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Sorry for the wall of text.
The boyfriend wanted to play video games the other night-our night, no less. He gets busy that he asks that we have a specific day to do stuff together, which I'm fine with, and this is what 'our night' is. Generally, we don't normally talk until 6 or 7 or so in the evening. I get up at 5 for work in the morning, so generally I'm in bed at 9 or 10. It doesn't give a whole lot of time, and this used to bother me quite a bit, but I've calmed down about it and just sort of accepted things. Well, this particular night he said he was out with his mom grocery shopping, and for some reason said we'd talk around 5. I was happy, because this was early, and looking forward to it. So...I notice that he's online. Like, I'm just derping around, and I checked facbook, and lo and behold, there he is...and his profile says he won a trophy in his game.
He didn't get on his skype until 5.40 ish, which already had me a little disappointed. I asked about his mom, and at the time, the thing on his profile conveniently disappeared. He said his mom was fine, and tired from getting groceries. And I…I told him: yeah, you weren’t playing games or anything. He responded with: Huh? And I told him what I saw, and he said: ‘Dang. You caught me, cutie.’ And if…if I hadn’t said anything, he would have let me believe it. He wouldn’t have said anything. He didn’t want to talk to me. And if he would have just told me…if we would have waited like we normally do…I would have been fine with it. I’ve gotten upset about us waiting before, because we don’t get a whole lot of time together anymore. I used to get worried that he just didn’t want to talk to me. Especially because we used to talk all the time, 24/7. He’d text me while he was working, while he was at school, any time of the day, all day. And now I’m lucky if I get a good morning, (which, by the way, was his idea to even start doing to each other). I can’t stop thinking that he just doesn’t want to talk to me; he said he lied because he didn’t want me to feel like he was choosing a video game over me. But now I just…I don’t know. And at the time, (this happened a few days ago), I said it was fine, but now I just feel hurt and I can’t stop thinking about it and wondering how many times I’ve felt like…like he’s online, and I’m online, but he just doesn’t care enough to talk to me. Because I've felt what I felt that night before...like he's there, he just doesn't want to talk to me and doesn't have the balls to tell me. He just doesn’t want to talk, because he has more important people to talk to, one of which is a girl that he was in love with for a year and a half before we got together. He told me he hadn’t talked to her in months…I found out that wasn’t true the same night that all of the above happened…