What's Bothering You?

[SmoochsPLH]

still sick (getting better tho) and now my monthly is here too and i'm cramping ;^;

Post automatically merged: Apr 3, 2021

I went to the dentist and they showed me someone else's x-rays and told me I needed to get a tooth pulled asap. I went to a different dentist and they confirmed that the x-ray was not of my teeth and the tooth doesn't need to be pulled. I'm left with a swollen face confused and frustrated by the whole experience.

omg that is so cruddy, i'm so sorry!!! D: can't they get into like major legal trouble for that like omg.

 

[-Lumi-]

Spoiler: Covid rambles

I want to cry. 6000 cases. 6000 cases over the last two days. We aren’t even through with phase 1 of vaccinations. People are saying the lockdowns aren’t needed. The amount of people I know who went out to eat yesterday for their “Easter supper” makes me sick. 6000 cases.

Which I know might not seem like a lot for people in the states but it’s a lot for me. People are acting like we’re somehow better than we were last year when we’re not. Sure, we have the vaccine made. We’re vaccinating some elderly people. But the cases as a whole, the ICU numbers, the death toll - that’s not better. I’m worse off than I was last year because these new variants are deadlier, because I’ve been unemployed for a year and running low on savings. I’m so tired.

Spoiler: Personal Rambles

Me again. Because I’m the worst and just miserable today I guess.

Can somebody let me know when this internalized homophobia **** is supposed to go away? Because mine hasn’t. I’ll be 23 in a month and I still have nights where I feel like complete garbage because I’m gay. I just feel so guilty and wrong and broken and I hate it so much. I hate it. I hate feeling this way and I hate knowing that my life is unnecessarily harder for it. My life’s already been hard enough, thank you. I’m so tired and frustrated.

 

[Dunquixote]

i was hoping to spend a lot of time on the easter egg hunt but having my nieces and family over have took most of the day away from it. I know family comes first, but being around my family (my dad mostly) is stressful because when my mom or I ask a simple question he lashes out and asks what our problem is, which is one of the many reasons why i lock myself in my room so i don’t have to deal with being a verbal punching bag. Today he lashed out at my mom. My nieces are kids so their energy is tiresome to me (i love them so much but I am not good with kids and I get bored). I am not a good aunt. I admit it. Right now, now that everyone is in bed, I’m trying to do egg hunt but i can’t since I’m still aggravated with my dad. during the game we played he kept answering the question for people or talking when he shouldn’t be. i am so tired...and crabby. I hope my mom doesn’t make me go to disney world with him when they plan on going with the kids since mentally I cannot deal with him since he doesn’t take medicine for anxiety or acknowledges he has it. it is always on us to be on better behavior. my mental health has been deteriorating for the last few months and I do mot need more stress. then there’s the fact they are making me move. i am still dependent on them so i have no choice in the matter. i want to stay here in this house so even if i didn’t have to move, that wouldn’t solve anything. so frustrated with so many things.

tired of being expected to be the better person but he can continue behaving badly.

 

[Xara]

i was hoping to spend a lot of time on the easter egg hunt but having my nieces and family over have took most of the day away from it. I know family comes first, but being around my family (my dad mostly) is stressful because when my mom or I ask a simple question he lashes out and asks what our problem is, which is one of the many reasons why i lock myself in my room so i don’t have to deal with being a verbal punching bag. Today he lashed out at my mom. My nieces are kids so their energy is tiresome to me (i love them so much but I am not good with kids and I get bored). I am not a good aunt. I admit it. Right now, now that everyone is in bed, I’m trying to do egg hunt but i can’t since I’m still aggravated with my dad. during the game we played he kept answering the question for people or talking when he shouldn’t be. i am so tired...and crabby. I hope my mom doesn’t make me go to disney world with him when they plan on going with the kids since mentally I cannot deal with him since he doesn’t take medicine for anxiety or acknowledges he has it. it is always on us to be on better behavior. my mental health has been deteriorating for the last few months and I do mot need more stress. then there’s the fact they are making me move. i am still dependent on them so i have no choice in the matter. i want to stay here in this house so even if i didn’t have to move, that wouldn’t solve anything. so frustrated with so many things.

