What's Bothering You?

I have a feeling that my boyfriend will ask me to move in with him in a few months (he's a home builder and will finish building his house in the next month and a half or so). He alluded to it when I was talking to him on the phone last night. Don't get me wrong I love the idea of it as we only get a chance to see eachother on the weekends right now, but one major stumbling block will be my work.

I currently work in the town I live in and he lives in a different town that about an hour's drive away if I take the major highway. Said highway is notorious for bad accidents and I prefer to not take it if I can help it. The drive would be well over an hour if I take the back roads instead. Even if I do "toughen up" and take the highway I don't like the idea of having to drive an hour to work every single day. That's 2 hours of commuting total everyday, nevermind the cost of gas.

Before anyone suggests compromising and moving somewhere between the two towns, my boyfriend is in a multi-year contract to build a sub-division in his town so he pretty much needs to stay in said town.

I do like my job a fair bit and the company is one of the nicest I know of but I'm leaning towards looking for a new job. I don't really want to leave but I don't know if I can take the mental strain from driving two hours everyday on one of the most dangerous highways in the country. Getting a job is such a difficult and stressful process though, especially when there really aren't a lot of job opportunities in my boyfriend's town. :/
 
Woah, I just slept for 16 hours. The world is still here? I still have to live my life? Well, okay then. Wish today would just end though. :lemon:
 
It's the 5 year anniversary of my dad's death. I wonder if he would be proud of me.
 
It's kind of hypocritical that my mom tells me that it's fine if I try my best in classes and still get D's or C's in and starts yelling at me when i'm trying my best in math and have a D+ in the class.
 
I saw a cat yesterday while I was out on my walk and it wouldn't let me get close enough to pet it

I just really miss having a pet cat. I wish I was in a place that allowed them
 
Mistake #1: logging into FB
Mistake #2: looking at my parent's posts
Mistake #3: responding to their posts with snide remarks like "did you get hacked" and YouTube videos of their hero talking about how he could get away with murder

Ugh life is short. Gotta find inner peace. Gotta stay off FB.

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Wondering if I actual have to apply to more jobs for sight or not cause I start my new on the 26th....Guess I should call but I never get a good answer from jog agency anyway, shrugs.
 
Living in Ontario makes me want to cry 🙃 Between the rising covid cases, our shipment of vaccines being pushed again, obscene rent prices, unemployment rates, and the way people on ODSP are treated the whole thing just feels like a big joke. A really unfunny joke.
 
The scroll wheel on my mouse stopped working. So, now I need to browse the internet by manually clicking and dragging the sidebar.

Guess I'll just die.
 
Gotta stay off FB.
this is just a must-do anyways lmao


so I saw an email today in my inbox that said my research paper had been graded. you know, the one I worked on for three nonstop weeks, and stressed over constantly because I was afraid of accidental plagiarisms, and literally cried about at least 4-5 times, and made me doubt my sanity on multiple occasions as well as resent writing in general?

apparently I got a C+ on it. I'm not really content with that but it's much better than my last paper, which got an F (0 out of 100 points). my professor said that he could tell I put a lot of effort into it, but he questioned if I had gone to the writing center (and that I needed to go at least 3 times for the writing credit) since my paper was still in quite a rough shape, and I had apparently misspelled some words consistently (first of all, I've gone to see the writing center three times already, and I only have to go three times for the writing credit. second of all, Microsoft Word does an absolutely horrible job of telling me if I've misspelled something and my Autistic/ADHD ass is really bad at skimming through a 3100 word essay to check for spelling errors).

I'm definitely gonna talk w him for a while about this. I've talked to him before about me having trouble writing but maybe it didn't sink in the first time. I'm okay writing shorter essays (like 900-1200 words) and I used to write for fun quite a bit, but ever since I started writing these big essays for college not only have my skills seemed to deteriorate but I really don't enjoy it in any way now. It really doesn't help that his writing requirements are ungodly strict and leaves absolutely no wiggle room at all. now I've gotta go back and fix the essay and just hope and pray that he actually gives me the writing credit, cause if he doesn't then I'm just not gonna graduate am I?


this reminds me a lot of that quote that says "everyone is a genius, but if you judge a fish based on its ability to climb a tree it will go its whole life believing that it is stupid."
 
I did it. I finally blocked my ex back on Discord. For the past few weeks I avoided doing it since just looking at their profile hurts. I also hate blocking people in general. The only reason I’m doing this now is to avoid the chance of being sent something out of spite. I’m just so afraid of them and what they could do.

