What's Bothering You?
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the secondhand embarrassment i felt for the people who transcribed yesterday's lecture
they made a huge gaping mistake on the very first page and idk what they were thinking, normally im forgiving but right now it's just,, the mistake was so obviously a mistake why did 6 people who worked on the transcription not see it
they made a huge gaping mistake on the very first page and idk what they were thinking, normally im forgiving but right now it's just,, the mistake was so obviously a mistake why did 6 people who worked on the transcription not see it
xSuperMario64x
a very tired Bug 🪲💤
just found an old document on my laptop, written one week after my cat Daisy died back in 2018. I read through it and it brought back so many good and awful memories. it made me sob. I miss her so much. it's been over two years and I still can't get over losing her.
DinosaurDumpster
You're watching Disney Channel
My best friend died today.
Shadow, the dog. At 9 years old.
I've never been more depressed in my whole life. She was always there for me. The one person I could talk to.
Shadow, the dog. At 9 years old.
I've never been more depressed in my whole life. She was always there for me. The one person I could talk to.
SmoochsPLH
Happy vibes ✌️🌈🎈🧸
seasonal depression and mother nature are trying to hit at the same time whoa boi
Dawnpiplup
Kick ass.
First and foremost, I just want to say that right now I am safe and doing fine. I just wanted to vent somewhere, and just a warning because this will contain suicidal ideations. So don't read further if that triggers you.
I went on a rollercoaster ride with my emotions today. I didn't start the day off right anyways - I was depressed. During lunchtime, I had partaken in a little incident with my family and it did not go so well. Words of contempt and names were hurled at me. The second time I took the car out for a drive, I was sobbing as I drove and the faintest notion of driving off a bridge or cliff came to mind. However, I didn't do that. I just slowly drove around the neighborhood, as I did have to attend a meeting session with a professor. Eventually I started feeling better and drove around the city. When I got back home to dress up and go visit my friend, I was at first cheerful. I responded to my mom's yells with just positivity. That was my way to cope. Eventually things added on, with my grandma saying things as well. They seemed to feel inferior to my friends because of me hanging out with them more than with my family. Things started to mentally derail for me. I sobbed for a long time in my friend's mom's car on the way to her college campus. I thought about buying some sleeping medications or overdosing on my meds. As things passed though, so did those thoughts. I regained composure and I've been trying to motivate myself. I came back not too long ago and my grandma was ranting about how I just use my family and how she hates her life and wants to die or live in a nursing home. I didn't go off the rails that time. Just been taking deep breaths. I'm trying to keep it together. I don't really want to die. I just want to escape.
hey, i know we don’t know each other all that well but i know dealing with your family isn’t easy at all and i’m really sorry. family can be an absolute nightmare at times and you deserve better. if it’s any consolation, i’m glad you didn’t do what you thought about doing and if you ever need to talk, i’m here for you
it's been bugging me since earlier but I remember why I hate myself so much art-wise
I remember joining an organization in 2015 and was part of the publicity committee, I didn't know a lot about designing posters that time (the only thing I had going for me was that I was a so-so artist) so I was pretty bad at it I guess. But I loved making art and wanted to get better with making posters so I thought why not join and learn right
Well turns out the members hated the **** I did and didn't bother at least teaching me how to become better, they just decided to kick me off the project I was initially supposed to head and they didn't even tell me about it. I explicitly remember the night when they had a meeting for said event, at the time I was pretty sure I was the head for publicity but no one told me about the meeting until after it had finished and I found out someone else (better than me) from the publicity team went instead. I guess ever since then I've had deep and bad insecurities about the way I make posters and do art
That was years ago and I am getting better I think, but the deep-rooted insecurities make me feel that whenever someone compliments me for making posters or, heck, even the magazine competition last fair, sometimes I feel like I don't deserve it or whatever.
Today I submitted a draft for a poster to one of the event heads and they said they really liked it, no further comments given. It gives me so much anxiety sometimes with the way I always think they're just too shy to say they hated it when they say they have no other comments, I just try not to stress about it but I do ahahah. An hour ago I was also tapped by one of my classmates to make merch to raise class funds after they stumbled upon some of my artwork, and my initial thought was that they couldn't get anyone else to make merch so maybe I was their last option sdkjfhsdlfj i dunno
I should be studying okay bye
I remember joining an organization in 2015 and was part of the publicity committee, I didn't know a lot about designing posters that time (the only thing I had going for me was that I was a so-so artist) so I was pretty bad at it I guess. But I loved making art and wanted to get better with making posters so I thought why not join and learn right
Well turns out the members hated the **** I did and didn't bother at least teaching me how to become better, they just decided to kick me off the project I was initially supposed to head and they didn't even tell me about it. I explicitly remember the night when they had a meeting for said event, at the time I was pretty sure I was the head for publicity but no one told me about the meeting until after it had finished and I found out someone else (better than me) from the publicity team went instead. I guess ever since then I've had deep and bad insecurities about the way I make posters and do art
That was years ago and I am getting better I think, but the deep-rooted insecurities make me feel that whenever someone compliments me for making posters or, heck, even the magazine competition last fair, sometimes I feel like I don't deserve it or whatever.
