What's Bothering You?

Trying to fall asleep when I got suddenly hit by a nauseating hunger pain. I’m like wth... then I think back on it and slowly realize I just straight up forgot to eat anything when I got home today o_O
 
I can't sleep because I'm thinking about all the **** that needs to be done before the family comes over tomorrow. Things like washing the sheets, disinfecting the washer and drier, cleaning things, etc. Plus I gotta figure out how to deal with a certain 'habit' of mine when they're staying over here. Then there's scholarships, creating a resume for said scholarships and upcoming jobs. There's just a bunch of things to do, you know?

... **** it, I can't fall asleep anyways. Coffee time.
Habit?
 
People who are illogical and unreasonable.
 
I don’t want to keep complaining about Discord, but here we are. I couldn’t get these items because I didn’t join the other server being advertised before I won and when I contacted them and just joined the other server, the prize is forfeited? I get rules are rules but I’m facepalming myself big time
 
I didn't sleep too well. My sisters alarm kept going off for some reason at full blast, the wind from the open window kept moving my door around, and I got a crick in my neck from my weird sleeping position and it still hurts.
 
There was a homeless guy digging in the garbage and it made me sad cause we have a nice warm house to live in for Christmas but he has to freeze almost to death every night. I gave him 20 bucks and he started to cry so I cried cause I'm not good at holding it in. Even after I walked away I couldn't stop crying cause my province is filled with homeless people and hundreds of people have no reason to be joyous this season. Homeless people walk up and down my street every day. My holiday spirit has turned melancholy sigh
 
Feeling extremely depressed and anxious. I am dreading tomorrow. I just want to stay home for christmas. my mom says it isn’t fair to the grandkids if they don’t see us, but they saw their other grandparents. plus it is a pandemic, the virus doesn’t care what is fair and not fair to kids. what about your own daughter and her anxiety issues? if we got security or took turns visiting for christmas every other year, or if my sister had her cat still (she passed away three years ago) i’d be a little better about going. but since my mom wants to move eventually no point getting security even if we could afford it. i don’t want to move but i have no choice since i am dependent on them. most of my friends are relatively close where we live now but totally not if we move to where my sister is and i have no car and am too scared to drive. so i’ll never be able to see them again. i want to be here when my friend who is stuck outside the country waiting for citizenship comes back :/. my mom says everything will be fine. well, the minute you think that, something is bound to happen.
 
I'm having a really hard time, worse than I thought I would...
My Grandfather passed away last month and this being my first Christmas without him... I'm feeling very depressed. Gonna try and do my best to stay in the holiday spirit but so far... It's rough.
My heart to anyone who may be going through the same struggle, whether you've lost someone long ago or are just not able to spend the day same as we have year after year. Merry Christmas to everyone 💗 and a happy New Year.
 
I sent the wrong message to a group chat and I'm a bit embarrassed
Thankfully I unsent it
 
we opened presents today and one of my figurines got a little damaged on the mail. not only that, the paint and an arm is not as shown in the picture. like luffy’s eyes are two centered and law’s arm is too high.

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Be good, kiddies or the krampus'll get ya!
 
i hate my job. i'm on the verge of quitting and being unemployed for a while. plus i have to go to work tomorrow morning, but it's snowing a **** ton right now and i don't really want to get stuck at like 5am on my way to work because the roads are iced over. i live in the mountains and all i need is to get stuck in a ditch when it's like 10 degrees.
 
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