What's Bothering You?

I need people to grow up and realize that team leads, managers, and any other positions with authority are more often than not just doing our jobs and following policy to avoid getting written up ourselves. We don't have some personal agenda against you. I'm not telling you to put your phone away because I personally care, I'm telling you because I'm supposed to run the show and set the example, and if one of my higher ups saw you not following policy under my supervision it comes down on me. Stop whining about being expected to follow the rules that were clearly outlined on your application that you signed.
 
This morning was such a curse today.

I woke up at 7am, and decided to rest a bit more, as I knew my mum will ring to wake me up.
In that extra thirty min sleep, I had a crazy dream where me, my nephew and someone else was playing hide and seek in a really big house for six hours, midnight start.
I dunno why I'm mad at this, but I had forth mins remaining and then I get found, after all those long hours hiding I lost. (Was moving around so not in the same hiding spot)
I dunno if the hide and seek animal crossing I did two days ago made this dream happen.

Then today it's pouring with rain, still is, and my mum meets uo with me after work to help at my job.
When I get to work, I quickly find out that the WiFi is not working. Which means we're screwed when it comes to card payments. I message and call my bosses ex and he's like it should work fine without Internet and to try the hand held one.
I tried both, they do not work. We just lost a customer. Had to message him back and he calls and its just so irritating because I've done all the ideas he could think of. He's say8bg the handheld worked fine last time they had this problem which is just unnecessary comments at this point.
Would be fine if we had any change but THEY NEVER DO
So we're losing customers as I have to wait for my boss to get in. I don't know who is suppose to be in today but I was suppose to finish at 9:30 I left an hour later.

Oh yeah, the cutlery we have we pair them together with a napkin but when I git there they didn't pair the correct cutlery together and that was just fustrating me even more, it doesn't entirely matter but my head wasn't ready to leave it like that. Found one knife not properly cleaned but put with the clean stuff!!!!
My stress in this place is building. I could write a book on what could ve changed here.

Need to go home and relax.
 
had a terrible night’s rest because my sister was in her bathroom for HOURS and it’s on the other side of my closet so the constant hum of the fan and pipes were so loud, kept me from falling asleep. i kept getting woken up from a loud bang and couldn’t stay asleep without hearing her shuffling!!!!
 
seeing fare enforcement makes me so uncomfortable. they’re upsetting so many people. i once got a warning for forgetting to tap my card on a transfer, and the guy took his job way too seriously and read his whole annoying ass script out to me. it made me feel so embarrassed. just now, i heard some lady yelling at them because her physical transfer ticket was for the bus and not the train. they let her stay on i guess but it’s still upsetting to hear. like i’m sorry, the “fares pay for transit” card the transit agencies are pulling is complete bs. tax the rich harder, make public transit free, and leave working class commuters alone.
 
Finn is still not eating much and acts dizzy. He got fluids from the vet yesterday. He’s quieter lately, but still likes licking my legs, licking the pillows, doing his old habits. But he still stumbles and tilts his head. I hope he pulls through.
Finn went to the vet today. He is mostly himself, aside from his head tilt and lack of appetite. Thankfully, his weight is still 17 pounds (his usual size). When Misty (cat), gets too close, he barks at her, like he used to.

He was tired after the vet, but I’m relieved he isn’t as clumsy. He moves a bit better, and ate more this evening.

I still cry about him. Last night I wrote a poem about him, because I needed to get those feelings out. Today I cried and held him in my lap, until he wanted to crawl on my bed. This vestibular stuff is difficult, and I worry about him, but I’m glad he still has his personality and knows he is loved.
 
omg my pc has been giving me issues persistently these past couple of days and i think i might have to take it apart before reinstalling the parts again to find the issue

it keeps black screening whenever i'm gaming but i'm not even overloading my gpu !!!! wondering if it's fixable with a new cable but it is through my display port so... i'm not sure if it means my port is seeing the tail end of its life or what but i want to see if i can problem solve before jumping the gun and upgrading my gpu ( ;´ - `; )

i messaged my cousin and he'll be coming over tomorrow with his spare psu that we'll test out, and his tiny gpu to test if it's the monitor instead. here's hoping i don't actually have to upgrade my gpu because i just know later down the line i'll also have to upgrade my cpu which also means psu ଘ(|lI.‸.)
 
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The depression really bad lmao.
I can't do anything lately. It's been like that since the year started but its gotten real bad over the past couple of weeks.
I cant stand being around any of my friends, and I feel like a horrible person for it. I can't be upset about it around them otherwise they'll also feel bad lmao.
I'm not keeping my room clean. Can't do laundry or anything. I can play 1, maybe 2 games that I find actually enjoyable, if that. Even then the enjoyable window on them is like an hour.
Taking my meds would help if I had a sleep schedule that was consistent or if I ate regular meals but I do neither. And if I do eat a meal by the time I remember to take them it's been several hours and I have to eat smthn else. And this has stopped me from taking multiple medications lol.
No drive to stream, to do art, to do anything really. Overstimulated at every little thing. Hating being in my own body. Thought I had a therapy appt this week but it's not until Monday.
And thats not even mentioning the school stuff which is so barely part of my life now mentally i might as well drop.
Medical stuff. Need to go to doctor to check on my pressure again but God I don't actually want to do that cause I'm just gonna cry because it's stressful and they're just gonna make a huge deal abt it.
Dont even get me started on just stuff happening in the world that makes me scared of being alive.
Its fun im doing great fr.
 
My mom just got out of the hospital. She’s been in there since Friday and she’s on an oxygen tank for 3-6 weeks. I’m glad it’s not a permanent thing, but I’m more worried about it than I’ll admit to.
 
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