What's Bothering You?

[saucySheep]

I'm a scientist. I've worked in a laboratory that was converted into a COVID-19 testing/research facility and written multiple reports on the virus.

Oh wow! That's super cool I have much appreciation for scientists stay safe homie

 

[xSuperMario64x]

my art project is due tomorrow morning and I also have my history final/essay tomorrow so in basically just gonna die lmao

why tf can't I just be done w classwork I just want to sleep.

 

[ali.di.magix]

these ****ing radios are making my job SO much harder. I can't hear the other person and the other person can't hear me half of the time, and our job strongly relies on good communication

also theres an excessive amount of bumblebees around that are attracted to my hi vis jacket and I'm scared of getting stung lmao

 

[coldpotato]

I feel like almost everywhere I go online I see constant negativity. I let it rub off on me for a while and regret that.
It's rare for me to see people being positive about anything nowadays. It's always something. The people I rarely do see being positive usually get made fun of in some way. It's really sad to see.

 

[Xara]

Spoiler: tw?

came across some of my posts from a few months ago and it’s scary just how quickly i’ve gone downhill without even noticing it. i wasn’t so obsessive over the things i said back in may. it didn’t take me 20+ minutes just to try and articulate words that would appease me. i’m even obsessing over how to word this and i’m probably going to wind up editing it a billion times. it’s gotten to the point where i’m almost considering leaving the forums; forcing myself to form sentences that i can’t and beating myself up over trying to articulate thoughts in a way that doesn’t leave me feeling unfulfilled is so ****ing frustrating.

people always say that things get better with time. but if that’s really the case, why do i continue to get worse with every passing year? when did i become an empty vessel rather than an actual human being? when the hell did i become an addict, for god’s sake, downing pills that make me feel like **** and for what? the ‘high’? the euphoria? do those 5 minutes of peace make up for the blurred vision, difficulty swallowing, auditory hallucinations?? i can’t sleep without assist anymore. my digestive system is shot. i can’t even bring this up to a doctor because i don’t know how to explain what’s going on. it’s really starting to feel like i’m dying and i’m not sure if that scares me or if it’s the possibility that i might actually live. i don’t know which is worse. i haven’t left my house in months. school is online. my mother is sick.

i thought the pandemic was beneficial to me for a while; that not having to leave my house was doing me a solid, that it gave me the chance to repair my mental health. but i was wrong. it did the opposite. i don’t really write anymore. i haven’t done my makeup in so long. my hair is completely and utterly knotted and i have no energy to brush it. i can’t even bring myself to brush my teeth ffs and at the rate i’m going, my teeth are either going to rot or it’ll kill me. i don’t know who i am. i don’t recognize myself at all and i don’t know how to get out of the hole that i’ve dug myself into.

 

[Dunquixote]

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@xara. I am really worried about you. Have you thought of reaching out for help? Does your dad know this is going on? I am so sorry this is happening to you and that you are feeling this way. I am extremely saddened by this. Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you.

 

[ali.di.magix]

these ****ing radios are making my job SO much harder. I can't hear the other person and the other person can't hear me half of the time, and our job strongly relies on good communication

UPDATE: the radios still suck, if not gotten worse. I'm so frustrated I wanna cry. I'm this close to having a mental breakdown over some stupid piece of equipment

 

[Xara]

@xara. I am really worried about you. Have you thought of reaching out for help? Does your dad know this is going on? I am so sorry this is happening to you and that you are feeling this way. I am extremely saddened by this. Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you.

i have but unfortunately, due to my age, class, the pandemic and the other health issues going on in my immediate family, mental health help is very hard to find right now. my dad doesn’t know as uh tbh,, he is incredibly apathetic and selfish and all he would do is yell at me for feeling this way and that just isn’t helpful for anyone aha; the only family member i’d feel comfortable talking to is my mother who has her own stuff going on and so therefore wouldn’t be of much help, either.

thank you so much for the support and concern, though; you’re wonderful. i think i’ll be okay i’m just kinda,, not at my sexiest rn aha

 

[TheSillyPuppy]

@xara, are your school guidance counsellors offering phone/Skype appointments? If not, I found a list of helplines that you could try giving a call - https://mindyourmind.ca/help/where-call. I wish I could offer more help. My inbox is open if you just wanna chat. *virtual hugs*

 

[DinosaurDumpster]

