What's Bothering You?

I hate that my friends just decided to completely ignore me except for one. Nobody talks unless I reach out, and half the time they donā€™t respond or I get left on read. I hate feeling so isolated, and I donā€™t even know what I did wrong. I know itā€™s hard because we donā€™t see each other every day and havenā€™t met up all summer, but there was always at least one person on vacation till 4th of July! How is this fair?
 
unfortunately I think a lot of the issues I deal with stem from one simple fact: I'm autistic lol šŸ˜…


don't get me wrong, I love who I am and I wouldn't change it for anything, but being neurodivergent really does just completely change the playing field and make everything so much more difficult and complicated. honestly sucks.
 
Itā€™s raining on and off, and thereā€™s a thunderstorm coming. Iā€™m stuck outside for the next two hours and itā€™s ****ing cold. I want it to stop. I hate rain, wet, and cold. Everything is closed, too, except for Panera Breadā€¦ and there was a hair in my food I got from them last night. Not going there.
 
It seems I am greatly sunburnt and you can see the exact shape of the tank top I was wearing. I think my lips are burnt
 
I only got one day off this week, which is today. I'm so wiped out that I can't even be bothered to do my chores.
 
me: "I think I'm starting to get a migraine bc I've been blasting music through my earbuds for like an hour now and I have sensory issues"

also me: *continues to blast music and give myself an even bigger headache like the absolute fool I am* but damn this music is good skjdfks
 
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I hate trying new food at places and not liking it. I wish I knew so I didnā€™t get it in the first place. I wish you could try before you buy with foods.
 
someone else poor behaviour towards my friend has really hurt me, a third party, and caused a huge problem for me. I'm hurt and angry because they were very aware that they risked having a serious impact on somebody outside the situation, but were so caught up in defending themselves from the consequences of their OTHER bad actions against my friend that they just didn't care.
And Ive now lost a whole chunk of paycheck. damn.
 
My dad gets so angry and screams at cars not using turn signals, gets mad at video games and screams at video games, even sometimes most of the time using racial slurs and has done this for many, many years. Even on game shows heā€™ll root against someone for their color. I grew up listening to it. Heā€™s just radiating with bad energy and I just want to be surrounded with positive vibes. I feel bad because I think thereā€™s something wrong with me because I donā€™t get that angry. I waited 30 minutes at Taco Bell without asking where my drink was because they forgot to give me a slushie. My dad was the one who yelled at me and told me to ask for the slushie. I was trying to be patient and he told me they forgot. It makes me feel stupid because I feel like I wouldā€™ve been there all day if I hadnā€™t asked. But I wasnā€™t mad at all even though I shouldā€™ve been. I lose a few games on Mario Kart 8 Deluxe and I donā€™t get angry and quit after my first loss. I donā€™t change my name to something like ā€œMichaelsucksā€ and join back to troll them. Thatā€™s just an example. I feel weird not having the type of anger issues I grew up seeing.
 
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