Been feeling really AITA type of mood because at the beginning of the year, I decided I’d stop chasing down my friends. I was always the one to start conversations. I always tried to initiate activities for us to do. (Mind, this all snowballed at the end of last year when me and my [long distance] gf broke up; I’d tried multiple times to get her to do things with me. I’d say we should call each other, stream a movie, play a game, etc; she’d always say that it sounded fun, but never planned anything with me, but then she’d go out and do those things with her other friends online. This was over the course of a year of us dating and I was in tears by the end LMAO anyway) I’ve had plenty of other friends do this on a smaller level, so it led to me finally saying that if they wanted to talk to me, they’d contact me, and I shouldn’t have to do it all the time.
Anyway, they haven’t contacted me and I’ve actually felt great not having to worry about trying so gd hard for people?? Like. A sigh of relief. But the lingering AITA strikes now and again when I’m lonely and there’s no one to talk to… like… is this petty? Should I keep those friends in my life just to say I have ‘em? I dunno. Friend/relationships are hard sobs
oh my god this is so long i don't ever post in this section of forum im sorry