tired of being expected to be the better person but he can continue behaving badly.

i’m so sorry. my father is honestly a lot like yours - he is very clearly mentally ill (my bets are on bipolar or borderline personality disorder) and as he doesn’t even believe mental illness exists, he’s unmedicated as well and we’re all left walking on eggshells. this may not be helpful but his issues are not your fault - even when he lashes out, it’s not because of you or something you did - it’s all on him and his unwillingness to take care of himself. and regardless of what anyone else says, you do not have to be the bigger person - if he upsets you, you are allowed to feel that and voice that. being the bigger person should not mean having to silence yourself or to be someone’s verbal or emotional punching bag and i’m really sorry that you have to deal with that. //hugs//

also, i stepped away from the forums for like,, half an hour and came back to this;

this literally scared the **** out of me. not a big deal once i actually read it but the initial red box and seeing “your account has been flagged” was scary as hell LMAO.

 

[Dunquixote]

i’m so sorry. my father is honestly a lot like yours - he is very clearly mentally ill (my bets are on bipolar or borderline personality disorder) and as he doesn’t even believe mental illness exists, he’s unmedicated as well and we’re all left walking on eggshells. this may not be helpful but his issues are not your fault - even when he lashes out, it’s not because of you or something you did - it’s all on him and his unwillingness to take care of himself. and regardless of what anyone else says, you do not have to be the bigger person - if he upsets you, you are allowed to feel that and voice that. being the bigger person should not mean having to silence yourself or to be someone’s verbal or emotional punching bag and i’m really sorry that you have to deal with that. //hugs//
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also, i stepped away from the forums for like,, half an hour and came back to this;

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this literally scared the **** out of me. not a big deal once i actually read it but the initial red box and seeing “your account has been flagged” was scary as hell LMAO.

-hugs back- Thanks, friend . He has been like this all of my life but now it has gotten so bad (he is in his seventies).I’d like to not think it isn’t my fault but sometimes my sister gangs up on me too. :/ She hasn’t recently, but I know if she critcizes me for something or my dad, the other will be on my case immediately. makes me hate myself along with other factors.

don’t worry. i am feeling overall okay about myself, but there are moments i have invasive thoughts. not today thankfully. thanks for responding . I feel a bit better now that i got that out of my system

oh yikes. that would scare me too.

 

[Blueskyy]

Nothing is bothering me that much. I'm honestly just trying to enjoy the life I have while it's still the life I have...if that makes sense at all?

 

[EerieCreatures]

I don't like to talk about stuff like this but, it's been a rough... few months. So gonna ramble about the little things that are tipping my scales too far at the moment.

Spoiler: a ramble

Recently found out I have high blood pressure, which is, kind of scary to be honest because heart issues run in my family at a pretty high frequency and I already have pretty garbage health as it is and I really, really didn't need stuff like this when I'm already trying to get my other issues under management.

I've got, ridiculous social anxiety that makes any interaction with someone about 500x more stressful than it needs to be, and leads into this hellish cycle of trying to fight against it and be social, to struggling to talk to other people and interact, to feeling guilty when I get overwhelmed and can't do it anymore and leave people waiting when I really don't mean to. And it just repeats over and over and over and I'm very stressed out over it a lot of the time and that doesn't exactly help with the aforementioned issue and just, it's exhausting.

and then the really dumb thing being the darn egg event on here because I haven't been here very long, I joined like, a few months ago but I have only been on for a fraction of that time because of, things in my life happening that were really bad and I couldn't deal with trying to be a normal person, and I'm still trying to learn how a lot of stuff just, is, and there's a lot I don't know and I'm certifiably stupid so the darn clues make no sense to me and I could just, not, because I don't really care that much about the collectible things, they're cool and all and I would like to have more but it's not worth this stress, but I can't even just try to puzzle out the clues without getting really stressed and beating myself up for being stupid and it's, very tiresome. I was genuinely excited about this event. I've never taken part in one on here, or anywhere, in so long. I thought it would be fun. Instead I've been so stressed all day it's been making me sick. I don't even know why this is upsetting me as much as it is, but it is.

