A little gutted. I explained this more in detail in the 'What's bothering you' thread, but plans fell through with my family so we went to see a movie yesterday. Movies and theaters have always been a place of comfort for me.
During the previews an argument broke out in the back row about seating arrangements. The unhinged man goes to the front of the theatre and begins pointing at people, yelling things and muttering threats. Security eventually kicked him out.
That's related to a very serious past trauma for me and I wanted to be anywhere except that movie theater. The suffocating feeling of being a sitting duck as a cold panic hit the room.
I was also enthusiastic about seeing the Bob Dylan biopic. Now I guess I have to wait until it comes to streaming.
I’m feeling a bit better today since I remembered to take my medicine (yesterday i may have forgotten to), but still not feeling good. A lot is on my mind that I’m either anxious about or upset about. Things at home hasn’t been great since my dad’s mental health continues to go downhill and my mom’s patience with him is gone. He isn’t taking care of his cough - allergies and a cold. she keeps saying things like she should have left him when I still a kid.
On a plus side, coming back has cheered me up quite a bit, seeing all my friends and reading the what made you happy today thread. Kinda embarrassed though when I relook at stuff I just posted since my brain likes to second guess what I wrote >.< (ocd and social anxiety really sucks) .