not really a big bother, but it is still bothering me. I've broken down sobbing so many times today. I cried for about an hour, off and on, before I left for work earlier. and then I've cried again multiple times this evening. I think I'm just so stressed and overwhelmed, I need decompression time and I haven't been able to get that much at all. I have a feeling I'll be sobbing off and on again tomorrow.
it kinda sucks bc I've been somewhat neglecting my friendships because I've been so busy and overwhelmed, but I've been feeling lonely lately. I feel lonely right now. it's an awful feeling. it's hard to enjoy my own company when I'm feeling this stressed and anxious. and more often than not, lately when I talk to people they seem to be disinterested with listening to me and offering support. not referring to anyone here, but I've noticed it a lot lately.
also, perhaps a bit related, I've been feeling some heartache lately
edit: I just realized that this is probably all happening because I'm out of my anxiety med. I have been for two weeks, because long story short, the insurance company has it completely ****ed up and they're trying to charge me almost 6x more for it than they did previously. they're making this whole process so grueling and difficult for no reason. I just need my anxiety med, I feel like I'm gonna go insane honestly.