What's Bothering You?

[Bluebellie]

I’m not sure I like my new work schedule.I was hoping for an early shift, but not the earliest shift. I’m so not even an early bird, but I keep picking the early shift option, because I don’t want to have a night shift either. This wasn’t my first option, but I guess it’s better than the worst option.

I hate leaving work super late, but I hate coming to work super early. I guess I have to wake up earlier now. Right now my shift starts literally 15 minutes after, and I die a little each morning lol

 

[Neb]

I hate how clingy I can be. Whenever I’m exchanging messages with someone for the first time I tend to double text and obsessively await responses. This is true both platonically and romantically. In the past it’s scared people off, including that abusive ex I had. At least I’ve gotten better at telling when someone is annoyed by my presence.

 

[_Rainy_]

I hate how clingy I can be. Whenever I’m exchanging messages with someone for the first time I tend to double text and obsessively await responses. This is true both platonically and romantically. In the past it’s scared people off, including that abusive ex I had. At least I’ve gotten better at telling when someone is annoyed by my presence.

You never came off as clingy to me.

I’m having a lot of anxiety lately about myself. When I’m in social situations I always feel like people hate me or I don’t know how to act because I’m so cautious about people that I usually try to get a sense of peoples personalities before I feel comfortable with them so I come off as cold or people don’t understand my sense of humor. I really wish I wasn’t like this. I wish I was good at socializing.

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

Why is everyone jumping on a hatch chile bandwagon?

 

[ali.di.magix]

I'm freaking out over something small and stupid for work and I'll probably get there tomorrow and it'll be all good, but anxiety likes me to freak out anyway

it seems that may random burst of happiness has come to an end.

 

[moo_nieu]

still smells like pee after second carpet cleaning and three enzyme treatments over their visits. landlord wont believe us because apparently the cleaners are telling her theres no smell even though they removed their mask to sniff the ground and confirm the smell before they did any cleaning last time. going to call the cleaners since they said call back if the smell is still there and hopefully get an understanding of the reports. if they come back i will measure out the dimensions of the spot and have them sign off that it smells lol. landlord said they wont come back and she wont pay for any more carpet cleanings (even though they were completely free bc the company scheduled wrong). thats what happens when previous tenants have cats that pee all over, it soaks deep and multiple cleanings arent unusual for these untreated problems. if the cleaners dont come back, i will be hiring an inspector so that our landlord will actually believe us. she says she wants to believe us and take us seriously but she keeps treating us as if we are lying. she even called our previous landlord (my partners mom) to tell her about how were lying about the carpet and ask if we did the same to her... good thing our previous landlord called to let us know.... our current landlord emailed saying how she is super busy with being a soldier and we need to be respectful but all we have done is respectfully report our issues with the apartment and how it has been handled while maintaining the lease and paying in full on our end. no better respect that honesty and taking care of their property. hopefully i can get enough solid indisputable proof that the carpet smells like cat pee and then it will be fixed. hard when your landlord is remote and doesn't believe you

edit: left a voicemail with the cleaners so hopefully i get some results when they call back. tried calling various inspectors and cleaning companies but they cant help with confirming the pee smell. its hot today and the smell is getting so bad inside i can smell it through two face masks ;-; i wish landlord could just smell it so we could leave at this point. im not sure a forth or fifth enzyme treatment will work and i dont want to deal with long distance scheduling of construction for carpet replacement. this sucks. why is there nobody who can help short of me calling a lawyer? i dont want to escalate the situation i just dont want to smell pee anymore my goodness

 

[Dawnpiplup]

Depression. Moods go up and down so quick.
I've got plenty of things to do -- maybe I can distract myself for a bit.

