How I manage to convince myself that every person I meet doesn't like me in some way
I know it's mostly not true, I think, but I end up repeating it so much I convince myself Damn when did I get so insecure, it's annoying quite frankly
Couldn’t sleep because I was worrying about the grocery shopping trip. still bothered by how my mom said that the virus has gotten worse before going to bed and reminding me about going grocery shopping even though she knows I get anxious about it. sometimes i wonder if she has asperger’s because she fails to read my mood or think, hmm she has anxiety, i don’t want to make her more anxious.
Also realized i forgot to check to see if welcome amiibos were in stock yesterday when they were supposed to be released. i checked today and saw nothing.
Anxiety sucks and it bothers me how a lot of times, my mom disregards that and still reminds me of a bunch of stuff i don’t want to think about and gets mad when i have a hissy fit/anxiety attack. My dad goes ballistic even though he claimed to my former financial advisor he knew i had asperger’s and anxiety; says the guy who won’t admit he has it and blames what he admits to on my mom and me.
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I talked to my mom just now and told her and she said she will try to not do this and be more considerate, so I feel a little better; I don’t have a lot of confidence though even though I love my mom so much. I am glad she didn’t get mad at me for telling her though .
i love how there are rules and precautions at the grocery store yet this guy behind me doesn’t seem to care . i was still putting my groceries away and he walked right up to where i was standing where you pay. could you wait until I move away?
Also found out we’re still going to my sister’s for xmas. isn’t my mom’s bday enough? ****
All my bills are paid which is good but now I'm broke until next week and I have to work all week. Why is gas so expensive? It's gonna suck but I've managed with less before.
My Bunny bokugo got to have some strawberry for the first time yesterday and I think it upset his stomach. I’m keeping a close eye on him and he’s eating just fine. I just feel bad for him because he’s my child.
Two of my uncle's got the virus...both from my mom and dad's family. It's making me more and more anxious about it. It's making me really scared, and I've been questioning myself, do i have the virus? Because, there's people who got the virus without any symptoms. It's making me stress thinking about it. I just don't know what to do.
they're both really strict about it. They rarely go outside. While I go grocery shopping every week, since I live with two of my siblings and also my parents. That happened on December, and this week have many bad things happened. My birthday is on the 10th,and i don't know what going to happen.
I wonder what I actually did to it. I honestly have zero idea where or how I injured it. I know that the year I did, I was doing 5k training and colourguard at the same time (colourguard as in the flag dancers that accompany the band during football season). I've gotten hurt before and recovered, but this stupid knee acts up at stupid things. I can't tell if it's a joint or muscle thing (thou I suspect joint since it clearly hasn't healed, or healed correctly idk) nor do I have the money to check it out (I got no insurance). It's not like it hurts so much that I can't stand on it, but it's annoying to get hurt when I stand/walk for too long, or when I was getting up from crouching. I bring it up again cause today at work while I was standing it started to hurt randomly.
my top district choice for student teaching declined my placement request it was the nearest district by my house so i wouldn't have to move out in case they went back to in-person classes. not the worst-case scenario, but my backup & guaranteed choice is a district by my university which is like an hour and a half away and commuting to and from that every single day would be such a pain. i'm just kinda hoping everything remains virtual for spring because i rly do not want my loans piling up even more from having to find housing again
stressing out over schoolwork :< i hadnt realized i had a few missing assignments for my history class, and i have those to do so i can catch up plus the 2 assignments i have due today
I want to apologize to everyone for giving them a link to a site that was not updated thinking the 12/2 under welcome amiibos meant 12/2 this year. I also want to apologize for being crabby earlier and my post might’ve reflected that. I still am crabby but am controlling it better when posting. I feel like such an idiot. I should’ve looked to see when that site was updated but i got myself excited and for no reason. Now, I’m embarrassed and depressed since even with all the dupes I have, no one has or wants to trade any of the WAs for the other series cards ><; I can’t fault them. so close to completing my collection yet so far.
my old 3ds xl is half broken. L isn't working well, thumb stick thingy isnt working well, touch screen is delay and just bad like it cant feel my stylus. I'm not happy that one day l will have to say goodbye to this console...Even though l have a newer 2ds xl from last year and it feels like brand new still, it's just doesn't feel right for me to leave behind my 3ds. I might get another 3ds xl used one in better shape than my. Also the 3ds has a few dents from falling. Man it's nasty because l never had a case for it back then, but l have cases for my 2ds.
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l don't know if l should trade in my old 3ds xl for a new one. The console is full of memories and l got it in 2014.
i haevnt finished my history assignments :/ on a somewhat lighter note, my switch joycons keep disconnecting all the time and i get frustrated while playing because i will suddenly stop walking in ac then i know exactly whats gonna happen, it gives me the screen to reconnect the joycons
I'm kinda tempted to tell this store to not send with UPS internationally cause they are prone to lose invoices and delay things for weeks. I do not know how USPS became that bad cause only issue I ever had was a stuck package and some rona delays during spring (which was understandable duh).
Was supposed to get my thing today but they kept losing papers and taking my stuff for a spin so I think it barely left Kentucky today :/
same here along with the fact not a lot of people understand that I don’t choose to be anxious and have panic attacks. then there is the way my dad and sister sometimes treated me all of my life prior and even after being diagnosed with all my problems, and the fact jobs don’t hire if you have anxiety on interview or just have mental disorders.
it saddens me to hear you feel this way :/. hang in there. if you ever want to vent, my wall and dms are always open.
this happens to me! my concentration has been getting worse over the years and it is why i couldn’t pass my last two history courses in college. My one capstone professor didn’t buy the argument when I told him I had blanks and try to explain some of my symptoms (which I now know may be associated with asperger’s/anxiety). he repeatedly said how disappointed he was with me and made me cry.
I also have racing thoughts a lot of time and that makes it hard too.
i love history but yeah i hate paper writing and so I feel your pain. kinda wondering how i thought i could become a historian without teacher, giving tours in a museum, write books with a poor concentration and bad procrastination habit as I have. lol
Hang in there xara. do the best that you can do. if you want to vent more, you know i’m here for you .
I do not want tomorrow. I dread everything especially being around my dad and maybe sister. i know i am going to annoy people without doing anything and the i am stupid treatment. if they insist i come, then have christmas at home instead.
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Found out that tomorrow is when the VA is signing the prints and at three different times. I got the okay to watch it while there but would rather watch it at home where I know I won’t be rudely walked in or interrupted even if i lock the bedroom i stay in. no privacy. looking forward to hearing my dad not wash his hands or shut the door since we share the bathroom downstairs and he sleeps on the couch in area before bedroom.
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it was the nearest district by my house so i wouldn't have to move out in case they went back to in-person classes. not the worst-case scenario, but my backup & guaranteed choice is a district by my university which is like an hour and a half away and commuting to and from that every single day would be such a pain. i'm just kinda hoping everything remains virtual for spring because i rly do not want my loans piling up even more from having to find housing again
