What's Bothering You?

[xSuperMario64x]

If there's anyone out there that reads this and can relate to this, please do console me - because it seems that I, compared to any other sane people my age that's going to college, was not taking this seriously.

Well... I think I completed all of what I needed to do for financial aid this semester today. You read that right. Today. For my first semester and second semester of college. I really waited until the last minute. Well, I don't know if it's just me, but I feel like I don't understand how it works. Looking at my yearly tuition for the year, it's close to $50,000. I didn't think this through. At the time, I just wanted to pick a college that's far away. I didn't think about how I would manage my finances. I do have grants and scholarships and all, and that helps out with the majority of my payment for tuition - but the subsidized and unsubsidized loans? I have $5,500 in loan money for this school year.

Please tell me that I'm not the only one who ****ed up.

i obviously don't know what school you're going to, but the school I go to charges about $60k/year for tuition (it's a private school). I have most of it paid for by scholarships and grants, but I also have subsidized and unsubsidized loans for each semester, which adds up to about $6k per year (I believe). so you're definitely not alone in paying that much. I can't speak for everyone since I got a really good scholarship which paid for over 80% of my semesterly tuition. luckily you won't have to worry about actually paying on those loans until 6 months after you get out of school (whether you graduate or drop out).


ANYWAYS, what I came here for. I always feel really bad after I eat literally anything because I feel like I just keep gaining more and more weight and I absolutely ****ing hate it. I would love to just not eat anything for a while and force myself to lose weight. I'm tired of being overweight.

 

[Neb]

Ah yes, a strong headache with a side of rumination. Just what I ordered.

 

[Xara]

i’ve literally been trying to write a paragraph all day and i cannot. why in god’s name did i sign up for a university level english class?? i can’t analyze stories for ****. it’s due today and i cant even get past the first few sentences. i know what it is i’m trying to say but i don’t know how to do so without it turning into a summary of the story, when that’s not what the assignment is about. it’s literally almost 3am. i’m so tired. :/

 

[ali.di.magix]

I just bawled my eyes out for like 20 minutes for no reason. It's been a long long time since I've just randomly cried for no reason - legit like 5 years ago or more. I haven't felt like this in a long time. There's a lot going through my mind right now, mixed emotions about going home and obsessing over the dumb stuff I've done at work over the past few weeks. I think I'm just over-tired.

on another note, it's 9:15pm and I've still got so much crap to pack and then sleep enough so that I can drive home tomorrow

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

The official music video for Gorrillaz Rock the House is censored on youtube. Also Nintendo is taking down all their music again.

 

[moo_nieu]

deleted- everything turned out okay

 

[trashpedia]

tf I got the lowest grade out of everyone on one of my French project grades???

I just hate how every time I feel confident that I did something well, it ends up being actually worse than I thought uggggh

 

[Lightspring]

My package was supposed to be here on Monday (it’s currently Friday) and has been in my city for 4 days, traveling back and forth between facilities for some odd reason. There’s no customer service, and their phone is “broken”. They have a 2.0 star rating with 300 reviews but that doesn’t excuse them from doing their job.

 

[Plume]

My pepere passed away. He suffered a heart attack during surgery for his shoulder about 7 years back, and it really messed him up. He had been suffering with dementia. He was put into a nursing home about 3 weeks before he died. I hate to think of how alone he must have felt.

 

[oak]

My pepere passed away. He suffered a heart attack during surgery for his shoulder about 7 years back, and it really messed him up. He had been suffering with dementia. He was put into a nursing home about 3 weeks before he died. I hate to think of how alone he must have felt.

I'm so sorry to hear this! May he rest in peace. My granny had dementia & passed away in a care home 2 years ago so I understand how terrible it can be. I hope you & your family feel better soon.

 

[Alienfish]

I hope this store resume int'l shopping, I love their stuff but I'm not getting 3rd part payment options sorry :c

Also my lappy being wonky, how the hell did it push back button on this page randomly... is there some secret button combination i dunno about???

 

[Bcat]

Idk why you’re so fond of giving me the illusion of choice. We both know you’re going to do whatever the hell you want regardless. You don’t care about me. You don’t care if I’m happy or not. You just... don’t care. It’s all about you. And I hate you for it.

 

[SmoochsPLH]

i need clay to make xmas presents and the store hasn't had any for like a weeeeek

 

[Lady Timpani]

i need clay to make xmas presents and the store hasn't had any for like a weeeeek

What are you making? Homemade presents are always fun!

 

[Dim]

If there's anyone out there that reads this and can relate to this, please do console me - because it seems that I, compared to any other sane people my age that's going to college, was not taking this seriously.

Well... I think I completed all of what I needed to do for financial aid this semester today. You read that right. Today. For my first semester and second semester of college. I really waited until the last minute. Well, I don't know if it's just me, but I feel like I don't understand how it works. Looking at my yearly tuition for the year, it's close to $50,000. I didn't think this through. At the time, I just wanted to pick a college that's far away. I didn't think about how I would manage my finances. I do have grants and scholarships and all, and that helps out with the majority of my payment for tuition - but the subsidized and unsubsidized loans? I have $5,500 in loan money for this school year.

Please tell me that I'm not the only one who ****ed up.

College scares the crap out of me but there's no other way is there? Life...

i need clay to make xmas presents and the store hasn't had any for like a weeeeek

Why'd I think of New Horizons when I read this?