 

[Stella-Io]

I absolutely love seeing things that probably aren't there, but I can't confirm that it is there either

For context: my eyesight is bad. I am very near sighted, I see things that aren't there, and I have astigmatism and oscillopsia. Not only do my eyes have trouble focusing on things (astigmatism), esp with text on a screen, but my night vision sucks. I see shadows and objects move that aren't actually moving (oscillopsia). And to top it all off, there are times were I will see somethin out of the corner of my eye or barely see somethin that isn't there. It's usually something small and dark. I usually see somethin that looks like black birds in the dark. But today coming in my room I really thought I saw somethin brown and fuzzy on my loft bed (top bunk) that was on my balled up messily tossed blanket. I barely saw it thou. I poked in my blanket a bit but I know some animals or bugs don't come out unless their hidey hole has been compromised. Sometimes a poke in their general area won't do.

There's no way it could be an animal, and I hope it wasn't a bug I saw, but like, that's my bed! I go on there every night I sure hope nothing is getting in my bed sheets.

 

[Marridia]

my pc is pretty unusable now, it only last a minute before it restarts by itself. I probably have to get someone to look at it

 

[Dunquixote]

Spoiler: personal

My cat kept bothering me and haven’t been able to fall asleep. I was hoping today wasn’t the day we were going grocery shopping but it is and I found out i have counseling today. I am so mad. I think i’m just going to tell my counselor i’ll make an appointment if i need to talk. seriously no point talking and only getting more mad because her questions bother me even about the happier things. i really don’t want to leave the house either; i know i have to get groceries but i would rather have them delivered here tho last time we had them delivered they didn’t get everything we wanted and was overpriced. i know my mom is pretty much trying to help me get me out of the house but i think it is making me want to leave less and less.

 

[Jhine7]

Gave it my best shot by being in the Best Buy line for two hours. Showed up about 15 people too late. Maybe someday, PS5!

 

[jiny]

i hate feeling like i’m on bad terms w this one person so i wished them happy birthday and whether they answer or not i guess will confirm whether we’re on bad terms or not?

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I only have two VCRs and the one that is able to rewind tapes just pooped out on me. now I gotta go to a thrift store and pray that I can find a working tape rewinder or, I suppose, a working VCR. what a hassle, I was just ready to watch a movie while embroidering

 

[Alienfish]

Bit bummed I didn't manage to grab older copies of two of the books in the series I'm reading, feel pretty weird having like revised modern copies them since they have a language and setting of their times, oh well.

 

[jiny]

that response was not what i expected but i had too high expectations

 

[Stikki]

I get sad when i being gentle with someone and the person ignores me.
i wrote on someone's profile yesterday and he just deleted it. Why?
thanks for that mr. now i'm feeling like a garbage

I think sometimes people have settings that hide their profile? I haven't ever really bothered with my profile on here (barely understand the whole "collectables" on here) but I know other forums I've been on that I altered some settings on so I was the only one who could view it.

As for what's bothering me: I'm ill. Blah.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I have to go buy more white yarn tomorrow, I ran out for this plastic canvas kit cause I messed up in a few places and ended up using more than I needed. kinda sucks.

maybe I'll go buy that other kit I saw while I was there a few days ago

 

[-Lumi-]

My tailbone hurts so much

 

[ForeverALoan]

Spoiler: okay

he included me in his memoir and in the intro talked about how my love and affection has made him who he is today, and then proceeded to say nothing good about me at all and only talked about our bad time periods and how horrible i made him feel. After reading it i felt like the biggest ***** on the planet.. Made me cry tbh but okay. He said he didnt mean to and hes freaking out to try and change it now lol.

 

[Neb]

I think I’ve made some amazing connections over the last several months, but I’m still struggling to open up with people. It’s weird because during that toxic relationship I didn’t think my mental was declining. Now I’m aware of how traumatic it was and how it’s affected my character. On the bright side I don’t think about that person much anymore. I’m only reminded when I reflect on how I’ve changed as a person (or when Spotify continues to recommend songs from their playlist). Planning my novel has helped process my trauma too.

Like I’ve mentioned on past posts I miss parts of my old personality. I wish I could be as trusting or peppy as I used to be. No matter how much time has passed those parts never came back. Sometimes it feels like I’m grieving that part of myself. It’d be nice if I could accept my new identity more quickly.