Not sure if this is appropriate or not but I never thought I would lose my virginity before marriage. I grew up homeschooled in a very christian household. It was engraved in my brain that I wasn't allowed to do that until I was married to a Christian man. My parents forced me to wear a promise ring and would never allow me to go anywhere to hang out with guys 1 on 1 or go over to boyfriend's houses. When I met my second bf, I ended up rebelling and constantly lying about where I would go to my parents, and eventually did it with my current bf. I always thought I would feel so guilty if I did this, and I was terrified beyond words can describe. I cried the day it happened, when he drove me home. As much as I had wanted to do it, I was also sooo scared that my parents would somehow magically find out and prevent me from seeing him ever again.
But, I realized that it's honestly NOT a big deal. As long as you're safe, and you do it with someone you trust, that's really all that matters.
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