My job makes me feel so insecure about my clothes. I don't fit in there at all but I also refuse to waste all my money on dumb clothes just for this job.
My dad bringing his family into my personal life and telling them all about my personal failures while I'm not there, thanks dad Then gets grumpy at me bc I'm not ecstatic about it lol
Debating about applying for other courses for university, I could potentially apply for 2 other universities, not sure which ones though. It sucks you have to pay to apply but since I did pay I feel like I'm wasting my money if I don't have 5 choices.
What happened to when people used to calmly have discussions? Now everyone has to say "oh yes I agree" or else they get attacked due to black-and-white thinking? The glass isn't 100% full or 100% empty, but a lot of people will never understand that because they're too far gone at this point. They refuse to consider or understand any other perspectives, because they are so set on thinking that they are right and everyone else is wrong.
To grow, we have to constantly question and critically think about things.
Having a really bad health day today bc of chronic illness flare up and am unable to be any help around the flat. Feeling really guilty that I can't do more and like my partner is angry/frustrated at me
I made the mistake of procrastinating due to feeling a lack of motivation over the weekend and now I have to finish designing several posters and start and finish an essay in 6 hours ;O;
I can't see the street from the front lawn anymore, it's so flooded and continues to rain nonstop all day. The water has reached damn to our slightly elevated front porch but with this rain it could flood over. Not only that but there's 2 down phone(?)lines that were SPARKING earlier. We still have power but that could go out.
Rot in hell, I don't give any ****s. You hate me; as a result, I despise you. I won't ever talk to you about my problems, nor will I ever try to ask you to understand me again. Ever. You lost me when you started comparing me to you, of all people, and you just love to put everyone down and have them bow down to you. You love compliments. You make everything about you. I'm sick and tired of having to walk on eggshells around you and everyone else in this goddamn family. I've learned the hard way that no matter what, I will never be able to please you. Before I learned how to drive, you used that to pity yourself: "Oh, I have to drive you around like some slave!" Well, I got my license, and I love to drive. So what do you do? You take something else to pity yourself with. I've driven myself mentally distraught because I know that I can't get you to love me the way other functional mothers would, because you're delusional. You're a complete narcissist, mom. Yet I still try to make you and the family happy. I get lured into your manipulative tactics. I'm writing this all down to hopefully get some rational thinking into me, and motivate myself to get a job and to get my coursework done. I'm sorry to say this, but I think life will be better without having to live with you. That's the truth.
Bruh they've had ages to make it(rest of a tv series) available with subtitles/reading for people with disabilities to air on regular TV yet they are only working now on it... sigh. Good thing it's on that online service to watch but, it was great company in the morning on an actual TV :c
My inability to spell "encephalopathies" in less than five tries, even when the word is written right in front of me, might be the difference between me passing or failing this week.
supposed to submit a project proposal today for jazz history and our group wasn't able to discuss anything at all over the weekend so idek what to do lol
also really stressed cause I'm supposed to memorize a script for my German class but since being in college for 7 semesters has turned my brain to a spongy consistency I haven't had the mental energy to memorize it without messing up a bunch and blatantly making it sound like it's rehearsed.
really wish this stupid schoolyear would just end already.
The vet is now shut down due to covid and one of my cats is out of medicine ><. She takes this one pill twice a day as well as other ones; she’s out of the one she takes twice a day. I have one more that i would usually give her at night but my mom told me not to give it to her. Right now my parents are trying to find a way for us to get her the medicine. I’m extremely worried since she needs the medicine.
Also worried about the welcome amiibos (nowhere as much as I am about my cat’s medicine obviously). I still haven’t seen it being sold on nintendo’s website or anywhere