I just woke up again. I’m still feeling the same, also a bit sad. I’m really glad I have Among Us tonight. I’m hoping this weekend’s sessions help me move forward. Right now, I just want to go back to sleep.
Really tired today, for some reason... I feel pretty alright otherwise, but I might have to lie down for a little while and try to resume my work later.
I just woke up and had a dream that reminded me of some things in high school and other things that I wanted to forget. I’m still extremely depressed, anxious about a message I sent and that I was annoying or something. I feel like I’m a bigger mess than I was originally, even though last night talking to a friend helped me feel a little better. I’m hoping tonight’s session snaps me out of this. I’m just feeling really butt hurt.
Reeeallly jittery and nervous, fast heart rate. And a little bit sad. I gave up caffeine completely because apparently I'm sensitive to it (didn't use to be!).
Switched to decaf everything, tea, etc
Ate a 90% cocoa chocolate bar today. Now have caffeine jitters with shaky hands and all. So apparently there's enough caffeine in there that I'll be giving up my favorite 90%bars.
On the fun side, amongus should be interesting tonight.
For some reason I've been kind of nauseous tonight. I think something about dinner didn't agree with me. Nothing I can't deal with, but still kinda sucks to just not feel great physically.
I’m feeling sleepy and depressed. I might take a nap until it is time for my game session. I’m hoping that’ll help push me forward for the rest of the night. I had a nice chat with a friend last night and I want to try a suggestion that she made out to try to get me back to drawing regardless of my energy level. I was thinking, to try doing some smaller sketches before I try going back to the project I was working on. Hopefully, if I can manage to do this, I don’t make them into a big project. I’ve been hesitant to try drawing something else because of my focus issues; I can only focus on one thing at a time so I’d hate to start something that takes away my focus from the overdue project.
Pissed off. Everybody is sick around me and the healthcare sucks, not able to get some results of tests because the doctor have to see those first, but the doctor says he didn't receive anything but then he lab insists they sent those results already. Now what?
Pretty tired and out of it. Work is slow right now, but I kinda prefer it over a busy and stressful work day. Also a little depressed, but it'll hopefully pass soon...
I’m feeling much better today. The depression is still there since I have the disorder, but today it doesn’t feel as bad. My mood still is kinda low and I’m still completely drained in energy, but I feel like my mood might be improving a little. It is hard to say though since my mood can be a bit unpredictable or unstable; I’m just feeling a little more certain it is improving just a little bit maybe. I hope nothing else goes wrong.
