What's Bothering You?

My dog is 15 and ofc I love him dearly. I work in vetmed so ofc he's checked annually and is on all the good preventatives and what not. Lately he's had a hacking sort of cough occasionally. It started when the temperature outside dropped. I'm hoping it's just a new reaction to the cool weather due to his age. It can't be heartworms or kennel cough.

My anxiety is telling me it could be heart disease. One of the doctors I work for said everything looked great for his age earlier this year. I'm going to ask their thoughts this week at work and see if he needs another exam just to be sure.

I don't want to lose my boy. I know it's inevitable but dang it I want him around as long as possible.

Worst case scenario, if it is heart disease, I can give him medicine. He's such a good boy that he's always taken any medicine without fights.

I just want the best for him.
 
I hate to group categorize one whole group as *******s, but my grandma is starting to make me think that all republicans, are indeed, *******s. She was shouting **** all morning about how gay people are stupid and can’t think for themselves. She was saying a lot worse things I can’t repeat here.

I’m not sure why I try to give some people the benefit of the doubt. I thought that maybe there are good republicans and that maybe there are good cops? I’m tired of defending people that don’t deserve it. I’m tired of being viewed as one of the *******s because I keep defending *******s.

I used to defend the “all cops are bad” and say that “you can’t group a whole bunch of people together” but all cops are republicans.
 
Last edited:
my replacement bag came, but the window section is lopsided and off-center, and the window itself is visibly narrower than my first bag's. (and also has the borders reversed.) i know ordering where i did is a crapshoot with this sort of thing but damn. still sucks. i'm getting a refund but idk yet if i should try reordering another one or just stick with my first bag.
 
I’ve been really poorly the past few days. Swollen lymph node on one side and feel like there is a lump in my throat. It’s made swallowing incredibly difficult and yesterday I threw up blood. Annoyed because I went to the doctors and they said there’s nothing they can do. I’m feeling a bit better today but swallowing is still hard because of the pain. Hoping it’s completely gone by Monday as I have an interview 🥲
 
feeling really nervous about my relationship with my girlfriend rn >_<

was talking abt her ex (who is also my ex, long story i dont feel like gettingr into atm), and how they connected a lot through sharing photos, talking on discord, heartfelt moments, etc.

and im prolly not gonna be able to do stuff liek that with her because 1. i do NOT feel comflrtable sharing photos of myself online, 2. i hate my voice so much, its way too deep and i have yet to start voice training so its more feminine, and 3. idk how to do that

i know its silly of me and prolly wont happen (esp since she’s stated she wont and prolly cant go back 2 her ex) but im scared shes gonna break up with meeeeeeeee *~*
 
I hate that my television is starting to go bad. There are little white spots starting to appear and I believe that is the backlight for the LED that is going bad. It is a 7 year old television which I guess means thats a good thing that it has lasted as long as it has... I just wish it started showing signs of aging sooner so I could have gotten better deals on a TV.
 
I joined a friend server a few weeks ago, and two people on it keep interacting with me even though I blocked both months ago. One was ableist towards me over DM, made things up, and accused me of them to justify not vibing with me. All I wanted to be was friends with. When I called him out for being a jerk, he said it was on me if I had a problem with him and that I couldn't DM him again.

The other person invalidated my opinion on every subject and used moderator commands to try to ban my friend, even though they had no authority to do something like that. I feel like they're not respecting the boundaries I put up with them by interacting with me and are acting like nothing happened. It makes me very uncomfortable.

I've decided not to respond to them when they interact with me. If someone from the server DMs me why I'm not engaging with those two, I will be 100% honest. I will not name call, but I will list the full extent of what they did to me and someone I consider a friend.

I wish I could pass this up as petty internet drama, but I've met all these people in real life several times. Both people I've blocked were fake and unfriendly when I ran into them. They were the same in person as they were online. The stakes feel higher since these are more than just random people I met on a Discord server. They saw me face to face and still acted immature even though they were both in their 20s.
 
I feel mentally overwhelmed by the next few days. I'm anticipating everything that is going to happen instead of enjoying today as a calm day. I also feel anxious because my friends are busy but my thoughts are distorted and I keep thinking they just hate me and I'm annoying as heck. I know it isn't the truth but the feeling lingers.
 
I’m not doing great today. I’m just feeling really tired in so many ways. I’m unsettled still about something that happened a couple months ago; I wish something could be done about it. I did finally decide on the rest of the Christmas gifts that I will be getting (will be getting the stuff that we didn’t order online soon), but I’m honestly not satisfied. I still can’t get my mind focused on Christmas or mood aside from here. I’m still hurting so much about something that happened last year; Christmas has always been hard for me at least the last several years, but this year is even harder. I’m trying my best to keep my depression away.

I’m worried about my connection for hide and seek tonight.

No comments or replies please
 
It’s sad to think that I was never close with my mom and was never able to coexist with her until now. I really dislike the people she hangs out with and she tries to attribute it to jealousy or the fact that she likes these people more than my father, but it’s really just the fact that these people she hangs with are just terrible people.

The one person she calls her best friend has hit her on multiple occasions and even embarrassed her in public multiple times, getting a little too drunk to function in public and cutting the line at a ticketed event.

I didn’t realize this inability to coexist with her in the same house because up until that point, I had always lived with my dad. I feel bad because she always tries to be nice to me and even takes me on vacation each year, but I can’t be around these people she calls her friends.

She got upset with me on a few occasions about this, telling me that I’m being ungrateful and that I should let her hang out with whoever she wants in the house she pays for. She tells me that I’m not giving her friend a chance, even though he had asked me to strip on multiple occasions. He said he was joking, but this makes me uncomfortable, especially since he makes comments on my body despite my lack of reciprocation. He also deadnames me, and calls me an ******* for not accepting the name I was given at birth. My mom defends this by saying “he isn’t calling you (insert deadname), he’s just saying it.”

I truthfully feel that she has more respect for this guy than her child, and that’s what’s upsetting.

Edit: I am temporarily with my grandma and my dad until he finds a place for himself. She deadnames me on the daily, but it’s easy to ignore. Just annoying at times.
 
Last edited:
You must log in or register to reply here.

Similar threads

ShawnFuzz
Jigsaw puzzles, do you enjoy them?
2
Replies
23
Views
512
azurill
azurill
xSuperMario64x
art technique development thread 🎨🖌
Replies
16
Views
990
SwampEntities
SwampEntities
nightglow
Bugs 🐛🦋🦗
Replies
3
Views
194
culu
culu
D
What’s on your To-Do List for today?
2
Replies
24
Views
913
ZeldaCrossing64
ZeldaCrossing64
nightglow
Tango with the Uncanny Valley
Replies
0
Views
179
nightglow
nightglow
Back
Top