What's Bothering You?

I was busy for most of the day and didn’t get to talk to my SO as much as I’d like and I’m feeling sad from missing them. I should also be sleeping right now. I’m exhausted so why don’t I just go to sleep?
 
@Dawnpiplup oof if you see a roach in your dorm room you really should email the RA or RLC (residential life coordinator, idk if yall have one but we do here) and let them know asap. definitely don't want the situation to get any worse! i think if i saw a roach in here i would freak out lol.



it's 6am and I really want to go back to sleep cause i really dont need to be up for about another hour or more, but i think if i do that ill feel even more tired than i already so ig I'll just stay awake.

also have to move my car way down the street into a soccer field parking lot so B&G can clean out the parking lots today (thank god) and I really hate that I'll have to walk. wish I had my bike lol.
 
You'd think after more or less a year of being in a pandemic that social distancing would become second nature to everyone but no there are still some idiots around who choose to ignore the rules completely.
yeha and people using face masks as an excuse to be close to people 🙃 some idiots here i swear. also those throwing them on the ground i wanna slap hard.

on the other hand i love how our government is basically begging not to be re-elected. also don't force face masks if people can't use properly anyway, wow.
 
i need to start writing again if i'm going to be applying for grad school this fall so i can start next fall, but i'm still so burnt out. it's been a year since i graduated. i thought taking some time away from school would help me, but i still feel the same.

i don't even know how to go about getting letters of recommendation from my old professors. the two professors i was closest to retired when i graduated, and i haven't kept up with any of my professors in the last year. i have an extreme dislike for my thesis advisor, but he is the department chair so i think i'd need to suck it up and go back to him at some point to get a recommendation.

i'm afraid if i don't apply for grad school this fall, the professors aren't going to really remember me/having me in class and will give me mediocre recommendations. then i'm screwed. do i even want to go to grad school for literature anymore? i might be better off trying out creative writing on my own for now. or looking into a history program or something so i can teach while i figure things out. i don't know.
 
yeha and people using face masks as an excuse to be close to people 🙃 some idiots here i swear. also those throwing them on the ground i wanna slap hard.

on the other hand i love how our government is basically begging not to be re-elected. also don't force face masks if people can't use properly anyway, wow.
Yes to all of this, it just annoys me how many people are either ignorant, selfish or just incompetent when it comes to this pandemic. Plus they're usually the ones who are so desperate to get back to normal, they'll take everything government says as gospel and then moan when it all goes horribly wrong again.
 
I’m not ready at all to play this one piece that my directors decided to suggest for me last minute. They had too much faith in me because I’m pretty sure I’ll disappoint them.
 
Anxiety was through the roof last night, it kept me up after watching a creepy documentary. Got nothing to wake up too though as sad as it sounds, the days just seem to blur into one now.
 
I've been trying to photograph a painting for two days straight with no success. I'm about to settle with one crappy version that doesn't properly convey the colors, which I resent. Photographing art is my least favorite thing about making art. Everything looks worse than it is in real life. It takes me longer to get a decent photograph of a painting than it does for me to paint something.
 
i'm so annoyed with how bad i am at everything i try to make and when everyone says stuff like "do it faster" and "why are u taking so long"
like i'm not even a creative person, i can't come up with my own ideas when making stuff, how will telling me to be quicker make it easier for me??? i literally can't, i need time to do stuff if it's gonna be somewhat perfect 😑
 
Yes to all of this, it just annoys me how many people are either ignorant, selfish or just incompetent when it comes to this pandemic. Plus they're usually the ones who are so desperate to get back to normal, they'll take everything government says as gospel and then moan when it all goes horribly wrong again.
Yeah indeed, I think our gov'ment is the worst of them all though, they preach restrictions but they don't help people who have it hard one bit and takes like all the shots for themselves 😠

Also I don't think you should fine people who doesn't use masks, like people scalp the prices here and, as i wrote people can't use them, throw them on the ground and use it as an excuse to be close/bump into queues etc.
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Also having a job interview coming up like less than an hour and i wanna dieeee 🙃🙃
 
Ughhh I've been exercising every single day for close to a month now and I'm seeing no progress whatsoever.

I got very fat very fast in quarantine because I really didn't feel like moving or doing anything physically challenging but I did feel like eating a lot and I deeply regret it because while I used to be fairly fit, I now weigh a lot more than I should and I'm worried about my health. But I'm also ridiculously impatient, and not seeing progress really bothers me. I still get super tired while doing basic exercises that I used to be able to do without any problem, and I HATE it.

I hoped to get used to it quicker and be able to little by little do more intense workouts, but I guess that's not in the cards for me and I gotta be more patient.
 
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