What's Bothering You?

[Mr_Keroppi]

I wish I was useful for something else other than work. Im so tired of spending my whole life writing papers and typing answers. I never get to experience school like everyone else. I never get to hang out with friends or go on sleepovers or fun things. I miss freetime. Its gotten so bad to the point where I spend half of my weekends working and studying. I barely have time for anything but my school and I miss the fun in life. I treasure the moments where I can look outside and see the sun, eat some pretzels, take a shower. I never have the time to truly just relax anymore and I never get to spend time with the friends that I hold so close to my heart. It doesnt help that yesterday someone stole all of my notes and sent them to everyone in my class so that my hours of work go to someone for free. Honors classes make people think im a nerd but I am happy. I am confident in myself and never let anyone tell me who I am or how to live my life. Im happy with myself and the fact I just got a haircut but people dont respect me or let me live happily sometimes. I used to love school so much and was incredibly excited for this year.
BESTIES THERE IS NO REASON TO BE SAD CAUSE EVENTUALLY HAPPINESS COMES AND YA LEARN THAT YA HAVE BAD MOMENTS BUT IT GON GET BETTER

 

[cherrytheone]

My knee has been acting up recently :/

 

[VanitasFan26]

Well I am going to go see my doctor tomorrow. Been having some issues with my blood sugar lately and throughout the week its been rough for me. I hope I get the right treatment. I really hope I don't have a repeat of what happened to me back in March 2022.

 

[Mimi Cheems]

I’m sad. Group therapy has been so draining, my FP almost left me and it’s been making me such an emotional wreck. I don’t like going to work anymore. I started a second mood stabilizer on top of my current one and I feel like all it’s doing is just making me more and more depressed. I just want to lay in bed for a very long time and just forget about my responsibilities for a while.

 

[oak]

I applied to so many minimum wage jobs and not one called me back wtf. Am I destined to be a longshoreman the rest of life. Is that what yr trynna tell me universe? Am I a big unappreciative baby? I just wanna lay in the grass. I don't like driving big trucks and slinging up loads of steel and lashing up containers. But this is the only way to a decent pension plan. Why can't i decide

 

[VanitasFan26]

At this point in time I am feeling overwhelmed. I just came back from the doctor's office and lets just say the experience was both interesting and uncomfortable to say the least. I had to do blood work and A1C test just to see what is going on. I won't hear the results until Monday for the most part. I have to see 3 specialist doctors for Liver, Eye, and Heart. I'm already seeing a Diabetic doctor this month by May 24th, 2023.

Needless to say I need more checkups than ever before. I know this is going to be a real pain to deal with but for the sake of my health I have to do what I gotta do which is easier said than done.

 

[Croconaw]

I really hate the new Discord usernames. I wish we could keep the discriminators, especially as a Nitro subscriber. This is going to take some getting used to.

Also, I was misgendered by a someone on another forum I use, but I can’t say I blame them considering they know me as female… It’s just weird because I work in a team with this person, without saying too much. Oh, well. I’ve stated my pronouns on my Discord bio, too.

 

[Pop-tart]

I just finished Spiritfarer and i hurt so so bad

 

[Shellzilla_515]

I know it's only the morning and I don't want to post here, but there's something that's bothering me for the past few weeks now. Why would a workplace tell me that I got a job offer only to hear little to nothing back from them? The person who's helping me to find a job tried contacting them but got no answer. I was looking forward to this opportunity but no, I guess jobs in general hate me and that I'll never ******* find one. The process of searching is tedious and going for interviews if I'm lucky enough. In reality, I did get a couple of interviews to set up at other places but ended up declining because I assumed they'd send some stuff about that said job offer to sign. I should've tried anyways for other potential opportunities in case things go south and now I'm kicking myself for it.

Why do I always get the short end of the stick? How come my classmates are getting jobs way sooner and at very good places? Am I really just that bad? Am I useless? I hate this feeling. Not getting a job is one thing, but getting told about having a job offer and not hearing from them doing their part smothers my hopes in the mud which is worse. I never thought this would be possible but I guess the unfortunate stuff always goes to me. It hurts me on the inside every time when my classmates land a job while I on the other hand get little to nothing in return despite the efforts I put in. Is it too much to ask for one? It's so draining getting failure after failure and being left behind.

