not good enough for them. I want to fix things between the two of us, more than anything at all but they’re just being so fricking difficult and i can hardly express how frustrated i am
 
just found an old document on my laptop, written one week after my cat Daisy died back in 2018. I read through it and it brought back so many good and awful memories. it made me sob. I miss her so much. it's been over two years and I still can't get over losing her.

I am so sorry :(. I think it’s normal and fine to continue grieving for her. That’s what my mom tells me since I still cry about my sister’s cat (who was mine too since she used to live with us before my sister moved and she was the litter mate of one of my other cats) and my cat (who was the litter mate of my other remaining cat) who died a month after her. I have pictures of them on the day or week before I had to say good bye and it makes me extremely depressed whenever I pass them up. I truly am sorry and for the fact that there isn’t much I can tell you other than I relate to this so much and I really feel your pain :(. If you want to chat even if it’s not about this, I’m always open to dms. :)
 
A part of me wants to try dating sites while another part would rather wait and see what happens. There’s just something scary about putting myself out there and messaging strangers.
 
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