What's Bothering You?

trying to export this video and the software has crashed so many times, gdi I wish this stupid thing would just work so I can upload my video 😭
 
Mom is sick with a bad cold, which means my brother isn't coming for Thanksgiving...which means it's just me, my dad, and my sick mom. She is still making dinner...but is dividing her time between coughing and napping. It's the quietest and strangest Thanksgiving ever.
 
it's so dumb that I have to wait until some ambiguous time in spring to get pokemon I really like in Violet. I just want a shiny Nickit and a Fennekin 😞
(and possibly hisuian zorua if it'll be available in SV)
 
Mad I slept in despite going to sleep early. I should have set in alarm. I don’t trust myself with anything.
 
Also, I get cravings to vape now when I’m at high stress. At least I have enough control that I haven’t done it since that first time I tried, but it might’ve been a mistake in the first place.
 
getting left out in a roleplay server i joined recently. i've been really enjoying it, and i was looking forward to this current storyline because the dm said it was mainly crafted to introduce me to the battle mechanics, but my character ended up largely getting ignored (to the point where you could read only my replies and not know any other characters were even involved) and another character entirely got all the spotlight? and then they all ended it without giving me a chance to put in a post about the 'final'. really sucks...
 
ngl it's kinda disappointing to work so hard on making a video only for it to accumulate exactly one view in 10 hours 😞
 
still so tired from yesterday. also kinda want to shop some discounted dresses from this place but their shipping is horrible sometimes + they basically demand stuff gets returned to them twice before refunding...
 
i keep getting hip pain from sleeping. it's happened occasionally for a few months, but the last few days it's been pretty bad. every time i would wake up in the night, my hip(s) would hurt. sometimes the one i was laying on, sometimes the opposite one. i don't know if it's the pain that was waking me up, but it would always hurt regardless, and feel numb to the touch. idk if it's something to be concerned about though.
 
Mom's in an argument w/ the neighbor. Welp.
 
I keep waking up too late. Today I got up at 3 P.M. and I don't feel like doing any schoolwork. Maybe tomorrow I'll force myself up and get some work done.
 
I’m really not looking forward to our 18-hour drive home tomorrow. Why is this country so huge?
me (ohio) going to visit my mom's family (in louisiana/mississippi/alabama) and it's a 14 hour drive 😭



I have so many loads of laundry that need to be done bc I haven't barely done any laundry in the last few weeks (bc of depression and lack of energy/getting worn out super easily) but there's so much to do now it's kinda overwhelming. especially since I have to fold it all by myself and it takes so much out of me 😞
 
I hate my feet why do they have to differ so much, I had a really hard time picking out some new smart and comfy shoes.. had to get 38 even though it's a wee bit large maybe cause 37 squeezed my left feet a lot and a bit too tight in general on both even though I should probably have picked that... sigh.
Post automatically merged:

And I can't find my other medical sole either :/
 
I had a wound looked at by a doctor when it first started to show signs of infection, but she said it was fine. An hour and a half ago the scab came off in the shower. So much pus. I have worked with all manner of bodily fluids in a laboratory context, I've cut things out of my own body, drained other people's abscesses, etc and yet I still struggled with it. I thoroughly cleaned it and sprayed it with an antiseptic and Christ it is still stinging an hour later. There is no reason to think it'll refill, but now I'm left with a literal hole in my arm and I can't see another doctor until Thursday.

Two weeks healing time was initially quoted. I'm now at 3.5 weeks and feel like it's just been massively set back. I already heal very slowly due to various chronic health conditions. I could deal with it visually looking awful (it's 100% going to scar) but the pain has been constant. Hopefully now that the pus is out it'll start to properly heal and I'll wake-up with it looking and feeling less angry tomorrow.
 
so I'm scheduled to work at 9am but it's currently 1:30am and I really dont want to go to bed at all. I just want to stay up and work on my drawings 😭

also I've had sores all over my tongue for like 3 days now and it's getting really annoying. I can barely eat without being in pain. it sucks.
 
Back
Top