Today I submitted a draft for a poster to one of the event heads and they said they really liked it, no further comments given. It gives me so much anxiety sometimes with the way I always think they're just too shy to say they hated it when they say they have no other comments, I just try not to stress about it but I do ahahah. An hour ago I was also tapped by one of my classmates to make merch to raise class funds after they stumbled upon some of my artwork, and my initial thought was that they couldn't get anyone else to make merch so maybe I was their last option sdkjfhsdlfj i dunno
I should be studying okay bye
Also, my uttermost pet peeve is when my friends and I plan a game night and I ask to have it later or that I'll be late bc my family usually eats late or smth
We usually play 9 or 9:30 pm and the first time I had it moved was bc my mom and I were waiting for my dad, we were supposed to eat at 8 pm but he had an emergency to attend to and came back 9 pm so we only had dinner then
a few other times I was late to game night was bc of chores or eating late, I really hate leaving my mom to clean up after and only ask to leave the dining table early if I have to study or have an urgent meeting, but otherwise I hoped my friends would understand my situation better
Every time we plan game night I always turn sour bc they pick on me constantly for this kind of thing. No matter how I say "sorry I want to accompany my parents to dinner" they always pick on me for this kind of thing, even though I'm actually the first to show up for game night sometimes. I always tell them to just start without me if it bothers them that much. I'm trying to make time for everyone and I usually prioritize my family, idk why it's so hard for them to respect that. I hate it
We usually play 9 or 9:30 pm and the first time I had it moved was bc my mom and I were waiting for my dad, we were supposed to eat at 8 pm but he had an emergency to attend to and came back 9 pm so we only had dinner then
a few other times I was late to game night was bc of chores or eating late, I really hate leaving my mom to clean up after and only ask to leave the dining table early if I have to study or have an urgent meeting, but otherwise I hoped my friends would understand my situation better
Every time we plan game night I always turn sour bc they pick on me constantly for this kind of thing. No matter how I say "sorry I want to accompany my parents to dinner" they always pick on me for this kind of thing, even though I'm actually the first to show up for game night sometimes. I always tell them to just start without me if it bothers them that much. I'm trying to make time for everyone and I usually prioritize my family, idk why it's so hard for them to respect that. I hate it
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trashpedia
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This has been bothering me for a while but recently I've been noticing that a lot of my non-American friends on Discord have sorta just been ranting to me about whatever is wrong with the US more often. I'm usually try to be there for people but lately I've been noticing how it's been all about the same subject and that they kinda address me only as if they expect me to do something about it.
Lately I've been trying to keep out of the news and social media a lot lately because it's been exhausting to my mental health, along with the fact that I've been struggling through college. It also doesn't help that I've been noticing how they are showing signs of using me as a token friend to say stuff like "I have a POC American friend so of course I know whatever is going on there and how horrible life is there". they never seem to talk to me about any subject other than that.
The last week or so, I've been at my lowest point so I started calling them out a bit more and replying "That sounds awful, but I don't think there's much I can do about it myself anyways :/" only to have them reply "tElL YoUr pEoPlE To sToP BeInG So iGnOrAnT. i sWeAr yOu aMeRiCaNs aRe sUpEr aNtI-FaCtS AnD LoGiStIcS ThAt iTs hIlArIoUs tO WaTcH. " as if I'm some sort of Instagram influencer that can control 328 million people.
I recently softblocked them and deleted Discord after one of them wanted to rant to me about what some other American said on Twitter.
I don't need this right now.
Lately I've been trying to keep out of the news and social media a lot lately because it's been exhausting to my mental health, along with the fact that I've been struggling through college. It also doesn't help that I've been noticing how they are showing signs of using me as a token friend to say stuff like "I have a POC American friend so of course I know whatever is going on there and how horrible life is there". they never seem to talk to me about any subject other than that.
The last week or so, I've been at my lowest point so I started calling them out a bit more and replying "That sounds awful, but I don't think there's much I can do about it myself anyways :/" only to have them reply "tElL YoUr pEoPlE To sToP BeInG So iGnOrAnT. i sWeAr yOu aMeRiCaNs aRe sUpEr aNtI-FaCtS AnD LoGiStIcS ThAt iTs hIlArIoUs tO WaTcH. " as if I'm some sort of Instagram influencer that can control 328 million people.
I recently softblocked them and deleted Discord after one of them wanted to rant to me about what some other American said on Twitter.
I don't need this right now.
DarkDesertFox
Your Typical Trickster
Well I got two days of not covering that account but... looks like she's out again for a doctor appointment so I have to cover it again. Aye... I hope this doesn't drain all my energy to enjoy Friday. I worked hard this week just to relax at the end of it.
Disneyfangirl23
🦁 Lion King fangirl 🦁
Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and change things
game comparisons. new game, new mechanics, new items. get over it already. you prefer a different game, go play that; no one needs to see or hear you ragging about it constantly because it doesn't live up to your pedestal of an expectation.