 

[SpaceTokki77]

i’m so sorry. my father is honestly a lot like yours - he is very clearly mentally ill (my bets are on bipolar or borderline personality disorder) and as he doesn’t even believe mental illness exists, he’s unmedicated as well and we’re all left walking on eggshells. this may not be helpful but his issues are not your fault - even when he lashes out, it’s not because of you or something you did - it’s all on him and his unwillingness to take care of himself. and regardless of what anyone else says, you do not have to be the bigger person - if he upsets you, you are allowed to feel that and voice that. being the bigger person should not mean having to silence yourself or to be someone’s verbal or emotional punching bag and i’m really sorry that you have to deal with that. //hugs//
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also, i stepped away from the forums for like,, half an hour and came back to this;

View attachment 366018

this literally scared the **** out of me. not a big deal once i actually read it but the initial red box and seeing “your account has been flagged” was scary as hell LMAO.

that startled me so much i actually jumped, and i wasn’t even the one who got the alert Dx
i guess it’s just the red and “ur account was flagged”

 

[DinosaurDumpster]

I can't play octo expansion anymore. I have to buy it all over again because my account was transferred over and back.
I can still play octolings, and I have all my gear thats exclusive to the expansion,
but the hundreds of hours I spent 100% the expansion? gone.

 

[oak]

also, i stepped away from the forums for like,, half an hour and came back to this;

View attachment 366018

this literally scared the **** out of me. not a big deal once i actually read it but the initial red box and seeing “your account has been flagged” was scary as hell LMAO.

I had the same pop up and had to change my password. It sure did give me a startle.

 

[Jhine7]

No better way to start off your Easter Sunday but with a flat tire!

 

[Alienfish]

can it be tuesday so i can actually fix this thing, grah.

 

[Lightspring]

Procrastinating super hard on this essay due tonight. Plus it’s Easter today so I’ll have less time to complete it.

 

[Neb]

After I unfollowed my ex they did the same thing and started playing some love songs ( for someone else). I’m so conflicted. On one hand I feel liberated from that toxic relationship, but on the other I feel abandoned and disposable. They found my replacement in less than two weeks. I did nothing to warrant the block and I was never given their true intentions. I’d rather be dumped directly than given some white lies and a block. At least I don’t have to be stuck with someone who treats me that way anymore.

 

[lemoncrossing]

Feeling down tonight because I don’t have any friends in person & I can’t see my girlfriend because she lives too far. Haven’t gotten together with anyone in over a year now (save for my parents) and we’re coming up on my 2nd pandemic birthday spent completely alone. I reached out to an old friend today asking if she’d want to hang out this week (we’re both fully vaccinated so yay!!) but she has ignored the message all day. Feeling very lonely, and dreading my birthday as I always do.

 

[Licorice]

I can’t sleep but I’m bored so idk what else to do

 

[Alienfish]

still haven't found some eggs and i swear i'm gonna flip lol

 

[trashpedia]

Dude, we get it. You're a 15 year old Soundcloud music producer. Just please for the love of god stop trying to turn the Discord server for visual novels about you

 

[Alienfish]

i need 3 more my melody eggs hope i can catch 2 from the restock at least cause i dont think i will find the eggs i still need

 

[.: Meri :.]

Okay, this isn't anything terribly serious, but I'm a pretty germophobic/squeamish person, and...

Spoiler: gross warning

I was getting the towels out of the washing machine and putting them into the dryer, when I noticed something dark and round in the bottom of the washing machine. I was like, is that a coin? A hair clump, maybe? And so I picked it up with my bare hands. It was actually a piece of cat poo that had somehow gotten in one of the towels.
I was distressed, to say the least.
All the towels have been inspected and are getting washed again. I have thoroughly washed my hands three times in hot water. I still do not feel clean. Gahhh.