I’m feeling like I should go to sleep soon. I have off tomorrow but it’s getting a little late. I don’t want to wake up too late. I was happy to have been able to watch some more episodes of Haikyuu, though.
I feel tired. I’m laying in bed trying to sleep but I’m thinking about things I shouldn’t be thinking about. I’ll just get some rest.
Otherwise, today was decent. I should be getting paid very soon, so that’s great. I’m looking forward to a nice, hefty paycheck.
Edit: That “hefty paycheck” turned out not to be that much after all, lmao. It’ll be more on the next one since I’m being paid out for my PTO. I am looking forward to that.
Probably the worst I've ever been. - The hits keep coming with this relationship that ended last year. (Just sucks to be completely alienated from your entire community by someone who cannot tell the truth about a single thing). - Also, when I've been depressed in the past, at least I had a job to take my mind off it to some degree. But, I literally quit my job to distance myself from that person. - I am inside my head all day, every day, and I don't know how to break the cycle. - I don't want people to feel negatively towards the other person...I just want someone to admit that they know I've been wronged, which seems to be something that nobody is willing to say. - It's a crazy feeling. My sense of identity is gone and I am basically in survival mode for the better part of the past year. - I thought something would resolve itself or make sense by now...but the hopeless feeling is honestly insurmountable.
I slept so well last night and was able to sleep in. I’m also seeing my mom on Monday and I can give her her birthday present which I’m excited about. It wasn’t the original plan but this present is still nice, too. The website with the other one ended up being a complete scam, unfortunately.
I know this is from 2 years ago but I really really hope you're feeling better than you were before.
I'm doing pretty well right now though. I'm hoping to make more plans for the summer, as while I've done a few things so far...I've mainly just been doing stuff alone. I'd like to hang out with the friends I have more and maybe get a summer job.
Frustrated and unable to focus. I've been bouncing around from meeting to meeting all morning. The afternoon is more of the same. I feel so unproductive right now.