VanitasFan26

This is the dream address for my new restarted 2nd island. Still a work in progress but here it is. DA-8921-2234-1678

I hate looking at my old self, because I just can't even fathom what that person was. Now that I'm better and improved I don't want to be that person who I used to be. I am going to do everything possible to make myself feel good.

I am being really strict with myself on being healthy since I cannot end up in the hospital again.

Health wise I am doing much better
Mental Health wise not so much.

I know people always tell me "Don't be so hard on yourself" but I have every right to be. I always gaslight myself into thinking I've done something wrong and I make sure to correct it. All my life I've always been told that I have done something bad and its one of the reasons I have a spoiled mindset. I take things seriously to make sure it doesn't happen again. I swear I feel like I'm my own worst enemy when it comes to not trying to screw things up.

(sigh).....I cannot handle this stress anymore. I really can't. Its too much for me to handle. Everything in my life has just become too unbearable. There's always something that goes wrong with me and I somehow mange to make it worse. GOD! I just can't take it!

I should feel happy that my health is improving, but I still feel depressed.

Even though I'm feeling better and my health is doing great, mentally I am still struggling.

I hope your doing a little better now. I do not know why but I still worry about you everyday and I truly do not even know you. I just really care about everyone and want you to know that I will always be here. I care about you and know that even if its only me I will always always be here if you need me. I want you to be okay so if there is anything I can do tell me.

Thank you guys for the support. It means alot.

Hey! I just saw your post in the "What's Bothering You?" thread. I'm sorry to hear about your diabetes diagnosis, and I hope you are feeling better.I'm glad that at least you should be able to get help with this now. Glad to see you are home from hospital too!

Hey I heard you were diagnosed and I hope you're feeling alright. I actually don't know you super well on these forums but all I can say is you sound like a really cool person and nobody deserves to suffer, especially physically. If you ever feel left out on the forums just know there are plenty of us who would love to get to know you. Stay safe

(sigh) I feel so left out in real life and on here.

I feel so sick my stomach has been hurting me since yesterday.....

I made a lot of progress on the new island (Yoake) DA-3257-0055-1698

I didn't want to bother you since I know you don't really wanna talk but I just wanted to tell you I went to your new island and I really like it, I've never seen someone decorate a new island so fast and I noticed you put paths where you seem to be planning on putting things and I love how everything is very thought out and planned, I don't get lost either and I don't like getting lost on pretty islands. I really love your house interior and I love your kitchen, it's super comfy.

This island is still under construction but there is the address. DA-3257-0055-1698

Some people would ask me "Why don't you participate in events?" I have my reasons but of them being that I am an introvert meaning I don't like being in groups of people who would talk to me and it makes it difficult for me to interact and leaves me feeling stressed. Another thing I am not so interested in being in friendship groups. I've been broken too many times by friends in the past that I am not going to waste my time doing it. No offense to anyone, but I am not just not going to go through that pain again. I prefer to be by myself because it makes me feel comfortable.

I am trying my best to tell myself that there are good people in the world, but its the fact that I grow up in a toxic environment with bad people so its one of the reasons why I have a spoiled mindset. Its taking a long time to recover, but I am slowly getting there.

Its never a good idea to "fake" positivity because when that happens you're emotions get bottled up and your mental health suffers. Its always a good thing to express how you really feel and not let the "real" you get bottled up inside. I've learned that the hard way.