My eating habits are so out of whack. I have no idea when I am, or am not supposed to eat. Everybody tells me I'm underweight, but I legitimately am not. Sure, I'm on the younger side of the spectrum, but that doesn't mean I'm anorexic. I eat a normal amount, and sometimes even more. I've lost 8 pounds and grown an inch in the past 9 months, but I probably needed it. I've never been skinny as a child so I like the way my body is now. But now I feel like munching on food all the time, even when I'm not hungry. It's entirely frustrating. I just need to pray about it and acknowledge that God made me beautifully.
On another note, dealing with people right now just causes pure drama. A girl I've been friends with for 4 years has put me through so much mental pain I've cried tears upon tears. Yet everytime I come back to her, thinking she's changed. I know I'm supposed to be forgiving, and I do forgive her, but I don't know if I want her in my life anymore. However, cutting her out makes everybody that I'm close with mad at me. Nobody understands what she's did to me. Her boyfriend acts nothing like her. He wrote me a letter thanking me for being by his side, and now I don't want to cut her off, for his sake. He's been through a lot, and he can't trust his girlfriend to vent to right now, only me. I feel pressured to stay, but I don't think it's good for me. She's been telling me to do some not.. good things lately, it's just a big mess. I could go on a lot longer than this, but I don't think my brain could handle thinking about all of it right now.
