What's Bothering You?

[xSuperMario64x]

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no but why did I randomly just start dissociating at work

thought I was feeling okay earlier, but now I feel like I'm not existing in this body, and I feel like I'm not sure what time period I'm living in. everything feels weird and foreign to me, it doesn't seem real. I also feel really cold and uncomfortable and tired. even reading back this text feels confusing to me, like I'm dealing with brain fog.

I think being at home is what caused it; I previously identified dissociation as a defense mechanism to eacape from the stress and occasional agony I feel at home. it just happened that I spent abt 20 minutes cooking in our kitchen, and if I stay anywhere outside my room for more than about 5 minutes my depression and stress level become unbearable. I shouldn't feel that way in the place I call home but hey, what can ya do.

but I'm at work and this has been going on for a few hours now, and I've tried to do grounding stuff but nothing has helped yet. and I forgot my earbuds today so I can't listen to music (not sure if that would even help). I'm not sure what to do.

I guess I'll just keep doing my work and try to hang in there until I can lie down.

 

[digimon]

it's not exactly bothering me, but i'm just super bummed that i ended up having to return the stroller i got for my cats. it was super duper cute but it wasn't big enough to fit both of them at the same time i kept it a bit longer than needed because i kept telling myself i'd just walk with them one at a time, but i can't bear the thought of leaving one of them behind. gonna maybe look into purchasing one that's bigger off of amazon or something

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I cut my fingertip when I pressed too hard on a string. It started bleeding and I had to bandage it. How the hell did that even happen?

I would've responded to this earlier but I was kinda having a problem but I can respond now. that's because you have to build up callouses on your fingertips. I don't play guitar frequently anymore, but when I was a teen I did, and I actually played guitar and mandolin so much that I did have callouses built up. once you get to that point it's pretty much smooth sailing as long as you keep playing consistently.

 

[-Raven-]

Nothin serious at all but a few days ago it was nice and sunny and would have been good weather for my earth week photos, but I forgot then… I’ve been waiting the last two days to get it and it’s so much more overcast

 

[spawnpoint]

nvm!!

 

[-Raven-]

the website is glitching out so badly for me on my phone its really really frustrating me i don't know how to fix it or why it started doing this!!!

It wouldn’t load at all two days ago or so, so there were definitely issues with it before, though I doubt it’s related. Are you able to clear your phone’s browser cache if it’s just on there?

 

[spawnpoint]

edit: nvm fixed

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

I feel upset right now but I don't know why. It's a weird feeling; My throat is tight and I want to cry, but I can't recall anything that would make me sad or emotional. I was fine-ish literally a few minutes ago, so I don't know what's going on. This happened a couple of times during the past few days, but I just brushed it off.

Aside from that, I'm not super happy about the cut on my fingertip and I just want it to heal so I can get back to playing guitar. I'm also super tired and don't feel motivated to do anything. I just wanna lay in bed and watch YouTube videos, but I got stuff to do. :\

 

[-Apples-]

I’m feeling overstimulated right now. I’m still not used to crowds.

 

[Clock]

I hate the fact that I spent a lot of time on a big paper and it still looks bad, it doesnt help that the due date is today and i have a planned exam for the next day.
Is this what mental block looks like?

 

[nightglow]

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[-Mars-]

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Spoiler

I don't really know what to say to you because what I would like to say is directed at your classmates who made those inappropriate comments(and not you)

I agree with ZeldaCrossing64 please tell a trusted adult such as a parent or teacher about this. What your classmates said was not okay in the slightest. You guys were suppose to be writing a awareness project about sexual violence and trying to erase stigma surrounding it, the things the girls said does the exact opposite, it further stigmatizes sexual violence, men can be victims of sexual violence and women can be perpetrators of sexual violence, men are not the only ones who cause it and women are not the only victims of it.

Sexual violence is always horrible and disgusting no matter what. It can be extremely difficult and traumatizing for victims to talk about their experiences and the stigma surrounding the subject makes it so male victims feel like it is not safe or okay for them to talk about what happened or get help when they deserve love and support just like all other victims.

It is not okay to generalize or classify people based on things such as race, nationality, ethnicity, biological sex, gender identity, sexuality, religion, disability etc. etc. We should judge people based on their actions and how they affect others not who they are labeled as, anyone has the potential to be a good or bad person regardless of what group they are part of it is how you treat others and your moral beliefs that matters. Men should not be held accountable for sexual violence, only perpetrators should, men do not think sexual violence is okay, only perpetrators and supporters of sexual violence believe that.

I am extremely sorry this happened to you, I think you handled the situation very maturely and I'm very glad you are speaking up about this and I think you need to tell a trusted adult about what happened. You worked very hard on the project and you did a good job with your classmates, I'm really sorry this made you very upset and uncomfortable you deserve to be treated better Mr_Keroppi

 

[jiny]

i hate having a crush so bad lol

 

[Zerous]

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[SkyKnight03]

Upcoming birthday giving me a nighttime existential crisis. Granted it's not till a couple months away.

I'm not seeing my family this summer, so I don't have much to look forward to. It made me kinda melancholy.

 

[-Raven-]

I still feel bad about the other night with the bestie, we’re getting along again but I tried playing our game again and got really sad. It was such a stupid mistake and he never asked how I was the next day. It bothers me when I can’t talk things out with people and while undoubtedly he is my best friend this has always been a bad spot between us.

Also, I have to be non-specific about this here, but I saw something on another website that bothers me immensely. It actually hits way too close to home. I want to talk with someone about it but I also want to keep it buried. I suppose it’s YET ANOTHER thing on my endless list of subjects for my psychologist. It is that bad.

 

[Zane]

on top of being painful being sick is also just super annoying and inconvenient. everything you were planning to do for the next 4 or 5 days? forget about it. oh are you gonna miss the last day to be able to do something? too bad.

 

[moonbyu]

Spoiler: hmmm

i wanna talk to my friends but i've been so busy and so anxious about how they will react to me contacting them out of the blue. i've spent more time thinking about how to talk to them then actually doing it. it's kinda upsetting and embarrassing.

 

[Croconaw]

I sometimes find myself at my former job only because my dad works there as a manager and I stop after (my) work occasionally. I know why I left, but almost every time I stop in, it gets even clearer that transferring was the right decision.

Someone I used to consider myself friends with was likely only using me to get things. One of them also said they missed having me around because they no longer have someone to bully.

I had two jobs at the time I worked there — I actually transferred to my other job full time. I’d frequently come into my second job stressed out after working at the first job. A few employees at the second job would ask me if I was alright out of genuine concern. I felt appreciated in that environment. The whole vibe is entirely different.

After officially transferring, it’s like everyone knew it was coming because I’ve heard “it’s about time” or “what took so long?” from more than one person. It was obviously a playful tone and nothing serious.

I think it finally clicked when I accidentally got dressed for the wrong job, and I spent the entire day not in the best of moods, as a result.

But yeah, someone at my former job today saw me with food and asked why I didn’t get them anything. Maybe it’s because we aren’t friends and we never were?

 

[Dunquixote]

This is minor. Just a little anxious after posting stuff that made me happy. I know I’m probably fine, but I always replay things in my head or rethink about stuff I post and I can’t help worrying I was annoying or something I wrote was weird and not normal. When I get excited or “fangirl”, I can act pretty silly . Also I repeat myself a lot, which annoys some people (or least it annoys my friend). sometime it is to make a point, other times I forget i already said it.

Also can’t seem to wake up even though I should be awake and not tired now.