What's Bothering You?

I was so excited to have a nice day off tomorrow but then I was asked to come in to work and I said yes cos my broke ass can't say no to public holiday rates

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I must say to begin with that, I have a huge respect for the NHS.

I was nervous enough about my appointment today as it was with someone I have never seen before in a clinic. She came out into the waiting room and called my name. When I went into the room, I was glad to see my physio was there. She is present at every few appointments to take measurements to see how my condition is progressing. The nurse that was leading the appointment was like no other I have ever met. Very arrogant and felt as if she was ignoring me. I don’t even think she was a Rheumatology Nurse, as she never even looked at my joints. She asked me which medications I take, so I gave her a copy of my repeat prescription, as I am hopeless at remembering all of the names. She kept asking me ‘How much do you take of this?’, ‘How much do you take of that?’. I felt as if she was trying to trick me! All the information is on the prescription. How am I meant to remember how many mg of each medication I take? I could tell her, for example, 2 tablets twice daily, etc. I appreciate they are busy, but there is no need to treat their patients as if they are a burden. I also felt as if she didn’t believe me. I’ve experienced this before, but when tests came back positive, they have changed their tune. I was desperate to get out of the room as she made me feel as if I was faking my symptoms, even though she didn’t look at past notes when I was present or my joints! Tried to explain about swelling but was instantly dismissed. The physio was lovely as always and always has time to try and help. Honestly, if I get another appointment with that Nurse, I’m requesting to attend someone else, as I would stress myself out thinking about having to go to her again. I genuinely worry for the healthcare of patients if she’s in a consultation with any vulnerable patients.

Also, my Doctor's Surgery haven't sent through my medications.
 
I can’t get myself to wake up; probably something to do with my depression. My depression is pretty bad right now too. Last night I took an anti-depressant and it made me crash. Woke up once at 4 am before going back to sleep. didn’t wake up in time to feed my cats; fortunately my parents fed them since I live with them. yesterday was a huge waste since i feel like i slept through the whole day

I’d hate to take anti-depressant again especially this early. I don’t want to sleep more but i have zero energy to play a game right now.

I’m a little worried that I’ve been annoying too.
 
I can’t get myself to wake up; probably something to do with my depression. My depression is pretty bad right now too. Last night I took an anti-depressant and it made me crash. Woke up once at 4 am before going back to sleep. didn’t wake up in time to feed my cats; fortunately my parents fed them since I live with them. yesterday was a huge waste since i feel like i slept through the whole day

I’d hate to take anti-depressant again especially this early. I don’t want to sleep more but i have zero energy to play a game right now.

I’m a little worried that I’ve been annoying too.
I always thought antidepressants were taken regularly? Because I know they can be unpleasant before your body gets the chance to adjust.
 
A spider just decided to mosey on up to me while i was eating… this isn’t for you you nasty *****!
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(I don’t actually hate spiders that much but. Not something i want to see while eating).

Edit: i killed it because it came running back at me. If this were outside, I wouldn’t have, but this is my house. Go to the basement where there are plenty of bugs to take care of.
 
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No hot water today, the boiler broke less than a year after we bought it. We will get a new one tomorrow but the guy sent by the company to replace it, hurt his back and wants us to move it ourselves, well he asked my sister in law, who is not a bodybuilder, to move it by herself, what kind of company is that?
 
I've had a headache everyday for a few days now. Not sure why. It's not sharp or altering my daily life so I'm not too worried. It's still annoying.

Also, I have so much I want to do but can't seem motivated to do any of it. I need to study, work out, I'd love to play some games I bought months ago, I have new hobbies and books to try, etc. I don't feel depressed or sad. Just apathy...? I guess that's the word. Not sure how to break the cycle.
 
I pulled an all-nighter last night (today?) and I actually kinda regret it 'cause I was SO tired and irritable (and still am). Also just didn't have a good day and I'm stressing about school, again. I was gonna go relax, but I just remembered that I have a ton of schoolwork that I've been putting off for long enough. I'm kinda rambling now but I'm just not feeling good. I'm tired, angry, defeated, whatever.
 
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