Of course their profile was plastered with hearts for my replacement. Knowing them, they most likely fell for this person immediately after blocking me and gave them the whole “I’ve had a long string of bad boyfriends and you make me feel safe” speech. I know they have a mental illness that idealizes and demonizes every person they encounter. Rebounds are extremely common for them too. None of this is surprising. It just hurts that they claimed “I have good coping and communication skills” and still did this. Good communication skills aren’t telling your partner you need a few days away and then discarding them.
 
Living in Ontario makes me want to cry 🙃 Between the rising covid cases, our shipment of vaccines being pushed again, obscene rent prices, unemployment rates, and the way people on ODSP are treated the whole thing just feels like a big joke. A really unfunny joke.
Sounds just like Vancouver unfortunately, so I feel your pain.
 
Living in Ontario makes me want to cry 🙃 Between the rising covid cases, our shipment of vaccines being pushed again, obscene rent prices, unemployment rates, and the way people on ODSP are treated the whole thing just feels like a big joke. A really unfunny joke.
+1 on this. I find it so ironic and sad that Canada has been voted the number one country to live in 2021's Best Countries Report. Just goes to show us the true state of the world and how low the bar is, I suppose. 🤷‍♀️ I'm grateful for all that I have; I just wish that things were better for everyone across the board and world.
 
this is just a must-do anyways lmao


so I saw an email today in my inbox that said my research paper had been graded. you know, the one I worked on for three nonstop weeks, and stressed over constantly because I was afraid of accidental plagiarisms, and literally cried about at least 4-5 times, and made me doubt my sanity on multiple occasions as well as resent writing in general?

apparently I got a C+ on it. I'm not really content with that but it's much better than my last paper, which got an F (0 out of 100 points). my professor said that he could tell I put a lot of effort into it, but he questioned if I had gone to the writing center (and that I needed to go at least 3 times for the writing credit) since my paper was still in quite a rough shape, and I had apparently misspelled some words consistently (first of all, I've gone to see the writing center three times already, and I only have to go three times for the writing credit. second of all, Microsoft Word does an absolutely horrible job of telling me if I've misspelled something and my Autistic/ADHD ass is really bad at skimming through a 3100 word essay to check for spelling errors).

I'm definitely gonna talk w him for a while about this. I've talked to him before about me having trouble writing but maybe it didn't sink in the first time. I'm okay writing shorter essays (like 900-1200 words) and I used to write for fun quite a bit, but ever since I started writing these big essays for college not only have my skills seemed to deteriorate but I really don't enjoy it in any way now. It really doesn't help that his writing requirements are ungodly strict and leaves absolutely no wiggle room at all. now I've gotta go back and fix the essay and just hope and pray that he actually gives me the writing credit, cause if he doesn't then I'm just not gonna graduate am I?


this reminds me a lot of that quote that says "everyone is a genius, but if you judge a fish based on its ability to climb a tree it will go its whole life believing that it is stupid."
Would you like some help?

The trick to getting good grades is knowing the right way to structure your response and ensuring that it properly answers the question. You could be the most intelligent person in the class and still walk away with the lowest grade if you haven't mastered how to do that. Good news is that it is something that can be learned. If you are willing to share the question, your essay, and the marking rubric (if he provided one) with me via email I could give you detailed feedback on how to improve it that you could then apply to other assignments.
 
i put a hot pocket in the toaster oven and it burned. then i put a small 1 person pizza in the toaster oven, but then when it was done, i accidentally dropped it and i burned myself.
 
I am really worried about some cards I sent to two people I am trading with. I got their amiibo cards ridiculously fast, but after how long it took me to get the sanrio cards (10 days) and hearing that they still haven’t gotten my cards, I’m really worried. I’d hate to get negative feedback just because the postal service is still messed up in many states. I sent the cards on the same day they sent mine.
 
Would you like some help?

The trick to getting good grades is knowing the right way to structure your response and ensuring that it properly answers the question. You could be the most intelligent person in the class and still walk away with the lowest grade if you haven't mastered how to do that. Good news is that it is something that can be learned. If you are willing to share the question, your essay, and the marking rubric (if he provided one) with me via email I could give you detailed feedback on how to improve it that you could then apply to other assignments.
problem is I've got a pretty good idea on how to do that, but the topic which I'm writing on is pretty narrow and it's not something I was really familiar with at all before this semester started. that, and I'm not the greatest organizer in the world (frequent disorganization a symptom of Autism/ADHD). I appreciate the concern but at this point I think I'd just like to revise the paper based on my professor's notes and turn it in as is. I think as long as I put in all the effort and make the proper corrections I'll get the writing credit. I'll talk w him about that.
 
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