Last night it hurt to breathe, I gotta go back to the doctor. Feel like I get sicker. I also have a huge personal issue discouraging me from drawing at all which is making me more sick/worse in general
I have to close on Wednesday with a chauvinistic manager. Rolling his eyes at every female, even the store owners and treating them like they are stupid. I’m non-binary (AFAB) but he treats me like any female. He asked me if I knew what a freezer was after asking me to put something in there. This is too much stress. I’m daylight and nobody asked me if I would be okay with a close.
if you'd like to chat for a bit on discord I have time, I don't have to leave for about an hour and a half
I wish I could figure out why my anxiety ramps up so much. it even does so over the dumbest things, like me waiting to leave for work. I'm not even nearly ready to leave yet lol. also irks me when people tell me to get over it or get it under control, perhaps consider that if I could control my anxiety I probably wouldn't deal with it at all
in case anyone's wondering, though, I'm okay. I'm pretty much used to it at this point, I'm being gentle with myself and just taking it a step at a time
The fact that I missed out on several TBT events (Except for the Easter Egg Hunts) ever since 2021. It's starting to make me feel like a hermit to these types of things because I don't want to go through the stress of doing each requirement to get the collectibles that almost everyone has, not to mention I'm lazy.
I don't know, somehow I feel like that one 1k+ TBT member that everyone overlooks...
I've been applying for jobs recently, and I got a call from the HR of one of them while I was away from my phone cooking lunch. He asked me to call him back, and I have, like 6 times over the last 5 or so hours He hasn't answered any of them, and I feel like this is gonna absolutely cause me to lose this one.
I'm so sick of summer. I think I'm going to have to stick my head in the freezer because this is too much. The worst part is I didn't even go outside. I don't like living here.
I like how when you buy something in the switch eShop it takes you off of the page you were on, even if you select “continue shopping”. Pretty great because there’s also no shopping cart feature to let you buy multiple things at once.
I rather not go into specific detail, but have you ever felt the need to talk to someone about something, but were kinda afraid to for whatever reason? Like something causes awkwardness...but you don't know how or when to talk about it, cuz it may not go over well.
And it's like, some things are better to just talk about to prevent worse situations from happening... ._.
It's that time of year again. The time when every single spider decides to invade my personal space even though this is a fairly large sitting room and they can go anywhere. I've seen at least one every day so far, nearly always a different one, and no matter how clean the house is, they keep finding their way in.
Just the other day I was at my computer desk, saw a shadow to my left and suddenly one of the largest spiders in the UK - a Giant House Spider - crawls up the table leg onto my (small) table and calmly walks across my working area. For something that's supposed to be scared of humans, they sure do like ignoring my movements and crawling on or near me.
They're outside now along with most of the spiders I encounter, but dang, I wish I knew where they were coming from. I'm very easily startled when I'm concentrating and seeing something quickly make their way over to my keyboard is not something I need when I'm working.
Just annoyed at one of my online friends right now. I'm trying to not get mad 'cause they're pretty young ("first year in middle school" kind of young) and not very mature, but... Ugh. This is why I prefer having friends closer to my age.
Bad news keep piling up around me those last few weeks and it's taking a toll on my mood. Doesn't help that I'm sick and my doctor doesn't come back before September. It's like the universe's sad shaker's lid fell off and it spilled all over my relatives instead of being sprinkled like salt and pepper.
I wonder if my mental health is actually a little unstable?
I worry about something, I calm down, I start worrying about something else I forgot earlier. I don't know how to make it stop. The worst part is trying to do things in the house around actual people while I'm having anxiety over things they can't even imagine which I'd rather not have to tell them. That's not happening right now but it's just something that happens often.
I just want to enjoy my last few days of vacation before school starts but something is always happening. On Tuesday I had to go to the mall for five hours, on Thursday I helped my sister unpack for college, yesterday I went to the mall again for three hours, today I have to wait like three more hours just for a haircut, tomorrow I have a band performance, and the day after that is the last day before school starts.
I've been struggling to find the right time and energy to call my family (difference in work schedules and mental health things). This afternoon I finally had the opportunity and energy to do so, then when I call I'm just berated that it took me so long to call them
Welp, it’s all over. Camp TBT 2023 has finished. It’s time for me to go back into the darkness (or at least not use this site as much). But first, let me sell some collectibles and share the updated dream island before I can go back into the internet’s shadow. I had fun on this site over the last two months.
I’ll at least stay on this site for as long as it lives, but I won’t be as active until the next event comes.