What's Bothering You?

[Alienfish]

The idiots here banging off rockets/fireworks and whatnot despite it not being new year's. I do not like it and I bet most dogs and other pets does not either!

 

[Ravenkitty22]

Spoiler

It's getting bad again. Why can't I go a day without making my parents mad? I don't understand what I'm even doing wrong. If I say too much, it's bad. If I don't say enough, it's bad. If I show too much emotion, I get yelled at, but if I don't show enough, there's something wrong. I feel like I'm trapped where I'm at and I just want out. My friend's words keep repeating in my head: "Your self esteem is garbage, your personality's in shambles, and you're clinging on to a fandom hoping it will save you." I know something's wrong, I know it's not normal, I know it's not entirely my fault, but what am I supposed to do about it? I can't win!

 

[Seastar]

Just simply the fact I don't know what being healthy feels like.

 

[Midoriya]

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Hey, I know I'm late to this, and I've already said it before, but I just wanted to say that your friendship means the world to me. You are one of the MOST notable members on this site. You are way better at events than I could ever hope to be. You're cool, you're funny, you're awesome! I'll be sad if you leave, but I understand if you do. Just know that there are a good amount of people here that care about you and will miss you, myself included.

 

[Croconaw]

I tried playing Mario Kart 8 Deluxe online at a local gas station. The WiFi here works, but it’s pretty bad. I got disconnected three times. I don’t want to lose any more VR, so I’ll just wait until I get back to the house.

 

[nightglow]

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[Croconaw]

Spoiler: transphobic

I had to make up a lie to go to Staples so I could return my binder at the returns desk. My dad drove me there. Every time my dad gets a long check at work to make (cooking food), he says it’s longer than Michelle Obama’s wiener. He’s okay with gay people and sexual/romantic orientations and such, but not too sure about the trans community with those comments.

 

[Xara]

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[VanitasFan26]

Spoiler: I hate being gaslighted!

This is the thing that bothers me when talking to other people you don't know about your issues. The people who think how to solve your problems by giving you advice that you didn't ask for clearly doesn't know when to ask what the problem is before giving advice. Unsolicited Advice is really bad. You may mean well but you have to understand the problem in order to make sure you're not trying to sound dismissive, which is one of the reasons why asking for help is so difficult these days.

I realized that my own family and some of my ex friends gaslighted me to make me feel like I am going to crazy. They say sentences like "Stop making a big deal out of it" and "you're too sensitive". I cannot even express what I am going through because I know whats going to happen and it gets dismissed right away. I suffer in silence because of this.

 

[Croconaw]

I don’t know if I’m the problem this time or not. Or if it’s bad management. I have BPD and because of that, I’ve had lots of jobs. I’d leave the minute something upsets me. I feel the only thing that keeps me here are the people — and not just my favorite person, although she keeps me sane here. I kept her up last night until 2 AM with my rambling. I don’t think she minds one bit. She said I can talk to her. I like most of the people I work with. I don’t want to leave based on petty **** with a manager.

Besides, I’m a great worker, but because I’ve left jobs on bad terms I don’t include my job history in resumes/job applications. They won’t know I’m a good worker until after they hire me… I think I’m more cut out for retail anyway. My longest job was a retail. I was cashier at Walmart for 3+ years. I liked that job, but I like this one too. Just talking to (the nice) customers more is fulfilling. I can’t do that washing dishes. But Target said I wasn’t what they were looking for, yet they hire someone with no experience on a register. Absolute bull****. I sabotaged myself.

 

[tessa grace]

Why do some people have to make out that their problems are far worse than everyone else's? My so called best friend just text me to thank me for the gift I sent her (I've not had anything from her though) and then I told her that my Christmas Day didn't happen as my mum wasn't well and that I hoped hers was better than mine. Yet all she said was I hope my mum gets better soon and that her Christmas had been stressful just like the last few months of her life had been. It's always about her and to be honest I'm over it. For once I'd like to have some of the attention I used to give her, but nope it's clear it'll never be that way and I will always be the agony aunt when her life turns to crap or when she has no one else's shoulder to lean on. I'm starting to think 2023 for me will be a year where she is no longer included in my life as she makes me feel inferior to her life all the damn time.

I'm sorry your Christmas was crummy and pray your mom will get well soon Hopefully your New Years is better, cheers to 2023 and making changes in your life

Didn't get much sleep at all. (Flight landed at 11, next one was 7) I feel exhausted.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

trying not to drown in negativity today but I do feel pretty meh. not feeling well enough to go anywhere but I can't even leave my room bc I know my dad is out there and I know he'll find some stupid **** to complain about. i guess it's another day of being stuck in my room drawing or whatever. I'll make the best of it.

 

[spawnpoint]

havent started my period in like 2 or 3 months (idk how long i am horrible at keeping track of time) but ummm idk if i should be concerned or

this happened last year in literally the same timeframe wtf is going on

 

[Clock]

Just not in a good mood today

 

[Mimi Cheems]

Well.. before my brother left for the Navy 2 months ago, I weighed a steady 200 lbs. That's about 90 kg for the metric folk. Within those 2 months, without even trying. I lost 25 lbs. I'm 79 kg now. The only reason I cared is that people kept pointing it out at work, that it looked like I kept losing more and more weight every time they saw me. So I weighed myself once I got home. I hear it at least three times a week when I'm working. I wasn't even trying, so it's mildly concerning that I lost that much in such a short amount of time. My mom has an overactive thyroid, so I told her about it and now it's starting to scare me a bit..

 

[Beanz]

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[Marridia]

there's already fireworks
ughhhhh

 

[Alienfish]

yes stupid fireworks and they kept shooting em off last night too yay thanks tryna sleep here, new year's is tonight :F

 

[xSuperMario64x]

woke up bc I had to go into the bathroom but now it's 4am and I'm struggling to go back to sleep

 

[Neb]

I accidentally phrased things the wrong way on that LGBTQ+ Discord server again and two more people were nasty to me. I even tried to explain myself, but they wouldn’t have it. Every time I post on there now they cut me off.

In the three years I’ve been on the server the mods have only stepped up twice. Once was when we were all sharing our results on a political compass test and when mine said “democratic socialist,” another user cussed me out (they didn’t think it was left leaning enough even though I am left leaning). The mods deleted the post, but didn’t publicly say anything about it.

The other time was when I was trying to contribute to a conversation and one user actually said “most people on this server don’t like you and it would honestly be better if you left.” A mod deleted the post and that person has barely posted on there since (I think I shared this one).

About 85% of the time I post on there I get ignored. It’s been like this for two years. I know it’s a toxic place and I should leave, but I’m afraid they’ll gossip to each other about me publicly like they did for other people. They say the main server on the server group is toxic, but honestly I think they’re just as bad.