(sigh).....my day has just been bad.
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My mind has just been so annoyed all day.
Half way done with this year and it doesn't seem to get any better.
I hate living with my parents......
I just realized that I am suffering from deep loneliness
its getting harder to enjoy life with all the craziness going on in the world.
I am doing my best to keep my health in order but when I have to constantly hear lectures about losing weight it gets me in a bad mood.
Man this has been a rough week......
I sometimes wish I can have my own home that I can be away from my parents because they put me in a bad mood most of the time.
I don't know I am having so much mixed feelings lately.
Its always hard trying to be positive whenever you feel like everything is bothering you and there is not much you can do.
Feel like I'm trying too hard to be healthy these days. Its good for my health, but mentally its making feel drained.
Hey! I'm from Duluth, Georgia
I live in Brookhaven (suburban-ish Atlanta) now though.
I sometimes wonder if I was healthy in my young days maybe I would not have to worry so much, but yet again I was being too stubborn and not caring so much about my health. So in a way this was "Karma" coming back to bite me. I learned a life lesson to always take care of your health.
Its been over a month since I been to the Hospital. To this day I am still processing the situation.
This is the dream address for my new restarted 2nd island. Still a work in progress but here it is. DA-8921-2234-1678
I hate looking at my old self, because I just can't even fathom what that person was. Now that I'm better and improved I don't want to be that person who I used to be. I am going to do everything possible to make myself feel good.
I am being really strict with myself on being healthy since I cannot end up in the hospital again.
Health wise I am doing much better
Mental Health wise not so much.
I know people always tell me "Don't be so hard on yourself" but I have every right to be. I always gaslight myself into thinking I've done something wrong and I make sure to correct it. All my life I've always been told that I have done something bad and its one of the reasons I have a spoiled mindset. I take things seriously to make sure it doesn't happen again. I swear I feel like I'm my own worst enemy when it comes to not trying to screw things up. -
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