idk why but lately I've been really worried/scared about my gender identity. obv biologically I'm a female but I really like to dress like a guy (like wearing a suit/tuxedo with a nice tie, I don't mean form fitting either cause those are generally more feminine. or even baggy pants and a t-shirt. I've even given thought to wearing a binder), I've thought about cutting my hair short... basically I don't like being really feminine.
the reason I'm worried is because most of my family is very conservative/traditional in their values. I've actively had family members tell me that I need to dress like a lady, and that I'm basically not allowed to wear things like tuxedos/suits or even ties. makes me so mad. I wouldn't necessarily say that I'm transgender, maybe more like genderfluid. I have no clue how my parents/brother would react either.
basically I'm just really stressed about a lot of things and this really isnt helping at all.
edit: in case people are wondering I really would like to talk to someone, maybe someone who can relate to my issue.