What's Bothering You?

anxiety and chai tea lattes apparently don’t mix well together… i’m lactose intolerant and i feel like i’ve been punched in the stomach :,)
 
I already lost a family member just a few weeks ago, and I just found out that my aunt (my grandpa's last living sibling) has passed away too.

and now I'm worried about another relative down in MS who has a pretty late stage cancer, wondering how much longer she has.

it's just a lot to take in all at once 😞
 
My mom got sick last night at the physio rehab place she's staying at. She woke up unable to see so my dad rushed over there to be with her. I'm afraid she's gonna have another stroke and not be able to bounce back. She already couldn't walk or barely talk so it's not fair that her vision may be gone too. My partner and I wanted to go mini golfing for our anniversary but instead we're just gonna have a nice dinner at home.
 
I feel like I’m a nuisance to my flatmates. Like everything I do is wrong? Put out the rubbish and get the response “I wasn’t finished putting my stuff in and now I have to untie the bag”. Do the dishes and get “you didn’t clean them properly” my flatmates leave them in piles for days and I get so irritated that I have to do them and having a mess around me literally prevents me from cooking. Do everything I’m asked to do and no thank you…like what. Does my flatmate have unrealistic expectations or do I just suck? Not to mention that my four flatmates are friends and always come to the conclusion that it’s my fault 😐 sometimes it genuinely is, but I’m not a mind reader so idk what to expect sometimes. I’m just an outcast in this house and I hate it. If the rent wasn’t so cheap and I could find somewhere else I probably wouldn’t be here.
 
The left side of my mouth has hurt for the past several days, and I'm not sure why. I already had my wisdom teeth removed with surgery years ago. I hope this pain goes away soon. 😞
 
I hate how Twitter needs you to be logged in now. People are going to keep linking it and I can’t view it at all. (I think there might be alternate links for now, but they obviously want to get rid of that)

Also, the last Discord update is broken on iOS. Really laggy, pasting doesn’t work with how the keyboard falls off now, and voice memos flat out don’t work
 
I’m just filled with all kinds of emotions right now. My favorite person is going on vacation for two weeks soon. She doesn’t even want to go but one of her roommates bought her ticket. I know I’ll be okay. We can still text when she’s gone.
 
Our cat Wookie escaped again. I thought it was my fault since I probably left the door open while taking our dog out, but it was my dad instead. I still feel pretty upset though, I hope our cat comes back soon...
 
I was doing yard work outside but had to stop 'cause my period cramps got super painful. I also got blisters on my hands and the one on my right hand bursted. I'll be fine afterwards and I'm glad to take a small break after working outside for 2+ hours, but I am not feeling the best right now physically.
 
my poor kitty has mats all through her fur, and I feel guilty bc I suppose I could've possibly prevented it but idk, she's never had this issue before. we tried to shave them out this evening but it's too difficult, we could only get a few, so I'll have to call the vet on Wednesday to see what they recommend. I would call tomorrow but it's a federal holiday, so unfortunately we have to wait. 😔

also I'll be relieved when I can finally talk to my psychiatrist, this medication my primary care doctor gave me is a good bandaid but obviously it's not actually solving the problem at hand. I can still feel that anxiety looming under the effects of the medication. I'm hangin in there though, might try to do some stuff this evening to take my mind off of it.
 
My stomach is cramping a little and I have no idea why. I'm not anywhere near that time of month. I did recently eat a good bit of food. That's probably it.
 
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