 

[Seastar]

That's two nights in a row that I got a migraine. What is happening and why?

 

[Lightspring]

Technically a repost but I’m a bit sad that my best friend and I have stopped talking. It may sound childish on my end that she kind of forgot about my birthday and now today is our friendship anniversary of 8 years and we haven’t even spoken. I’ve been initiating the hangouts for the past couple of times and she seemed kind of quiet and stopped wanting to hang out longer and opted to go home early to “study” which I know she never really did judging by her online activity. I tried wishing her happy holidays on multiple occasions but the conversations seemed one sided and disinterested. I even tried texting her and she would always leave me on delivered while she was busy talking with her new friend (I joined their Discord server and I see their conversations in the general section). The only time my best friend ever talked to me nowadays was telling me how stressed she was or to teach her new friend Japanese. Her new friend seems really sweet and I’m happy for them, I just can’t help thinking that it’s my fault. I used to be able to talk to my best friend about everything, and she did do some questionable things in the past but she defended me in the past and made me feel that I was important in a hostile environment that was school. Maybe I’m just stuck in the past and that it’s time to move on. My best friend’s parents are also going through a rough divorce and she has been going to therapy. I tried to support her and listen the best way I could, but I feel like I failed as a friend.

 

[Dunquixote]

My pepere passed away. He suffered a heart attack during surgery for his shoulder about 7 years back, and it really messed him up. He had been suffering with dementia. He was put into a nursing home about 3 weeks before he died. I hate to think of how alone he must have felt.

I’m so sorry and for your loss.I want to say hang in there, but I can imagine how tough this must be and not easy to just hang in there :/.My sincere condolences to you and your family.

i’ve literally been trying to write a paragraph all day and i cannot. why in god’s name did i sign up for a university level english class?? i can’t analyze stories for ****. it’s due today and i cant even get past the first few sentences. i know what it is i’m trying to say but i don’t know how to do so without it turning into a summary of the story, when that’s not what the assignment is about. it’s literally almost 3am. i’m so tired. :/

/hugs @xara. I know exactly that feeling. i still wonder why i went into history when i knew my concentration and mental health was deteriorating. didn’t know i had asperger’s then though. sorry i can’t help you with that :/. i’m hear though if you need to vent.

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I still have been coughing and my mom says i wouldn’t be coughing if i dusted my room, then goes on to tell me to drink water. I told her how it would have been nice if she asked if i was okay. and then she continued to grumble. i have a crink in my lower and upper back from sleeping funny and it is making my cough even more painful.

i have asked her to try to understand me more about my ocd and how i really have trouble even with dusting, but she apparently forgot that she said she would try to understand me more. i am mad at my mom even though she is a good mom and mad at myself for being born the way i am.

 

[TheSillyPuppy]

ANYWAYS, what I came here for. I always feel really bad after I eat literally anything because I feel like I just keep gaining more and more weight and I absolutely ****ing hate it. I would love to just not eat anything for a while and force myself to lose weight. I'm tired of being overweight.

I'm sorry you're having thoughts like this. Have you consulted a family doctor/general practitioner? There are multiple possible health conditions involving weight gain as a side effect, such as a thyroid condition or PCOS to name a few, just from knowing what family and friends have gone through. I hope you're able to seek medical advice from a professional soon.

My pepere passed away. He suffered a heart attack during surgery for his shoulder about 7 years back, and it really messed him up. He had been suffering with dementia. He was put into a nursing home about 3 weeks before he died. I hate to think of how alone he must have felt.

This must be a really difficult time for you and your family. My sincerest condolences to you all. *virtual hugs*

I still have been coughing and my mom says i wouldn’t be coughing if i dusted my room, then goes on to tell me to drink water. I told her how it would have been nice if she asked if i was okay. and then she continued to grumble. i have a crink in my lower and upper back from sleeping funny and it is making my cough even more painful.

i have asked her to try to understand me more about my ocd and how i really have trouble even with dusting, but she apparently forgot that she said she would try to understand me more. i am mad at my mom even though she is a good mom and mad at myself for being born the way i am.

It's a natural reaction to get mad/annoyed/frustrated at people when they do/say something that irks us, no matter how much we love them. Nobody is perfect, so I just wanted to remind you that you're a very kind and sweet person; thank you so much for the Christmas Lights collectible and your message. Reading it made me smile. :3

 

[Dunquixote]

I'm sorry you're having thoughts like this. Have you consulted a family doctor/general practitioner? There are multiple possible health conditions involving weight gain as a side effect, such as a thyroid condition or PCOS to name a few, just from knowing what family and friends have gone through. I hope you're able to seek medical advice from a professional soon.


This must be a really difficult time for you and your family. My sincerest condolences to you all. *virtual hugs*


It's a natural reaction to get mad/annoyed/frustrated at people when they do/say something that irks us, no matter how much we love them. Nobody is perfect, so I just wanted to remind you that you're a very kind and sweet person; thank you so much for the Christmas Lights collectible and your message. Reading it made me smile. :3

thanks for checking up on me . yeah i am okay now; i talked to my mom and she said she’ll try harder to understand. you’re right and I know my mom just didn’t express her concern as well as she could have and didn’t mean to sound like she didn’t care. it still upsets me a bit though, but yeah even my mom isn’t perfect even though most days i feel like she is and that she is the best mom . You’re welcome! you are a treasured friend on here ^.^.