What's Bothering You?

[Stikki]

I get sad when i being gentle with someone and the person ignores me.
i wrote on someone's profile yesterday and he just deleted it. Why?
thanks for that mr. now i'm feeling like a garbage

I think sometimes people have settings that hide their profile? I haven't ever really bothered with my profile on here (barely understand the whole "collectables" on here) but I know other forums I've been on that I altered some settings on so I was the only one who could view it.

As for what's bothering me: I'm ill. Blah.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I have to go buy more white yarn tomorrow, I ran out for this plastic canvas kit cause I messed up in a few places and ended up using more than I needed. kinda sucks.

maybe I'll go buy that other kit I saw while I was there a few days ago

 

[-Lumi-]

My tailbone hurts so much

 

[ForeverALoan]

Spoiler: okay

he included me in his memoir and in the intro talked about how my love and affection has made him who he is today, and then proceeded to say nothing good about me at all and only talked about our bad time periods and how horrible i made him feel. After reading it i felt like the biggest ***** on the planet.. Made me cry tbh but okay. He said he didnt mean to and hes freaking out to try and change it now lol.

 

[Neb]

I think I’ve made some amazing connections over the last several months, but I’m still struggling to open up with people. It’s weird because during that toxic relationship I didn’t think my mental was declining. Now I’m aware of how traumatic it was and how it’s affected my character. On the bright side I don’t think about that person much anymore. I’m only reminded when I reflect on how I’ve changed as a person (or when Spotify continues to recommend songs from their playlist). Planning my novel has helped process my trauma too.

Like I’ve mentioned on past posts I miss parts of my old personality. I wish I could be as trusting or peppy as I used to be. No matter how much time has passed those parts never came back. Sometimes it feels like I’m grieving that part of myself. It’d be nice if I could accept my new identity more quickly.

 

[TillyGoesMeow]

Ahh, I really wish people would not discuss politics at work! I don't want to hear ridiculous, ignorant takes, and I certainly do not have the energy to explain in depth why you are wrong either. I'm so tired lmao.

 

[Alienfish]

update: got an old copy of one of the books, but since the one new i still have is literally impossible to find unless you pay overprices online or pay overprices i'll let it be for now.

Also what's bothering me is people giving unclear/vague instructions or gives them differently to other people. Or just when they obvious cba answering an email when they clearly sit by the computer, how can you not get a notif lool....

 

[Lady Timpani]

I was getting dressed and heard a noise and when I turned around my cat had fallen down between the mattress and footboard of my bed. I assume she'd been trying to walk on it and slipped. She's shaking her back leg on occasion and I can't tell if she's hurt it? Stuff like this makes me really nervous, she's getting up there and definitely isn't as spry as she once was.

 

[moonbyu]

Spoiler: tw: a vent about death and all that.. sorry.

my intrusive thoughts have been getting worse and worse. ever since February, i've been having such terrible thoughts. i honestly can't recall the last time i was truly at ease. i try to get my mind off of this by doing something else but nothing works. my mind feels like a damn whirlpool. i'm constantly thinking about death and other terrible things happening to my family members and me. i don't know why and i don't know how to stop it. i could be doing anything at all and then these terrible terrible dark thoughts just hit me and it makes me so so afraid. i don't want anything happening to me or my family or my friends. it's so scary. i really hate it.

 

[_Rainy_]

Had an anxiety attack earlier and now I just feel sick

 

[ali.di.magix]

I've been on edge over some stuff that's happened at work and the negative thoughts just don't stop coming

 

[Dunquixote]

Spoiler: personal

there is another concert going on behind my house. why do they need to blast the music this loud and couldn’t they host it somewhere else like at an area where there aren’t houses? I hate noise so much (the music isn’t even good).

Also blew my gems on a discount pull to try to get a unit that is boosted in upcoming event in game and no luck :/

 

[Aminata]

Nobody understands me here :c
i'm starting to feel uncomfortable.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

Spoiler: tw: a vent about death and all that.. sorry.

my intrusive thoughts have been getting worse and worse. ever since February, i've been having such terrible thoughts. i honestly can't recall the last time i was truly at ease. i try to get my mind off of this by doing something else but nothing works. my mind feels like a damn whirlpool. i'm constantly thinking about death and other terrible things happening to my family members and me. i don't know why and i don't know how to stop it. i could be doing anything at all and then i suddenly start having these terrible terrible dark thoughts and it makes me so so afraid. i don't want anything happening to me or my family or my friends. it's so scary. i really hate it.

