I saw your signature and I'm sorry you are having a bad time. I'm also on the autism spectrum and I agree, it can be hard to get and keep a job and it can be hard to find a place to rent, especially right now when the prices of everything is through the roof. Life isn't easy sometimes. But there is one thing I don't agree with you about, is when you said everything in this world is impossible. Nothing, absolutely nothing in this world is impossible. Sounds like you could talk to a professional or something, because honestly venting on here might not be helpful since people on the internet aren't known to be very understanding and sympathetic. I wish you the best of luck and take care of yourself.