What's Bothering You?

[SkyKnight03]

I despairingly woke up last night into a brutal panic attack. I felt like falling over and my heart rate was out of control. I haven't gone through one that intense in several years and I had forgotten just how nasty it can be. Thankfully it calmed down within about 60 seconds. But those 60 seconds felt like impending death. I was terrified.

I have yet to find who in my family I feel comfortable talking with about this. I'm scared of it happening again and it's unfortunate to be alone through them.

I hoped to never go through that again. I remember my nights of hospitalization due to anxiety and I wasn't far from that.

 

[Dunquixote]

I took some cough medicine at 4 I think it made me drowsy since now I feel like all my energy is drained. I’m almost done with my stocking stuffers, but can barely function like this. I hope I can finish everything.

 

[Chris]

Ugh I think I have conjunctivitis.

Also wide awake at 2:45am.

 

[mocha.]

I had an argument with my bf last night that really upset me. Whenever I try to explain that depression makes things difficult for me and I have low energy he dismisses it and labels it as laziness. This makes me doubt myself and I question whether maybe I am lazy. I don’t think he realises how much he upsets me when he says things like this. It’s soured my mood and I really feel like not talking to him today which is difficult when we live together.