What's Bothering You?

[Xara]

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i don’t think you’re a crappy person at all. from my interactions with you to just seeing you around the forums, i know that you’re incredibly kind and you do so much for people. you’re a good person, nef. even though you keep trying to eat one of my favourite villagers,,

 

[Mimi Cheems]

I'm pretty hungry but I do not have the energy to make anything... D:<

I wanna make ramen with a soft-boiled egg (or maybe two), but I'm just sooo exhausted T^T

 

[Nefarious]

i should be used to my father being an ******* by now but it still hurts. :/



i don’t think you’re a crappy person at all. from my interactions with you to just seeing you around the forums, i know that you’re incredibly kind and you do so much for people. you’re a good person, nef. even though you keep trying to eat one of my favourite villagers,,

Thanks xara, I really appreciate it. Guess it's just a lot of stress piling up. A friend with a crappy home life that I can't help as much as I wish to and just family taking out their frustrations out on each other. So it means a lot, thank you. And no worries, Tangy is safe, I only tease her because I like her haha.

 

[Dunquixote]

Been feeling really ****ty since this morning and I'm not sure why. Just feeling like a crappy friend and person in general. Might just be emotionally tired, but I'm ready for the day to end already. Brain's too out of wack for me to deal with today.

I’m so sorry. I just want to assure you that you are not a bad friend or person. I wouldn’t be talking to you if you were a bad friend. You have been really nice and fun to hang out with. If you need to vent, feel free to message me . But I really hope you feel better.

i should be used to my father being an ******* by now but it still hurts. :/



i don’t think you’re a crappy person at all. from my interactions with you to just seeing you around the forums, i know that you’re incredibly kind and you do so much for people. you’re a good person, nef. even though you keep trying to eat one of my favourite villagers,,

hugs. i know that feeling. I’m sorry you’re going through that. let me know if there is anything I can do to help you.

Acid reflux please go away. It is midnight and I want to sleep but I can't lie down or get remotely comfortable.

I hope you feel better soon and sleep . I used to have acid reflux and it was awful so I can relate.

 

[oak]

I just went to my car to get snacks and someone backed into my car and totalled the corner! I am so pissed and don't have the money to fix it right now but the hood is bent so I have no choice. Whhhhyyy
Edit: The front door can't even be opened sadly. At least my car was parked and I wasn't in the car when it happened. One of my terrible neighbours must have hit my car some point today and took off but idk exactly when.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

the last couple days I've had an overbearing temptation to just get on fb and make a post being like "guys btw I'm nb so if you refer to me by my old name or she/her again I'ma be mad asf" but even though there's no real danger in doing that (I don't know anyone who is explicitly transphobic) I'm still really afraid to do it. it's prob not a good idea anyways though I would absolutely hate to have to tell people one at a time and see their reactions in real time instead of giving them a chance to digest it or whatever ://////



also still working on my rewrite jhkjshdkfjshdf (though I have quite a bit done so I'm gonna try to get it done before I go to bed even though it's already 12am lol rip)

 

[Dunquixote]

I just went to my car to get snacks and someone backed into my car and totalled the corner! I am so pissed and don't have the money to fix it right now but the hood is bent so I have no choice. Whhhhyyy
Edit: The front door can't even be opened sadly. At least my car was parked and I wasn't in the car when it happened. One of my terrible neighbours must have hit my car some point today and took off but idk exactly when.

i’m so sorry to hear that. i am guessing they didn’t leave a note? that sounds incredibly frustrating and just sucks you’ll have to pay to repair that.

 

[Chris]

I hope you feel better soon and sleep . I used to have acid reflux and it was awful so I can relate.

I was in bed for 11hrs and I think I got 4hrs of sleep total. Severe brain fog today. Bailed on work and playing video games.

 

[Alienfish]

the last couple days I've had an overbearing temptation to just get on fb and make a post being like "guys btw I'm nb so if you refer to me by my old name or she/her again I'ma be mad asf" but even though there's no real danger in doing that (I don't know anyone who is explicitly transphobic) I'm still really afraid to do it. it's prob not a good idea anyways though I would absolutely hate to have to tell people one at a time and see their reactions in real time instead of giving them a chance to digest it or whatever ://////

Er, yeah don't do that... you're most likely just gonna get comments calling you that. So yeah just be nice about it.

Also phones queues are the worst but I really need to get thru so here I sit lol

 

[xSuperMario64x]

Er, yeah don't do that... you're most likely just gonna get comments calling you that. So yeah just be nice about it.

I think it's bothering me so much because I'm kinda in a bad mood from being tired of school and so a lot of things I say lately can come off as rude (which honestly really sucks cause I hate being rude to people) and I'm also growing impatient with actually getting proper support. luckily my gut knows what's right lol
here in about 10 min I'm gonna do a phone screening w a therapist so I can talk to them about me potentially getting support so I'm good, I was just acting kinda dumb prob cause I was stressed about my stupid **** history essay.


as for what's bothering me rn, it's kinda a big problem. idk how many writing credits i have but i need three to graduate and as far as I know i only have two. I think I could potentially get a writing credit from my German class since my prof mentioned it but I seriously hope that's the case cause I refuse to spend another semester here

EDIT: I literally just remembered in Spring 2020 I wrote like 8-9 short essays for music history (which is a class that offered a writing option) and according to degree audit that counted toward my writing credit apparently?? oh my god that's such a HUGE weight off my shoulders!!!!

