I feel so ill. I know I’ll feel better when I don’t have a tribunal coming up but I’m so exhausted by fighting for disability benefits so I can live with dignity. I feel like such a burden on my partner and I hate myself for it. I want to disappear. I’m trying so hard to find things to live for but I just have nothing left in me.
What's Bothering You?
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Several things have made me nervous today. Not to where my mental health is unmanageable, but enough to make this day a low point.
Someone I’m fond of is beating themself up. What happened wasn’t their fault and I wish I could help. Sadly all I can do is reassure them. If only I didn’t live so far away...
It also snowed the other day. I’ve been trapped inside and I can’t exercise without the neighbors complaining. Even floor planks make them punch the wall. I swear I always have the worst luck with apartment complexes. Exercise is one of the few things that consistently regulates my mood. Without it my blood sugar just crashes in the evening.
The lack of motivation I’ve had since the pandemic began has been getting worse. I can’t even study my second language for more than 25 minutes a day without getting bored. I wish I could apply to college for some sense of routine, but I lost my transcript.
Someone I’m fond of is beating themself up. What happened wasn’t their fault and I wish I could help. Sadly all I can do is reassure them. If only I didn’t live so far away...
It also snowed the other day. I’ve been trapped inside and I can’t exercise without the neighbors complaining. Even floor planks make them punch the wall. I swear I always have the worst luck with apartment complexes. Exercise is one of the few things that consistently regulates my mood. Without it my blood sugar just crashes in the evening.
The lack of motivation I’ve had since the pandemic began has been getting worse. I can’t even study my second language for more than 25 minutes a day without getting bored. I wish I could apply to college for some sense of routine, but I lost my transcript.
LuchaSloth
Sloth
My right ear hurts a lot. Inner ear infection, basically. Happens sometimes from wearing earbuds. One of those things where I don't really feel it most of the time...but if I touch my ear without thinking (or put earbuds in)...it hurts a ton. Hopefully gets better in a day or two...because, I wear earbuds a lot.
Reginald Fairfield
Senior Member
I've enjoyed your company.
xSuperMario64x
call me Bug 🇨🇦💜🐛
it's 2:30am, why am I still up??
ivelostmyspectacles
every so often, I get NSO 🤷
Been feeling really AITA type of mood because at the beginning of the year, I decided I’d stop chasing down my friends. I was always the one to start conversations. I always tried to initiate activities for us to do. (Mind, this all snowballed at the end of last year when me and my [long distance] gf broke up; I’d tried multiple times to get her to do things with me. I’d say we should call each other, stream a movie, play a game, etc; she’d always say that it sounded fun, but never planned anything with me, but then she’d go out and do those things with her other friends online. This was over the course of a year of us dating and I was in tears by the end LMAO anyway) I’ve had plenty of other friends do this on a smaller level, so it led to me finally saying that if they wanted to talk to me, they’d contact me, and I shouldn’t have to do it all the time.
Anyway, they haven’t contacted me and I’ve actually felt great not having to worry about trying so gd hard for people?? Like. A sigh of relief. But the lingering AITA strikes now and again when I’m lonely and there’s no one to talk to… like… is this petty? Should I keep those friends in my life just to say I have ‘em? I dunno. Friend/relationships are hard sobs
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Anyway, they haven’t contacted me and I’ve actually felt great not having to worry about trying so gd hard for people?? Like. A sigh of relief. But the lingering AITA strikes now and again when I’m lonely and there’s no one to talk to… like… is this petty? Should I keep those friends in my life just to say I have ‘em? I dunno. Friend/relationships are hard sobs
oh my god this is so long i don't ever post in this section of forum im sorry
Dwayne Johnson
Speaker | Change Maker | Visionary | Life Coach
i just can't get a feel for my main courses this semester, kind of makes me a bit worried about whether this path is right for me or not... i put a lot of money into this lol
Lady Timpani
sway
I can relate to this a lot
I've done similar things before in the past and tbh I'm not really sure what the right answer is here. It might be worth it to reach out to them again, but if nothing really comes of it then you know your answer. I've had friends who stopped reaching out to me where it was pretty obvious they didn't want to continue the relationship anymore when I talked to them, but I've had others who legitimately are very busy with work and other things and just can't talk much. I also think my expectations for people are too high sometimes, so that's something I've been trying to work on. But at the same time, I don't think you should continually put yourself out there for people that wouldn't do the same for you.
