What's Bothering You?

[xSuperMario64x]

I hate my life. And I hate how I'm too much of a worthless, lazy piece of **** to do anything to fix it.

I used to think I was lazy but it turned out to be executive function disorder. basically you're aware that you have something you need to do but you just can't get yourself to do anything about it. it's not being lazy, it's literally your mind holding you back for no reason. it often causes a lot of stress and it makes me feel the same way that you're feeling here. Idk if you actually have this or if you really are just lazy, but I'm sorry you feel that way.


oh boyy I've got a lot of bs wrong today so let's go down the list.
- I was supposed to help load up band instruments at the drama center this morning and I totally forgot about it until I got to my first class. just great.
- I keep forgetting to sign up for a time to present my songwriting project for jazz history. I was supposed to do it last week.
- My dog keeps eating stuff off the ground outside and I really need to get him a training collar (and possibly also a muzzle) but I'm flat broke and can't get that stuff til I get paid on Friday.
- in speaking of getting paid... I'm flat broke for the rest of the week. I don't even have money for an emergency. I'm just screwed basically.
- I have a debate statement due for history this Wednesday and I don't have either of the books I need for it, I've found some good online resources but my prof explicitly said not to use online sources without his prior approval.
- this week there will be a town hall meet with the president of the university to talk about plans for next semester (regarding the virus) and I've heard that there is a possibility that they will make us go remote next semester. I don't want to go back home. I hate it there. If they end up making us go remote I'm gonna ask my brother if I can stay w him.


so yeah basically life is really trash rn lmao

 

[oak]

The new people downstairs officially moved in and they have a baby. The repetitive crying sound of a baby just cuts right through me, it is so bothersome to the core. It was crying up a storm last night. They are a new young family though so I'm never going to complain cause it's not like you can just ask the baby to stop crying lol. That's just what normal babies do. Plus I want to be understanding despite the clear differences between our family dynamics.

 

[Alienfish]

thank god for blocking elements in firefox. like no i dont want to see ignored content i block users for very good reasons and i don't like doing it.

 

[_Rainy_]

No sleep... oh boy. I’m going to be super tired and unstable today. Probably best if I seal myself off for awhile, lol...

 

[spawnpoint]

bruhh why can't people take a hint ;;

 

[xSuperMario64x]

so i legit sent an apology email to the ensemble director about me not being able to load up instruments this morning and he's like "It's okay, also you're not scheduled to do that until Nov 23rd anyways."

so now not only am I stressed but I'm also embarrassed because I probably sounded like an idiot to my professor. I'm actually skipping my last class cause I just can't handle any stress anymore. I'm so tired of everything.

 

[Soigne]

i don't understand why i don't respect myself enough to put an end to the bull**** this guy keeps putting me through because somehow here i am again.

 

[Dawnpiplup]

STUPID *****ES I HATE ALL OF YOU11!!!1!1!

 

[Stella-Io]

For 2 or 3 days know it feels like I have a bruise right on my hip bone area, but there's no bruise, cut or anythin. It hurts to sleep on it do I try to avoid sleeping on that side, but the pain is still there. Whye.

 

[ali.di.magix]

work

 

[Neb]

I want another cup of coffee, but it’s 6 P.M. and I want to fix my sleep schedule again.

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

STUPID *****ES I HATE ALL OF YOU11!!!1!1!

Thanks.

 

[Dawnpiplup]

Thanks.

yw bro

nah it's not you guys I was referring to anyways, but my family

 

[Clock]

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[Alienfish]

this unemployment site never working like...... okay i need to check on my stuff there but i can't um hello fix it

 

[Sheep Villager]

Thought I would be productive today but then I woke up with a headache and painkillers make me sleepy.
Guess I'm not doing anything today after all.​

 

[Tianna]

I keep having dreams of being friends with people who cut me out of their life and it's a vicious cycle of pain and agony

 

[spawnpoint]

Spoiler: Tw Death

Idk if this is true, but one of my relative has passed away like recently, I'm really sad and upset right now...

I'm so sorry for your loss.. Stay strong :c

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I can't leave here for 40 min but this silence and monotony is driving me crazy. I usually enjoy my art class more if people are talking or if I have someone to talk to while I work. idk maybe I should bring my headphones next time, even though they're really bulky and kinda awkward.

 

[oak]

My rabbit chewed my boots. I know it's my fault for leaving them on the floor though lol. She chewed all along the top so where you put your foot in has no stitching anymore, just a frayed chewed mess. It's like she was a can opener going around the top rim of my boots haha. I'm just glad she didn't eat the pieces lmao