What's Bothering You?

scrolling on reddit yesterday and someone posted gore without censoring it or anything.
wonderful.
don't even get me started on the comments under the post. just evil, evil people.
it was from a subreddit that's been going to trash recently so i'm not really upset about leaving it. but ugh, i really wish i hadn't seen it. ruined my whole night and my day. it was very disturbing and it's really weighing on me.
 
(Sigh) look I hate being negative but I just need to vent. I'm stuck living in this airbnb and my dysfunctional family is always being loud and there is drama. It's ruining my Christmas I've been told to do different things and handle other stuff. When I am done I have don't have any energy to relax myself. I can't even play games because I am very annoyed and tired from all the drama.

Just once I want to have a day where there is no drama from my family it's always pointing fingers, yelling and swearing. It's so mentally draining and I can't seem to escape this never ending nightmare.
 
Much better day today. I took back control of what is mine which is myself. I didn’t speak to my boss who has a crush on me for an hour to avoid stares. And it worked. He had a bit of a moment I was ghosting him but it was for my own good. I needed to protect myself and i talked to him when i was ready. And I felt good taking back some power and control from him. It was really empowering. Good I can have a good Christmas now.

Merry Christmas everyone!
 
I always feel bad when I tell people I'm gonna draw for them and I push it way off 😔 like I love drawing for people, because my art makes them happy and that makes me happy (hell even my own art makes me happy), but there's always something ridiculous going on in my life which prevents me from enjoying my hobbies and passions. there are games I've borrowed from the library that I haven't played, there are piano pieces that I haven't practiced, and of course there's always some kind of cleaning to be done. but I've been making the rounds with college, with my legal name change, with work, with family and friends, and especially with my health. they always seem to get in the way.

I just want to apologize to those who have either waited for forever to get a drawing from me, or ended up not getting one at all because the prospect of the project overwhelmed me too much. it's difficult.

also, there are so many things I want to draw, that I just don't have the energy or motivation for 😭 I admire artists on TBT who are very consistent and can draw every request they get and more.
 
internet on my pc has started dropping/going slow out of nowhere 😔 tried all the "fixes" suggested, but nothing's worked. wondering if i should get a new wifi adapter, but they're about £20 minimum and i can't say for sure if that's even the problem. pretty sure it's not the network/router, because the internet on my phone has been perfectly fine ripp
 
I’m just going to keep it short and get out that yall my “dad” did the thing again.

He started an argument while I was sleeping… on Christmas. Like when I was a kid. Like the one thing I begged for him not to do my whole life, every Christmas asked for as a kid and waking me up? Well we had arguments over it this year.

This is why I hate this holiday irl… actually online it can be nice, I have actual friends and stuff, and I care about you guys despite my absence. But… yeah hearing about this damn holiday as early as September sucks with these memories. Paired with last year’s memories. It’s rough.

Otherwise: he’s been extremely racist in the last month. My boyfriend he doesn’t know about is black, some people helping me a lot IRL are black, he’s aggressive toward them for their race and scares them away from coming in the house because of it, dropped a racist slur against them (yes it was the hard version, not that it makes it any better), yesterday while my family was over he said a bunch of things to other POC starting political talk… I already know he’s queerphobic too (and I think he doesn’t believe me telling him that I’m not straight), he’s just a bigot… Most of my friends are POC and he’s a genuine embarassment.

This is no dad and my boyfriend’s also sucks and was a deadbeat so, I have no dad lol.

Happy holidays gs… hate this holiday irl but I still appreciate the sentiments from my actual friends.

Just need the bf to give me Wintersberg, I fell asleep to that and it was nice. Zzzz. I also didn’t enjoy a bath yesterday like I have wanted to for a long while because the neighbours’ noise made it stressful.
 
I have no more room on my switch album for photos/videos D: Found out when I was doing the toy day event and it was kinda a shock. Makes me definitely wanna focus on my journals so I can remove ones I don't really need to keep on there.

KFC dinner was alright, but it came lukewarm, to which my mum had to use the oven, air fryer and microwave for our food, funnily enough she said we should've gotten pizza, even though the time we were debating on it, said she didn't want pizza.
 
Feeling really down tonight... This might be the first time I have been stressed and depressed instead of excited on Christmas Eve. There was only one thing left I could look forward to since I couldn't buy presents, and I might have that ruined tonight because of this stupid house I am stuck in. Being stressed out over whether or not I am going to be affected by a fire outside is the one thing I didn't want tonight. Why couldn't that have been last night? Why tonight, of all nights? I am sick of this whole month. I haven't been able to enjoy much of it at all.
 
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