LuchaSloth
Sloth
Old people are hilarious. I remember when my great grandmother (on my father's side) was still alive, she told my mom that she looked "nice and plump". She meant it as a compliment. You're talking about a little old lady (who lived to be 99), who came to America from Hungary as a little girl to escape war times. In her mind, telling someone they were "plump" meant healthy and well-fed. It's one of those things we still laugh about, because she was so sincere. My mom was not amused. Lol.
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oak
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Ugh I'm really sorry about that. My mom comments on my weight every time I see her and it's a terrible feeling. Sometimes I just jiggle myself at her and slap my belly at her. Maybe you can borrow my technique lol.
ivelostmyspectacles
every so often, I get NSO 🤷
Mood on the having high expectations for people.I can relate to this a lot
One of the friends making me feel this way, I've reached out and started "convos" with her about 3-4 times in the last two weeks. Stupid things like mentioning a new meal cooked or something, or a new plant. But just staying in touch. I realized, outside of replying to that, she's contacted me herself... once... in almost two weeks. Just to comment on me running a fandom thing lmao
Maybe I've answered my own rant with this one
i'm really sorry :c my grandmother does this often, and has since i was about 13. i'm either getting too big for her, or when i lose that weight, now i'm starting to be too skinny.. i really hope that it doesn't occur often and she means well behind it
if it does bother you, you definitely should mention it, because she might not realize how she's affecting you.I'm down to my final amiibo villager that I planned to scan in today to start the move-in process, only to find out that the card doesn't even scan... 
I messaged the seller about it, and they haven't gotten back to me yet. The rest of the cards I got from them have worked fine, though. I thought it was just the occasional technical error, so I decided to give them a pass and assume it was a mistake instead of a scam. But upon thinking about it just now, I remembered that they also didn't respond to me when I messaged them to ask if they had the villagers I wanted before placing my order with them for the first time. And the order I placed was a 'buy 5, get 1 free' bundle deal as well, so I'm pretty sure I was scammed for the 'free' one, hence it's not scanning... Ugh. I feel stupid now. 
But I went ahead and placed an order for the same villager with a different (more trusted) seller. Screw scammers 
Update: The seller replied to me saying the card probably got "damaged internally." Didn't know that was a thing, since it was my first time using amiibo cards. That's why I didn't even check to see if they were all working or not when I first got them, which was my mistake. But it still left me disappointed and skeptical of possible scamming, since other reviewers of the shop also mentioned their card(s) not working. (You can never be too careful...) Cards don't typically get damaged that easily, but oh well...
I messaged the seller about it, and they haven't gotten back to me yet. The rest of the cards I got from them have worked fine, though. I thought it was just the occasional technical error, so I decided to give them a pass and assume it was a mistake instead of a scam. But upon thinking about it just now, I remembered that they also didn't respond to me when I messaged them to ask if they had the villagers I wanted before placing my order with them for the first time. And the order I placed was a 'buy 5, get 1 free' bundle deal as well, so I'm pretty sure I was scammed for the 'free' one, hence it's not scanning... Ugh. I feel stupid now. But I went ahead and placed an order for the same villager with a different (more trusted) seller. Screw scammers Update: The seller replied to me saying the card probably got "damaged internally." Didn't know that was a thing, since it was my first time using amiibo cards. That's why I didn't even check to see if they were all working or not when I first got them, which was my mistake. But it still left me disappointed and skeptical of possible scamming, since other reviewers of the shop also mentioned their card(s) not working. (You can never be too careful...) Cards don't typically get damaged that easily, but oh well...
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Lightspring
🧡🖤
Silly me for getting too hopeful. I just really need to let things go.
My dad passed away last Friday from alcohol and drug abuse. It's been tearing me up so badly and we had a rocky relationship. Our last interaction before this was an argument on Christmas Eve and it was a terrible argument and we had vowed not to talk again... I'm only 24, I don't understand why this happens to me.
Dawnpiplup
Kick ass.
Depressed. I really would like a friend of mine to respond back. I just want a hug from him.
I'd give you a hug right now if I could. I am sorry for your loss.
I'd give you a hug right now if I could. I am sorry for your loss.
i’m so, so sorry for your loss.
