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“Assorted” Collector
2020
I agree that it had a rough start. If 2016 and 2017 aren’t bad enough, then this year is the big deal.
2020
Lots of people have stopped talking to me and it makes me wonder why I'm even here anymore. Just wanna disappear
Just not playing pokemon as much.Lots of people have stopped talking to me and it makes me wonder why I'm even here anymore. Just wanna disappear
Literally me as well.Lots of people have stopped talking to me and it makes me wonder why I'm even here anymore. Just wanna disappear
I'm so sorry that that's happening and I really hope that you feel better soon, I'm gonna pray for you just know your friends on the forum are here for youim not in a good place. i hate mental illness so, so so so much. i can never get a handle on it. the meds never work. therapy never works. why does nothing ever ****ing work. i’m doing what i’m supposed to. i’m doing what everybody says to. and it doesn’t help. it doesnt go away. it’ll never go away and i’m so so so tired. i just wanna go. i don’t wanna do this anymore. i’ll never stop feeling like this and i just can’t. what is the point? why am i here? what the hell does it matter. this world is so, so ugly and i feel so trapped in a body and a life that i don’t want and that i didn’t ask for. i don’t feel real at all and i just wanna go. if i wasn’t such a coward, i would’ve gone years ago and i’m so mad that i didn’t. it gets worse every year and i don’t think i wanna be here much longer. i have people expecting things of me and i just dont care. who gives a **** if i don’t graduate from high school if i don’t plan on making it to 20. my grandmother always harps at me about not taking care of myself and how my organs might shut down like bro i’m literally ****ing begging. i am begging for them to shut down and just take me out. the thought of having to live any longer is starting to terrify me more than dying does.
This again, except it was on my parents' TV. The world isn't fine and I don't think it ever was.I feel a bit depressed now. This is why I shouldn't look up current events...
I'm so sorry that that's happening and I really hope that you feel better soon, I'm gonna pray for you just know your friends on the forum are here for you
Hey there, just came to say that I've been in that exact headspace before (and kinda still am from time to time). Like I literally thought I would that I would be gone by the time I was 18. I would've never thought I would make it to 22 almost 23. I think one thing I've learnt from battling with mental health issues is that its a roller coaster full of ups and downs. Some days are worse than others, but knowing that there's still a clear blue sky out there is somewhat comforting to me. I hope you start feeling better soonim not in a good place. i hate mental illness so, so so so much. i can never get a handle on it. the meds never work. therapy never works. why does nothing ever ****ing work. i’m doing what i’m supposed to. i’m doing what everybody says to. and it doesn’t help. it doesnt go away. it’ll never go away and i’m so so so tired. i just wanna go. i don’t wanna do this anymore. i’ll never stop feeling like this and i just can’t. what is the point? why am i here? what the hell does it matter. this world is so, so ugly and i feel so trapped in a body and a life that i don’t want and that i didn’t ask for. i don’t feel real at all and i just wanna go. if i wasn’t such a coward, i would’ve gone years ago and i’m so mad that i didn’t. it gets worse every year and i don’t think i wanna be here much longer. i have people expecting things of me and i just dont care. who gives a **** if i don’t graduate from high school if i don’t plan on making it to 20. my grandmother always harps at me about not taking care of myself and how my organs might shut down like bro i’m literally ****ing begging. i am begging for them to shut down and just take me out. the thought of having to live any longer is starting to terrify me more than dying does.
Hayfever
It's one of the reasons why I hate this time of year, particularly around June is where I suffer with it the most. Last year was the worst for me because it interfered a lot with my skin where the back of my hand was extremely itchy and dry, I tried out all sorts of creams in hopes of some relief but nothing seemed to work. I've never suffered with my skin before, so it was very unlike me. Some nights I would wake up trying to fight the urge to scratch, and often I would just have to in order to ease the itching. It got to a point where my skin was red raw and intensely sore from the scratching that I had to wrap my hand in bandages to prevent it catching on surfaces and bed sheets. I would try not to go out apart from when I went to work and go food shopping, it essentially restricted my summer. It was like having a bad form of eczema. Hand turned completely fine 2 months later. I never hope to experience anything like that again.
Did you ever try EMLA or Ametop? They are numbing creams that can be bought over the counter (at Boots, Gordons, etc) that are to be kept refrigerated. They're heaven sent.