What's Bothering You?

[ali.di.magix]

update on this. saw the doctor yesterday, and after talking about my symptoms, we were able to the come to the conclusion that this is pretty much entirely muscular. I have tension in my shoulders that has built up for... probably years at this point. the doctor said that the muscles in my shoulders feel super tight, and they honestly have for quite a long time now. that's probably why I feel tense so often, it's because my muscles are literally tense and painful to the touch. it's understandable that falling would cause so much strain in my neck muscles and cause headaches and migraines for me.

and the thing is, I've known about this. my muscles have been tense for as long as I can remember. I did research months ago on local massage therapists, and they were all too expensive for me to afford. half an hour is generally $55-65, and an hour is easily $110+. when I talked to my mum about it yesterday she thought it was $20 for a half hour. if that was the case I would've had this done a long time ago!

I did set up an intake session with a local chiropractor, just because it wouldn't hurt to get my spine realigned and all that, but really what I need is a deep tissue massage. I just don't know where to go where they won't charge me $60 for a half hour session, I probably need to go once a week and I certainly cannot afford that.

but I really, really need this. I have now woken up with a headache every day for the last two weeks. last night I went to bed early because my headache turned into a migraine again. I can't keep doing this and feeling miserable every single day.

A bit of a late reply, but I understand how you feel with muscle tension I’ve been struggling with tension for years, probably due to stress and anxiety. If it’s cheaper or you have a bath at home, going to a spa or using epsom salts does wonders. I’m not sure if you’re sensory adverse to heat/wet, but I loooove a hot pool. Otherwise for small areas, a wheat bag works really well too. If you have tension in your shoulders, doing exercises also helps as well. Just thought I’d put out a few options that might help and might be cheaper for you

 

[Dunquixote]

Edit: Dealing with a little depression and intrusive thoughts now.

 

[Croconaw]

I gave my emergency funds to my dad for the apartment search. I was unfairly fired from my job and haven’t been getting good hours at all since then. My paychecks have been less than $50 each week because of it. I have to come up with $300 in 7 days for something dental related that I’d rather not reschedule.

Why can’t life be simpler? Why is money the thing I’m stressing about instead of the actual procedure? It looks like I’ll just have to say **** the appointment, or ask to borrow money. No, it’s not covered by insurance either.

I hate my old manager, and how hard it is to find a job that gives reasonable hours. This is making me hate America.

 

[SkyKnight03]

I had a panic attack .-.

at 4 in the morning.

 

[-Raven-]

PTSD-type night

 

[nightglow]

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[Dunquixote]

Not doing good today; I am sure I’ll be better once I take my medicine. Right now, I’m having trouble getting myself to get up and do that and eat. A lot is bothering me now; some recent and other just stuff that has been building up. I’m starting to feel out of place again and am worrying that I’m annoying. I still miss my best friend; at the same time thoughts about him make me upset. I’m really sad and just feeling hopeless.

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

Spoiler: Good riddance.

I'm a little bothered about something. I kind of think it's minor, but I need to talk about it.

My brother was talking to one of his friends on the phone while we were cleaning the kitchen. He acts differently around his friends, and I can tell. I had to stand there for nearly an hour washing dishes and hearing him talk **** about our school teachers. Not to mention that he talks loudly and I already have a headache. It honestly sounds like nothing now that I type it out, but I was pretty damn annoyed. I just don't like hearing that kind of negativity. Despite me telling him to tone it down, he just ignores me. Meh, at least he didn't give me the usual, "Shut the **** up, [expletive]"...

I had to step outside for a bit because I was getting sick of hearing my brother talk. I feel like I shouldn't be upset, because I'm expecting people to act like this in the real world. What am I gonna do, tell everyone to shut up? The way I see it, I should just suck it up and stop complaining. I don't know, man.

Vaguely related: After hearing my brother talk about our teachers and school, I couldn't stop thinking about my own school experiences, and it just put me in a worse mood. I know I only graduated last month, but I'd rather not dwell on that part of my life; It's too painful.

 

[Asteroid]

Lonely and depressed as heck. I miss some people right now, and I really need some company.

 

[Beanz]

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[spawnpoint]

i really be feeling like an afterthought sometimes

 

[Xara]

tapering off an SSRI during this awful humid weather is actually evil. i love having no energy, not being able to think and feeling sick.

 

[spawnpoint]

what do they have that i don't have

 

[Giddy]

Have to go to UC tomorrow in person because they couldn't verify my identity when I was applying for it
To verify they wanted two out of three options: passport, car licence or credit card. I only had one.

Literally annoyed about all this. Omg.
Hopefully those jobs I applied for will lead to something

 

[Croconaw]

I can't tell if my job that's only scheduling me for half hour and one hour shifts actually wants me there. I feel like they're trying to make me quit so I can't file for unemployment. I can't tell if this is just in my head or if this is true. I suppose I should be grateful I'm even getting shifts, considering some people are having trouble even finding a job. It makes me feel like my anger is unjustified and that I should be grateful for what I have: Two hour work weeks, if that.

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

The grocery store's distributor isn't sending the bacon pea salad anymore. I have to resort to the deviled egg macaroni salad.

 

[ribbitribbon]

someone premade a commission for me on etsy before i paid and now i can’t pay for it, i contacted support and they said it was an issue on the seller’s end but i’m just worried i seem like some scammer messaging them about it over and over again…. aghghghghgggggghhhh

 

[Dim]

Workibg in nearly 100 degree weather suuuuuucks ugh

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

Spoiler: Discord stuff

Last night I went onto Discord and saw that one of the servers I'm in was completely wiped. Literally no channels or bots, and most of the emojis and roles were removed. Even a good chunk of members were kicked. I realized that there was an audit log, so I was able to see who did all this. I think it was my friend's (the server owner) boyfriend, and... I kinda saw it coming. Their relationship was rocky, and I wouldn't be surprised if he went out of his way to sabotage something.

I haven't gotten any confirmation from anyone about what happened, so I'm left to speculate until then. Assuming my theory is right... Why would you go out of your way to wipe out everything in the server? Wouldn't it be simpler and more mature to just leave instead of ensuing chaos? :| I'm just a mod though, so I'll have to wait for my friend to see what happened and do something with the server.

I guess I'm pretty upset (moreso annoyed) about the whole thing. I've been in that server for almost a year and had a lot of fun. To think that all my messages/emojis/etc. are just gone... I mean, not a big deal in the grand scheme of things, but still.

 

[ShadowLelouch97]

I can't tell if my job that's only scheduling me for half hour and one hour shifts actually wants me there. I feel like they're trying to make me quit so I can't file for unemployment. I can't tell if this is just in my head or if this is true. I suppose I should be grateful I'm even getting shifts, considering some people are having trouble even finding a job. It makes me feel like my anger is unjustified and that I should be grateful for what I have: Two hour work weeks, if that.

My old job sought to make my work experience there a nightmare in my last 3 months, trying to force me to quit so they wouldn't have to pay for unemployment. I don't know if it's gonna be a similar case to your job, but hang in there bud. Just don't quit fighting. You won't regret it.