What's Bothering You?

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^the heck your mom?

also ugh why don't they air the serbia-denmark u21 game here.. wtf that one would be more interesting
 
My brothers all plan to go to a theme park but never asked me if I wanted to go. As a matter of fact they kept it hush hush because they DON’T want me to go. They never want anything to do with me.
 
anxious about finding a job now that i've graduated. had an interview friday and i feel like it went well but it's the only interview i've gotten so far and i'm almost out of money. had to spend $125 on my teaching license application so now i'm even more broke than i was :/ going to apply for a couple more positions nearby but not feeling hopeful.
 
My mom wants me to install a tracking app on my phone so she can make sure she knows where I?m driving to and if I?m safe... umm no. She doesn?t understand why I don?t want that

I have to admit, if I had a App like that on my phone..
she would've freaked out, when I say that I meet
a female friend and then end up in a hotel (was only once,
and the guy is still my boyfriend, so.. could've ended bad, I know)





It was such great weather today and now it's raining and cold.
I want to go to shop NOW and not later when everyone goes,
but I won't walk sick, under the rain for 45 minutes. :mad:
 
god i’ve made such a FOOL out of myself i want to move out of this COUNTRY so i don’t have to see this person or his friends again ldjdkdbdjd i’m such an embarrassment
 
I feel restless af and don't know what to do! Withdrawals? Who can say!
 
parents talking * about me in the room right next to me when my door and their door is right next to mine.... lets just say what theyre saying is not good smh :( also my so called best friend has ignored me since practice ended and like when i had an iphone and social media she constantly would talk to me but now i have a different phone and she just ignores me. we planned a sleepover but she ghosted me just because i had an android and said "it wouldnt be the same as our other sleepovers" like??? shes been distant for absolutely no reaspn, i havent done anything to her, she hasnt done anything to me. but just because i hve a different phone n stuff w my parents, she doesnt even like me anymore. i was finally so happy i had someone to call my best friend and shes just ignoring me this whole summer and doesnt even wanna hang out w me just because i have a different phone (literally HER words) and i feel like she talks bad about me to her other friends and i just dont understanfd?? im always been nothing but nice to her but all i get is being ghosted for the stupidest reason. she loves her internet friends way more than me and it shows. i used to be like that but i drifted from all my internet friends so... all i have left are my irls. i would confront my best friend but im scared of losing her sooner than losing her later

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oops this was rly lengthy... sorry
 
The phone died on me at the wrong time, I'll say. I can't really handle it. Sometimes I starve myself, because of my contamination fears. Uncomfortable eating the food, touching the table/bowl... I really want to live somewhere else. I'm sick of using Lysol wipes all the damn time. I want to feel clean, but my family does all these gross things and I'm just tired of it and of my thoughts. I'm crying now, because I'm just quite frustrated. I'd like to live with my friend, just to get away from it all. To live in a clean environment. My family's done disgusting things, things that a person without contamination fears would find icky. I can't even eat meals without being uncomfortable. I just think about that time my grandma chopped up the fish on the garage floor... they've really done disgusting things, but apparently not enough for my caseworker or anybody to take action I suppose. Not to even talk them into practicing good hygiene. It's not normal to think that having crap on the floor is okay, it's not normal to splatter fish blood all over the place, it just isn't normal to prep food on the floor... It's not normal to call someone crazy, when they know what proper hygiene is. They think it's okay. I'm really tired of being late to everything, and doing all these rituals, and spending my time with all of this. Even after I got back home, I think my grandma said something about me being possessed or something. They're not saying it much now I think, but they've said that I was being possessed. Because I was mentally ill. They've actually called a priest over, and my mom has sprayed holy water. They think I'm a demon. And, they push their insecurities on me... and they've called me all sorts of things before, like I'm not a lesbian nor am I promiscuous, what the hell... I just want to get out of here. I want to call someone, but my phone is goddamn dead. We've only got our home phone, which is located in the kitchen. I just don't want to really live here any much longer.
 
My relationship with my dad but I'm too scared to message him. I wish he'd care enough to message me first. I feel like my fam just uses him to ask for birthday gifts or money but honestly I don't have much to say to him because he was never there for me in my life.
 
IMGUR!!!! started uploading the things I wanna share on here to my imgur and ... Holy.... Smokes.. WHAT is wrong with that community????
 

I'm sorry your family is... how do I say this nicely.... less hygienic than the normal standard most people find acceptable. I'm even more sorry they act like you're the problem. You're not crazy and you're certainly not possessed. (Although if you did have demon powers you could have just roasted them all to ashes.) You're the one making sense in this situation. I don't think anything you're doing sounds out of proportion to the situation you're forced to deal with. If you ever need an ear I'm here.


We received an ad from some random pet shop in the mail yesterday. Seeing it has had me crying off & on since I still miss out rats so much. Our house feels so empty without them.
 
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