Spoiler: reply

I've honestly been feeling the exact same way, it's really awful. it seems to get worse when i'm trying to sleep at night, when im not focusing on anything, so even then I have to distract myself. it's also been made worse because of my past trauma and seeing people on this forum who have lost family members. it kinda makes everything awful cause, personally, i could be doing literally anything then i start thinking about "oh im a third through my life and then I'm done forever" and "ive got family members who are really old and may pass away" and "my mom's health is terrible and she could honestly be gone at any moment". it's nonstop.

maybe, hopefully soon, we can find some refuge.

 

[Stella-Io]

My kneeeee

 

[ForeverALoan]

dammit i want to run but my stress fractures are starting to develop again i cant let them get bad again

 

[-Lumi-]

My tailbone hurts so much

Hurts even more today the tiny toddler chairs are so cute but my goodness I tried to do some stretches and I just feel super lousy thank god it’s the weekend hopefully some rest helps it

 

[Xara]

Spoiler: tw // child neglect and verbal abuse

my mother continued to go through my grandmother’s things today, and found a journal of hers from 2009. in the journal, my grandmother wrote about the child neglect and verbal abuse i was put through by my mother; a result of her untreated mental illness.

i don’t remember much of my childhood. i’m not sure if i blocked it out, but there’s so many memories that i don’t have, memories that i’m not sure are even real and so many bad memories that i can’t forget. so, i read the journal.

it was bad lol.

i learnt that the various memories that i have of my mother threatening to call children’s aid on me to make me behave are real; that despite what i’ve thought for so many years, my grandmother did know that my mother had depression; that me thinking that my mother seemed to love the cats more than me wasn’t necessarily all in my head, and that she noticed it, too; that my grandmother tried to help me. and of course, i’ve saved the best part for last;

“sometimes i think that she (my mother) is embarrassed or ashamed that -my birth name- is not what is considered average normal.”

cool.

 

[King koopa]

Just really depressed today

Spoiler: Death

And I just found out one of my uncles died of cancer today and he was my favorite uncle

 

[Foreverfox]

Spoiler: tw // child neglect and verbal abuse

my mother continued to go through my grandmother’s things today, and found a journal of hers from 2009. in the journal, my grandmother wrote about the child neglect and verbal abuse i was put through by my mother; a result of her untreated mental illness.

i don’t remember much of my childhood. i’m not sure if i blocked it out, but there’s so many memories that i don’t have, memories that i’m not sure are even real and so many bad memories that i can’t forget. so, i read the journal.

it was bad lol.

i learnt that the various memories that i have of my mother threatening to call children’s aid on me to make me behave are real; that despite what i’ve thought for so many years, my grandmother did know that my mother had depression; that me thinking that my mother seemed to love the cats more than me wasn’t necessarily all in my head, and that she noticed it, too; that my grandmother tried to help me. and of course, i’ve saved the best part for last;

“sometimes i think that she (my mother) is embarrassed or ashamed that -my birth name- is not what is considered average normal.”

cool.

I'm so sorry to hear this, xara. It's never easy to learn that your suspicions are correct. I don't know if you read or not, but if you do, I'd look into this book Children of the Self-absorbed. It really validates the feeling of children with self-absorbed parents, but in almost a clinical way, not a rosy, wishy-washy way, if that makes sense. Sounds like your grandmother was an amazing woman. If it were me, it'd snag that journal and keep it and hide it somewhere safe. Having that connection to your grandmother will help you throughout the rest of your life. Having her actual thought written in her actual handwriting - that's something special. ❤

Edit: I should also mention that when my mom saw this book on my bookshelf, she said something about it and I told her it was from my college psych class years ago lol it was not. I don't condone lying, but you know, at that moment, it was the correct choice.