What's Bothering You?

[lasagne_of_death]

I finished my would-be entry for something, but after I completed it with a lot of effort and time put in, I realised I completely misunderstood the point of the event. I'm really stressed out because now I have to find time to redo that, since I'm really busy studying for exams coming up.

 

[Shawna]

So, I am not upset at my grandparents this time, as the situation is a lot more serious than just them fooling around on some vacation -
For context, my grandmother had to get eye surgery, which I believe took place this passed Monday), but their dog is over here. I try not to complain about it anymore, since it has unfortunately become a regular thing (though it still stresses me out immensely despite that).

However, I am mainly stressed because I am not sure how long he will be here for. I am not trying to be insensitive to my grandmother's situation, but it is frustrating to not have any details of how long he will be here. I may or may not have mentioned this before, but the dog has separation anxiety, so the dog is absolutely miserable when he is over here.

I would ask my dad how long he will be staying, but I have a feeling he will just get annoyed, even a bit mad and claim I am being insensitive, so I am keeping my mouth shut for the time being. My dad can be cool, laid-back, easygoing, funny, etc. However, he can be insensitive as hell in certain situations, and a lot of them are dog-related.

Again, I am not referring to this particular situation, since it was surgery, and not a vacation - this is for past and future reference, but I still do not understand why my grandparents decided to take in a traumatized dog with separation anxiety, when they travel as often as they do. From what my dad told me, the dog showed up at their doorstep and had apparently been abused by his previous owners. I completely understand they wanted to help him recover from being abused, but like...why couldn't they take him to a shelter? Or put him up for adopt instead? Dogs like him need to be adopted by people who don't have to travel all the time.

Also, I know I have vented about it before, but my dad plans on getting a dog of his own, probably not too long after my grandparent's dog passes (he's pretty up there in age, so he likely only has a few years left). I am trying to look forward to the day my grandparents dog doesn't have to keep getting dropped off over here, but a part of me can't, because my dad will probably just get a dog not too long afterwards anyway.

And I cannot help, but even feel...hurt(?) in a way. My dad preaches compromise, but he does not practice it. He even told me we wouldn't get our own dog, since my grandparents (his parents) are often bringing theirs over here, but then, he plans on getting one anyway. I was at least hoping that having to have my grandparents dog over here all the time would remind him we are better off without one, but noooooo. >_<

 

[sleepey]

had to go in for a doctors appointment today that’s taking me 2hr to get to by public transit, otherwise i would have been discharged and had to start over the admissions process for this outpatient mental health program i’m doing ;u;

it’s ok tho, i don’t feel anxious like i thought i would, but this is going to eat up a huge chunk of my day for just a 20 minute physical exam. and i have choir rehearsal this evening. i’m just going to be tired later

took less than 10 min for them to just take my blood pressure, pulse, listen to my breathing, and review medical history i already gave them. so unserious.

 

[Giddy]

Feeling slightly overwhelmed, my mum also wants my thank you cards to friends and family before tomorrow.
I haven't drawn for three days in my book ad don't want to add a forth. But honestly I just don't know.

Just wish I could stop time for just a lil bit so I don't feel too over the place.

Have my UC call - oh no video call for some crazy reason, I don't see why they have to see my face, and I have looked for stuff today but couldn't find anything so who knows what he's gonna say.
When I vaguelt don't trust the indeed and other sites for jobs anymore. I tell them once before I'm at a lost what to do, yet I didn't get any feeling like they're willing to assist me in much.

Also, on my birthday my dad actually wished me a happy birthday, and my mum wants me to message him to ask why after so many years - what has changed to message, ans I really don't want yo message him.
I already said he probably only saw because it was on Facebook and fb notifies you.

 

[JellyLu]

Spoiler: TW: Dying

It's time. My dog is so tired. I know he's ready but I'm not. I've helped multiple families send their babies across the rainbow bridge but I can't do it to mine. He's practically a child to me. I know it's selfish. I know I'll have to do it. But as soon as I sign the euthanasia consent form, sign his life away, I will fall apart. I have thrown every medication available to him and nothing works. I hate cancer. It takes everything from me.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I'm an emotional mess right now haha

 

[Suguri]

I was hoping to bake some cookies for the Valentine’s event, but there’s no way it can happen. I have low self-esteem when it comes to my cooking/baking skills and my mom has been growing so health-conscious (especially since something happened to my dad) that she won’t let me buy Oreos and BBQ chips anymore.

The whole time I was looking for mixes and stuff, I felt crushed; my mom’s stance on junk food must’ve gotten the best of me, because I kept looking at the nutrition facts for each package and thought, “That’s too much sugar. I’ll get diabetes over that.” I gave up after a while and bought shortbread cookies with 3g sugar. At least I don’t have to bake, which is good because the money needs to go to getting support for my dad instead of a bunch of ingredients I’ll probably just waste.

 

[VernalLapin]

Spoiler

This virus has me feeling like a stepped on raisin out in the cold. Literally how am i even supposed to pass the time without just sleeping constantly

 

[SkyKnight03]

Experienced an instance of bullying today. Been feeling rather hurt.

 

[nightglow]

Update, still not found ;_;
I literally cleaned up my whole room, and my mum searched areas we were in yesterday, I walked down the way where we went for lunch and it's not there.

I swear I vaguely rememebr taking it off, I think?
Even if left anywhere, I don't think my cats would eat it, nor are they acting any differently in a sense that if they did eat it, there would many things different.

I just hope I didn't drop it outside, where someone could've taken it, thrown it away etc if it is my house, despite looking everywhere, maybe it will show up? Just feels so weird though.

When I wear jewelry, I end up taking it off in the bathroom and then forget to put it back on before leaving. I try to use pockets when I actually have them.
Hope you find it soon.