i'm way too burnt out. my life has been a rollercoaster this past year. missed job opportunities, health issues, substance abuse, therapy, meetings, sponsors, grad school. i've done so much to try to get my life back on track and it still feels like an uphill battle. every day is exhausting. i know it won't be like this forever, but still. i'm overloading myself on grad school classes so i can finish in the spring and start looking for professional work, but the itch to go back to my old ways is ever there. i need a break.