 

[0ni]

Been feeling really ****ty since this morning and I'm not sure why. Just feeling like a crappy friend and person in general. Might just be emotionally tired, but I'm ready for the day to end already. Brain's too out of wack for me to deal with today.

It really sucks to hear you talking like that about yourself because anytime I've seen you around the boards, or interacted with you you've been so nice and personable. I consider you a really good force on here and I can't imagine you being a crappy friend to anyone irl or online.
Whatever you need to do to push through the emotional exhaustion today I hope you can find the time to do it, have some moments of self-care and try to not be too harsh on yourself (I know that is easier said than done). Look after yourself, dude

i should be used to my father being an ******* by now but it still hurts. :/

Sorry to hear you're going through it right now with your dad, It really sucks when family members make you feel bad. It stings a bit more. Hope you manage to get through whatever you're are going through. You're another person that always comes across so nice on here so it sucks to see you going through some crap. Hope your day picks up

 

[Alienfish]

I think it's bothering me so much because I'm kinda in a bad mood from being tired of school and so a lot of things I say lately can come off as rude (which honestly really sucks cause I hate being rude to people) and I'm also growing impatient with actually getting proper support. luckily my gut knows what's right lol

Yeah I understand that no matter the topic. And don't worry I didn't take it as rude personally, moreso just saying don't do such a post. I've seen lot a of people posting stuff like that and it's like... okay do those people want support at all? (I know you do, just all the bad online eggs gathering in a basket sometimes). Also society is slow and won't change overnight, there is that.

Frustration is a lot of time the key that never fits.

 

[Princess Mipha]

Doctor advised me to do the vaccine against the Virus.. he said that the Virus is more dangerous than the vaccine in any case, especially now that the even worse version from africa (I think?) came to Europe as well..

I'm so scared to do it tho..

 

[oak]

i’m so sorry to hear that. i am guessing they didn’t leave a note? that sounds incredibly frustrating and just sucks you’ll have to pay to repair that.

Naw they didn't leave a note. I'll talk to the insurance people today so hopefully it'll be alright. Thanks Dun, it does really suck.

 

[Dawnpiplup]

Anxiety, dudes. ****'s real. My heart's pounding more heavily a bit, I feel like.

 

[Dawnpiplup]

Also, man... I'm just worried about hanging out with this faculty member in public now. Even more so than before, after that whole incident.

I don't want anyone to get the wrong impression about this guy. Even though he's much older than me, this dude's the chillest and sweetest person ever. He takes care of the 10+ cats around campus; he's the guy people call up when they find a stray animal; he takes care of testing and academia for blind and deaf students.... he's an all around nice guy. I see him as a paternal figure, and I love him as such. We hang out together all the time. I mean, I was a bit anxious about it before - like how others might see the relationship - but even more so when this incident happened. Some ***** that is a professor here (who everyone pretty much hates, apparently) was talking to another faculty member about how she saw us holding hands. Now I just am going more ****ing nervous. It's not that kind of relationship, folks. Why is it that society goes bat**** crazy when an older adult and teenager are friends / hanging out? Though... I mean I can see how people think it's abnormal. I mean, I guess I can even see it. I dunno. Ugh.

That, and the end of the school is coming near, and I have this ****load of **** I need to do. And just having to go back home... makes me barf.

 

[Dunquixote]

Last night I went to ped having a small panic attack and today kept waking up because my dad makes a lot of noise and I may have had small panic attacks as well. i just woke up again and still feel anxious and extremely aggravated. seriously hope i don’t need to put stuff away for the painting soon since i really don’t want my room painted let alone two strangers coming in my room and then i have to sleep somewhere else on an air mattress. no place to retreat to, no place to stay up late. i hate this and also don’t know how to deal with something else that has been nothing but stress.

 

[Holla]

I’ve been feeling icky all day. Not horrible thankfully but still not a good feeling.

It was the beginning of a headache earlier (which is thankfully gone now) but now my digestive system is unhappy... ugh.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

i really wish I could stop getting headaches/migraines nonstop lol

like I really need to practice my piano pieces and listen to some stuff by Scriabin for my independent study class, but my head hurts and i really just want to go to sleep ;;

 

[SmoochsPLH]

hoping i did more good for a little lizard then anything. one of my outside cats got ahold to a teeny tiny lizard and took his tail and an eye. i stopped him (he was just playing with it at that point) and the little thing was still breathing so i put the little guy on a napkin under a bush and covered him with a leaf and gave him a little water and a grape and some chicken (not sure which it eats). stayed nearby, but left him alone for a bit and when i went back after checking on him like 3-5 times he was gone. hopefully he'll be ok.

edit:
just looked it up and turns out it was a little skink looked just like this, but shorter cause of the missing tail

they can eat lots of things, but mainly meat so hopefully the chicken helped. a little of the water got on the napkin so hopefully it drank some thru that. be safe out there little skink and i'm sorry about your tail and eye.