What's Bothering You?

Whelp I cried for the first time in three months.

My crush (who apparently likes me back) had to go to the hospital due to a chronic condition. They'll be okay, but I'm sad I can't be there to comfort them. We have several hundred miles and a national border between us. Even if I had the ability to drive up I wouldn't be able to visit. I wish I had the guts to say "I love you."
 
Oh hey another period post.

I just got mine today after like 2 weeks of cramps and I woke up with a headache today, not knowing why. Then later I found out why. Also being on my period makes my stomach hurt so sometimes I can't eat as much food as I should be.

What also comes with my period is the eternal question, 'do I have a blood issue?' I wasn't feeling great so I figured once I got on break from work and ate, I'd feel better. Nope, did not. But after I ate 5 gummibears I felt a bit better, so I prob need more sugary foods, which always makes me think that I have a blood sugar issue. Which, maybe might explain why I crave sweets VERY often, even while not being on a period. But idk. It's one of those things that I feel NEEDS to have a test for a solid answer.
 
idk why i bother anymore
i was having such a nice day til everyone just started being such a pain, i can't deal with this

i try to put my anger to the side but everyone is literally just ugh, idk i give up
 
I'm stuck in this game, tryna convict Redd White and I just don't know how to go about presenting any evidence when everything I try to do gets me knocked back a peg lol
 
My audition is due in 2 weeks or so and i'm still no good at singing. It's not awful... I just don't think I'll qualify for show choir, and i'll probably end up in concert or mixed.
h e l p.
 
What are you trying to prove?
I had nothing to prove actually. our poor lad Mr Wright passed out TWICE in the courthouse lol (dw I figured it out eventually, and yes he ended up being fine and winning the case)

I should've gone to bed like 2 hours ago but I can't sleep when a game as hilarious as Ace Attorney exists 😆
 
I’m sick of my life. I have no meaning or purpose anymore. People always say that when a parent of yours dies you get “stronger” or more “mature,” but it has been several months since my mom died now and all I feel is pain and sadness that won’t go away. I desperately want a hug or something from someone other than my family, but I can’t receive one right now, and no one would give me one anyway. I’m sick of growing up and everything, ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING associated with it. I can’t get a decent job that I like even though I have a degree, and I’m not super happy about the interview I have next week since it’s for a job that isn’t close. The ONLY person who has comforted me the most during these times is my significant other, and if she wasn’t around I don’t know where I would be right now. Therapy doesn’t help either. I’ve already met with a therapist last year and it didn’t help at all, and it was a good therapist. I feel like I’m all on my own and no one gives a crap about me or what I want to accomplish in life. I might as well continue to play video games and watch anime for the rest of my life and do nothing productive with it until I die, and when I’m dying I can be full of regrets about everything. I also hate how people say I’m smart or I’m strong or good-looking or whatever, because I’m not. I’m just sick and done with everything and everyone!
 
Oh gosh I hope you don't mind my responding to this but this just hit me in the feels in a lot of ways. I've lost a parent myself so I feel like I've been there. Grief is a journey and any sort of way you are feeling is completely valid. Some days are easier than others.

I also relate to the hug thing. I'm not even really a hugger but this whole year has been very very isolating that I have definitely been missing human connection..
I wish I could offer some real help or anything but I just hope you know that you aren't the only one who has felt this way.
 
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