What's Bothering You?

[Dunquixote]

Edit: It doesn’t matter now.

 

[Chris]

Work yesterday was horrific. I'm angry, and my manager is too. I ended up phoning my mum when I got home to vent for 40 minutes. No desire to go back today, but the mortgage and bills need paid so here we go.

Well, today continues to suck. Regret coming in.

Spoiler: ramble

Bless good colleagues. The only two people who have been informed what happened are concerned and working to (a) get me in touch with my predecessor, who apparently had a similar experience before retirement, to see if she'd be willing to talk to me and (b) are getting me the contact info for a union rep. And my manager and his manager are supporting me.

 

[bestfriendsally]

my arm/wrist is hurting me __ __ i'm pretty sure i woke up like it...
it's one of my typing wrists, as well... so it hurts when i type on the keyboard

 

[daringred_]

i have a concussion lol

 

[bestfriendsally]

now that my my arm/wrist feels like it's healing (although, it still feels sore/hurts a bit ...
don't want to jinx it .. still hurts when i bend it __ __ ) , lightworks has to go & freeze itself again! while i was extracting my video __ __ i had to force-close it... & reopen it... __ __

why you do that, lightworks?!
but as always, my videos on there are fine ^^

 

[Suguri]

*poof*

 

[-Blue-]

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Spoiler

I get that. I feel like this place can feel very cliquey at times. Could just be me, but I feel like when more people bring this up it's probably not an isolated instance. For what it's worth I really enjoy your presence on here!

 

[Dunquixote]

Edit: issue doesn’t matter anymore

 

[chocovelvetcake]

Spoiler: tw: internalized ableism (no replies or messages pls)

I feel like such an ******* for calling myself the ableist r-slur (I'm not gonna say it on here bc I don't wanna get in trouble with the mods, but I will say that it has 6 letters in it and it ends with a d) despite having autism myself.

I've never had anyone call me the r-slur to my face in my life, and I'm fully aware that the r-slur is an ableist slur. Everytime I make a mistake or fail at something, I can't help but to call myself the r-slur because I feel like such a failure. I guess this is just my internalized ableism talking.

 

[Neb]

I feel like the majority of the friendships I’ve had with people online turned out poorly. They often acted kind and supportive and then ditched me or became mean with no explanation later. (Not on this site I mean) Sometimes I’ll quit hearing from people after years of interacting regularly.

Today a person who messaged me almost daily for months sent a cold message to me today telling me to quit texting her and that she didn’t want to be friends with me anymore. She unfriended me and then turned off her friend requests. I had some mixed feelings on her for a while since she snapped at me once over a harmless question. It was strange too since she used to complain to me about people cutting contact with her.

I am tired of getting hurt over and over again because there are less social consequences online and many people act like others are disposable. I am going to be much more cautious when it comes to making connections online from now on.

 

[Shawna]

I’m not thrilled about the prospect of getting older and older, but one thing about it I AM looking forward to — is not having to deal with periods anymore.

 

[pottercrossing]

So, the casting for my spring play is total BS. So I, when the list came out last month, vented my issues with it in what I felt was a calm and respectful manner, but apparently it wasn't. Now, one of the leads is talking crap about me to my close friend... every single day without fail. And when I say every single day I mean it. She's also going as far as to purposely deadname and misgender me while saying those things, even though we first met after I changed my name and pronouns to my current ones. I feel like I should talk to my director about it, but I really don't feel like she's going to do anything. I would drop out, but everyone else is perfectly nice to me and I have no other plays that I'm in. If you know anything about me, you know I need to be in a production constantly, so that's not the best solution.

I'm so sorry, this is incredibly stupid, but I needed to talk about this.

 

[Tude]

So, the casting for my spring play is total BS. So I, when the list came out last month, vented my issues with it in what I felt was a calm and respectful manner, but apparently it wasn't. Now, one of the leads is talking crap about me to my close friend... every single day without fail. And when I say every single day I mean it. She's also going as far as to purposely deadname and misgender me while saying those things, even though we first met after I changed my name and pronouns to my current ones. I feel like I should talk to my director about it, but I really don't feel like she's going to do anything. I would drop out, but everyone else is perfectly nice to me and I have no other plays that I'm in. If you know anything about me, you know I need to be in a production constantly, so that's not the best solution.

I'm so sorry, this is incredibly stupid, but I needed to talk about this.

This isn't stupid at all. Is your friend calling them out on what they're saying? Your friend should try to stick up for you because why else would this person feel so comfortable deadnaming you to them? That is one of the most VILE things someone can do. I know if someone misgendered my friend to me even once, I'd tell them off so badly they'd never do it again, never mind doing it every single day. You don't deserve being treated like that.

Finn went to the vet today. He is mostly himself, aside from his head tilt and lack of appetite. Thankfully, his weight is still 17 pounds (his usual size). When Misty (cat), gets too close, he barks at her, like he used to.

He was tired after the vet, but I’m relieved he isn’t as clumsy. He moves a bit better, and ate more this evening.

I still cry about him. Last night I wrote a poem about him, because I needed to get those feelings out. Today I cried and held him in my lap, until he wanted to crawl on my bed. This vestibular stuff is difficult, and I worry about him, but I’m glad he still has his personality and knows he is loved.

Ugh I hope he gets better soon

i have a concussion lol

Omg are you okay? That's pretty serious.

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

One of the managers is not doing well mentally.

 

[daringred_]

Omg are you okay? That's pretty serious.

i feel better today, just tired and have a very mild headache. certainly preferable to all the nausea and other symptoms yesterday.

 

[SkyKnight03]

I failed my Driving Test twice. Both times because of reverse parking.

The first time my front wheel touched a cone. The second time I got in correctly and ran 20 seconds over the allowed time limit.

I know I can get it eventually. It's just deflating.

 

[Suguri]

Spoiler

I could really use a break. I know my birthday is a week from now but still. I'm tired of getting snapped at whenever I react a certain way in front of my family. It's not something I can control, but they're in denial 'cause they're just annoyed with how I act at home.

 

[Seastar]

Spoiler

I still think I need more friends. It's difficult when there's only like 2 or 3 people I feel that close to and they're not available. ...And then I get increasingly annoyed about being stuck with someone I don't want to talk to. (For example, my mother.) This is not good for my mental health. I also start wandering around random online communities but I don't have anyone that close to talk to there so whether or not I find a conversation to join is random. It's hard to make new friends as well because my social anxiety gets in the way.

 

[QueenCobra]

Ugh I hope he gets better soon

Thank you! His balance is improving, his energy level is good, and though his appetite is iffy, he should improve in a week or so. (He ate well today, though.) Vestibular disease can take 2-3 weeks to heal, so hopefully he’s on that path.

 

[Shellzilla_515]

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