you’re so, so wonderful, my friend, and your feelings are completely valid. i know how much it hurts to get your hopes up about something only for it to fall through and i’m really sorry that she changed her mind. it’s not your fault, either, though; mental health can be deliberating and that’s absolutely not your fault - you didn’t ask for any of it nor do you deserve the troubles that you have. even if you’re unable to get this particular print, i truly hope that things look up for you and i’m always around if you ever need to talk <3