i’m extremely sensitive, to the point that it’s honestly ridiculous. it has never taken much to hurt my feelings or have me questioning the point of my existence. someone talking over me or not listening to me when i’m talking, someone not being excited about doing something with me, an “if you want to” when i ask someone if they want me to tag along with them somewhere, someone acknowledging everyone’s posts in a thread except for mine, etc. i would be here all day if i tried to list
everything that hurts my feelings, even if the thing isn’t done intentionally.
i’ve always been hyper-aware of people’s tones, energies, the way they word things when speaking to me etc, and the slightest indication that they’re upset, poking fun at me, or just not happy will have me spiralling and thinking there’s something wrong with me, even if it has nothing to do with me at all. i take everything personally. i know how ridiculous and wrong my sensitivity can be, so i tend to keep my mouth shut when my feelings get hurt. i never know when i actually have a right to be upset or when i’m being too sensitive, plus i just don’t have the energy to be invalidated or fight with anyone anymore, so it’s easier to just internalize everything. it hurts, but it keeps the peace, i guess.
my sensitivity extends to how i talk to and treat other people as well. i’m very conscious of how i say things and what i do, because the last thing i want to do is accidentally upset someone else. it’s a little silly since i think i overthink it too much, but i’d rather overthink than not think enough and end up hurting someone with my words/actions unintentionally.