Thanks. I guess I’ll just post everything that’s on my mind. I know I’m contradicting my earlier posts, and I told myself I wouldn’t talk about what’s bothering me here anymore, but I need somewhere to vent.
It just feels like all my family and friends are busy and don’t have time to talk to me lately. I’m feeling kind of depressed and lonely these days and it feels like I’m putting a lot of work into my studying and stuff and not getting much in return. I’m naturally a selfless and positive person, but it feels like I’ve been selfless and helping people for so long that I kind of forgot about myself and my interests in the process. I also feel like some people on this forum find me incredibly annoying, and I try not to be, but I still feel like I am in the end. I’m a logical, yet emotional person and an ambivert. Lately I’ve been having a lot of alone time, and it’s nice and all, but I also need time to talk to friends and people and stuff too or I end up like this. The last part is that I feel like I’m supposed to be pretty busy and all with studies and stuff, but it feels like other people are even busier than I am. I don’t know if I’m not taking on enough, but I do have a full set of classes so I don’t think that’s the case. Sometimes it feels like, in spite of all this, I’m really just a dumb person and I contradict myself way too often. I have Aspergers, but like I’ve said in the past, sometimes I feel like it’s kind of wasted on someone like me.
I think this is just something I have to deal with on my own though. I kind of wish there was a circle of friends or a friend group I could have IRL. That’s all I really want