I wish I could prove that I can do something too in my family
but I can't

 

[Xara]

@xara, are your school guidance counsellors offering phone/Skype appointments? If not, I found a list of helplines that you could try giving a call - https://mindyourmind.ca/help/where-call. I wish I could offer more help. My inbox is open if you just wanna chat. *virtual hugs*

unfortunately, no; even just getting an email response from school guidance counsellors is pretty difficult rn but i’ll definitely be looking into mental health resources in my area over the next few days. thank you for replying, it means a lot :’)

 

[Peach_Jam]

just sad and frustrated
I want this week to be over

 

[Alienfish]

UPS and postnord.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

it's almost 5:30 and I'm still awake cause I had to finish my art piece and study for my history final, I would go to sleep but I have to meet w my art prof at 9am which is only like 3 hours from now. debating whether I should even bother going to sleep.

also forgot that I actually do have even more schoolwork to finish besides finals and im just ready to dieeee

edit: got a whole two and a half hours of sleep and now I feel nauseous :,,,)

 

[saucySheep]

My family doesn't like me anymore
I'll probably never get a good Christian boyfriend that looks half-good
I don't have a best friend to talk to anyway
And faute pirouettes are pissing me OFF BUSIGIWGUIEHVIDNFIRW
And I'm an insensitive brat/I don't actually care about other people's problems which is probably why no one likes me ._. I try

 

[hakutaku]

I lost a lot of weight this past year, and since our house is old and badly heated, I'm basically cold all the time now and it's nearly unbearable. I used to like the winter and now I can't stand it Spring and summer can't come soon enough tbh

Also I've been struggling trying to put weight back on since I'm almost certain I'm underweight (not sure bc I don't have scales), it's pretty difficult.

 

[oak]

Rambled about my landlord, don't mind me.

Spoiler

Whenever my landlord talks to me, he talks like I'm stupid or below him. He's finally replacing the fridge this week and it's been broken for over 2 years. It stays cold but you have to put a bowl on the top layer to catch the constant stream of water coming from the freezer. Finally after a 3rd complaint he agreed to replace it. He legit told me to completely defrost the fridge monthly to prevent the build up of ice & leaking water so I snapped and was extremely rude to his face. He kept telling me I was wrong so I raised my voice and told him he was the one who was wrong. And I slammed the door in his face. He called the next morning to say I had infact been correct hahahaha SUCK IT LANDLORD MAN.

He sees me as a woman so he thinks he can talk down to me but he doesn't realize how wild I can get if he pushes my buttons. I respect his house and nothing is damaged after almost 4 years of living here so he should be more appreciative. I treat this house as if it's my own. He lives in a mansion & then rents out a ton of houses on skid row making a living off of society's poorest.

This is also the man that kicked out the 72 year old woman who lived below me for getting behind on her rent during the quarantine cause her job at a thrift shop got shut down. She begged to stay and the cops came and threw all her stuff on the lawn and no one cared that she was now homeless. This was the same incident where me & the moving guys they hired to take her stuff were screaming at each other cause they were having a little laugh at the old lady being kicked out. And then the cops told me to go inside my house & I refused multiple times & wrapped my arms around that old lady & her dog. I was worried they were gonna hurt her. I still get weird flashbacks to that day cause all those cops were coming towards us & I was hysterically crying. Do you think the landlord was sympathetic at all? Nope all he cares about is his money. I could never be a landlord.

 

[Mr_Persona]

Sister changed again. She judges me before l get to say anything. She so rude, she thinks l'm going ti say something else even when l'm not.

Post automatically merged: Dec 8, 2020

typo....idc

 

[SmoochsPLH]

i had a planned gift for xmas, but it's sold out (not what i'm mad about that can't be helped) so my mom decided to just get me something off of amazon, which i don't mind, she knows what i like. what i'm upset about is that she told me she got something the other day and now im impatient cus i'm curious and it's only the 8th ;w;

so not a mad thing more of a impatient wth did she get me mood. i wanna knooow xD

Post automatically merged: Dec 8, 2020

Great... My 2nd rainbow high doll l got yesterday and her hand broke off. It can't be held in place anymore. I heard that MGA has a bad service, people say they're rude when they reply back or they will ignore you. Poor green doll, she can't move her hand anymore.

i've been wanting one of those!! are they not very durable? :c

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I like my CBD vape but I reeeeeally hate the taste of it lol ;;