 

[Rinpane]

I don't want to lose anyone I care about. I don't want there to be a time where I have to say goodbye, have to watch on as days pass without them in this world. I never want the ones I treasure to pass on to the otherworld.
...It's an inevitable fate, I know. Some of them have already passed, even. But whenever I think about what the future holds this thought comes up, leaving me somewhat downtrodden. Just wish everyone who means something to me could stay forever sometimes.

On a somewhat less heavy note, I hope I won't have to change my Discord username with that announced change. My account is old, but my ideal username is both short and not unique. Guess I'll have to wait and see. :/

 

[Croconaw]

It sucks feeling like people are talking about you behind your back. I don’t want the negative attention.

Also, I hope I’ll get to keep my Discord username. I hate the new change. I wish we could keep the discriminators.

 

[Midoriya]

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Hey, buddy! I just wanted to say I was in your same situation just a couple years ago. Just remember that your value does not decrease depending on whether or not a place decides to hire you. You just got to keep giving it your all and not give up until you find a place that truly values and respects your talents, skills, and knowledge and puts them to good use. I hope you find something amazing soon!

 

[ali.di.magix]

Depression-like feelings are hitting hard this weekend. Just feeling down, highly irritable and lacking energy to do anything.

 

[Croconaw]

My sling bag won’t stay on when I bend down because I’m too ****ing skinny. It’s annoying having it slide down to my chest EVERY DAMN TIME. I can’t even adjust the strap since it’s already at the shortest setting. I guess slings aren’t for people like me and I should get a daybag??

I know there’s worse problems to have but I still posted this, idk…

 

[-Blue-]

My sling bag won’t stay on when I bend down because I’m too ****ing skinny. It’s annoying having it slide down to my chest EVERY DAMN TIME. I can’t even adjust the strap since it’s already at the shortest setting. I guess slings aren’t for people like me and I should get a daybag??

I know there’s worse problems to have but I still posted this, idk…

If you have basic sewing you can probably take it in a bit or ask someone to or find a tailor? It really depends on how much you like the sling bag I suppose. I have a pair of pants that someone gave me that are from a company that is now defunct and they are very rare and highly sought after. But they are way too big for me so when I am more financially secure I plan on having a tailor take them in a bit.

I know how annoying it is to find/buy something like that and have it end up not working out like the way you hoped it would. Hopefully you can find a solution to this!

 

[Mairmalade]

My values/character are being dumpstered/disrespected.

My sling bag won’t stay on when I bend down because I’m too ****ing skinny. It’s annoying having it slide down to my chest EVERY DAMN TIME. I can’t even adjust the strap since it’s already at the shortest setting. I guess slings aren’t for people like me and I should get a daybag??

I know there’s worse problems to have but I still posted this, idk…

I feel you on this, and it does get annoying when you constantly have to adjust. I have a crossbody bag where the strap does the same thing. Anytime I sit down, get up, or lean over, the strap slips down to my chest or ankles. And running? Forget about it.

 

[ali.di.magix]

Not me thinking the worst and thinking about the quitting my job and going elsewhere and disappearing into nothingness and then getting an invitation to a development training course that only 15 people out of the 500+ people were chosen for

Why do I overreact so badly sometimes lmao

 

[pochy]

i am so embarrassing sometimes i just repress the memory lol. also i noticed i have the longest hours out of everyone at work. also i have period pains. also i have a big exam next week that i have yet to study for. also i got four hours of sleep. also totk is releasing the weekend before my test so i will have to shield myself from spoilers

 

[-Raven-]

Nothing is going right and I’m still disassociating 24/7. The only person I can have a conversation with without feeling like I have to explain every little thing is my psychologist. It isn’t because of other people a lot of the time. I’m just too difficult. It feels like life is designed against me. Also love problems. Also ill. And my room gets cold as hell and nobody helped to fix it. I sleep like 5 hours a day. I just feel so alone on the things I’m doing I don’t want to bother. ): every little thing is like why bother when i feel so disconnected from everyone and maybe just everything in general. Hell disassociating really isn’t even *feeling* all my feeling is gone and without someone having that experience it is laborious to explain and thats like the most overwhelming thing in my life now so people dont even get the main thing. With everything that happened tbh i didnt even want to visit the forum so everythings wrong.

 

[moonbyu]

i have a terrible rash for some reason and it's so ITCHY. it makes me just wanna bash my arm on a counter.