What's Bothering You?

[Dunquixote]

oh no! i’m so sorry. i’ll keep you and your mom in my thoughts and prayers. ❤




oh i hate when that happens. i’m really sorry, friend.

I'll be okay; thanks so much for the response .. It's not the worst thing that could've happened. I was so close to being done with my entry and having to start over is like omg rawr face. lol. Maybe it'll come out better this time.

 

[TheSillyPuppy]

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I'm so sorry. I hope your mom's surgery is successful and sending you and your family lots of good vibes.

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Oh no, that's the worst! I wish you success on getting your entry written up again!

It hurts me to my core when end users don't use software as intended and end up coming back to my development team with feature requests that we wouldn't have to work on if they were using the third-party software correctly.

 

[Dunquixote]

tysm ☺. I'll get it done. just kinda a pain since I had a lot done.

Ah that sounds so frustrating. Hang in there. If you need to vent, feel free to message me.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

this is a 3000 word essay and yeah I've already got 638 words written but I can't help but feel like I'm already getting stuck

 

[trashpedia]

nvm

 

[Neb]

I hate the fact I miss being in an abusive and codependent relationship. My fear of being alone allowed me to tolerate so many things. I even tried making attempts of reaching out after I was abandoned. It’d be nice if I could start dating again, but I’m afraid of rebounding while I’m not over them...

 

[Dawnpiplup]

Spoiler:

Favorite professor of mine is planning to move away. Don't think he'll stay. He's a sensitive and kind soul and I look up to him. I'm very fond of him. I think it's gonna hit me like a ton of bricks when that day comes. Also feeling depressed and ****ty. Feel like I'm a loser and that I'm not intelligent, and that people don't like me. Thinking I ****ed up. And once I think that way, it goes ****ing downhill. Bet my mom would ****ing laugh at me and say I'm a ****ing loser like my deadbeat dad. I'll never say a peep to her about my problems because **** her. I'm tired. I'll see someone soon to help console me. I don't know, I just would like to continue feeling empty. Though it's an awful feeling, sometimes I'll just want to linger on to all the negativity.

And sometimes I do things that I'll just beat myself over the head with over and over. Like if I feel like I said something idiotic or insulting or if I made a complete fool of myself, I'll lose it. Gonna start thinking that people will hate me or dislike me, and no one loves me. Maybe I got told that too many times by my family and I now turn out to want to receive love from every single person and for everyone to care for me, but that's a lot to ask for. It's impossible but it makes me so sad. I hate myself.

 

[Midoriya]

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Hey, Dawn. I’m sorry your favorite professor is moving away. That’s tough. And I‘m sorry you’re feeling this way too. I can relate as I’ve felt this way before. For what it’s worth I think you’re a great person and your family is just rude af. You seem so much happier when you’re away from them. I’m here for you as a friend and if you need to talk or anything just let me know.

 

[piske]

Spoiler: long

Pretty sure the criminals didn’t hack our router but the laptop is shot. Feeling like i need to consistently force my dad to keep updating/changing stuff. I’m not a black hole of nerves anymore but I’m still quite worried and anxious because of what they could have stolen off of the laptop (taxes) and the potential to start opening credits cards/steal identities... i hope nothing like this happens to anyone else here. I can’t even be mad at my dad anymore. It’s 100% preventable but my dad is way too trusting, even though i thought i had taught him better. I just feel such guilt like i could have prevented this from happening... i know i shouldn’t dwell on that because i can’t change what has happened, but i feel like that will keep me up again tonight also tfw you tell your friend about everything and they don’t even check in to see how i am or anything and tells me about some inane thing instead, like i really care

 

[-Lumi-]

Spoiler: Personal Rambles

I don't know why I'm so bad with conflict. Well, that's not entirely true. My childhood was rocky and full of conflict that ended badly. It makes sense. Either way, I'm terrible with it and the stupid thing is I know I'm terrible with it. So why I even bothered commenting on the situation is beyond me. It's gotten me all upset and frazzled and it's my own damn fault. I know it's one of my anxiety points. I know that. I should know better than to have done that but I did it anyways and I just feel so stupid, yunno? I feel sick to my stomach and like a complete idiot.

 

[trashpedia]

ugggh why do I suck so much at human interactions

 

[oak]

Spoiler: Personal Rambles

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I don't think you're an idiot! I find you to be well spoken if that helps at all.

 

[-Lumi-]

I don't think you're an idiot! I find you to be well spoken if that helps at all.

You're really, really sweet for saying that Oak, thank you. You're really well spoken and lovely whenever I see you around the site.

Sometimes it feels like people talk down to me/are condescending when making their points and that always makes me feel really dumb, especially because I always try to not do that to them, yunno? Or they just start shouting/talking louder than me (my dad does that) and that makes me feel dumb for bothering to say anything. The way I react to it too just makes me feel like an idiot. Like a normal person's response isn't to cry and feel sick after every little bit of conflict but that ends up happening and I always feel so stupid for crying. I know whatever has happened isn't a big deal so then I get even more frustrated with myself for crying about it. :/

 

[Xara]

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you’re not stupid or an idiot at all, love. as someone with anger issues who’s also bad with conflict, i feel your pain and you’re not alone at all. but you’re genuinely one of the sweetest members here on the forum and i’m sorry that you’re not having the best time rn but my pms are always open if you need someone to talk to!

 

[frogslime]

I don't think I'll be able to graduate into 9th grade at this rate

 

[-Lumi-]

you’re not stupid or an idiot at all, love. as someone with anger issues who’s also bad with conflict, i feel your pain and you’re not alone at all. but you’re genuinely one of the sweetest members here on the forum and i’m sorry that you’re not having the best time rn but my pms are always open if you need someone to talk to!

You're really sweet Xara, thank you Just in general you're always sweet when I see you around the site and you're sweet for saying your PMs are open and such. I think I'm okay it was just a combination of my dad saying ignorant things and other things going on at the same time that was really overwhelming. Thank you again though for being so sweet and replying to my post it means a lot that you and @oak did that. I hope you both are having a lovely night

 

[Marridia]

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[Millysaurusrexjr]

every day feels the same

 

[TheSillyPuppy]

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You're not an idiot for having human emotions/reactions and from your posts, you come across as a very sweet and considerate individual! I'm also very bad at dealing with conflict from my childhood (I avoid it at all costs) and I've only really started learning to deal with conflict more head on in university. I've also noticed that points can come across colder/harsher as intended over messages because you don't have tone of voice and body language to go off of.

More work-related things that have triggered me this morning. I cannot believe that an experienced professional was about to present a PowerPoint to management where there was way too much text and visuals on each slide. The content was about stuff I had worked on, and I couldn't even follow along with the flow of the presentation... not to mention, my other coworkers and I had <15 minutes to try to salvage the PowerPoint because we have other project meetings to stay on top of...

This new project is already tedious and complex enough on its own; I don't have the time, energy, or patience to have to redo everything this person works on.

 

[Alienfish]

Feeling a bit better after talking to my superior about that work stuff so I hope everything will be alright